THE SECRET LIFE OF JACOB (TWILIGHT SAGA MY WAY: JACOB STYLE)

Who isn't interested in Jacob's side? Is he really as bad as he's portrayed or is there a bigger picture coming into focus? Jacob isn't just Jacob. He's a werewolf. In Stephenie Meyer's books they were good, but what if something went wrong in the genetics?

I admit that my life hasn't been roses. My life has been the hardest thing I've ever had to endure. That includes loving Bella. The girl next to me stirred and I smiled down at the beautiful, petite form. I brushed her hair out of her face and behind her ear. She looked nothing like her mother. I was some what grateful for that.

It all started when I saw Bella again a couple of years back. The last time I saw her I was about three. Infatuated with her in that age was cute. But as she got older and returned I was crazy in lust. I chuckled, well I still was but that's beside the point.

"Hey Bella." I watched the shy, meek girl stumbling across the yard after tripping over a garden hose. I thought it was cute. My dad had sent me over to show her around Forks since she was new here to Washington. Well, not really that new. Her father Charlie waved at us as I helped her into my truck. Climbing in myself, I turned the key in the ignition. It started loudly.

"So where are we going..um..Jacob?" Her doe like eyes stared at me innocently.

"Hmm, don't know yet. Sightseein'. And call me Jake." She blushed.

"Oh, okay…Jake."

We drove into town in silence. She wasn't much for talking. Nothing changed there. I didn't know what this girls deal was though, I just knew I had to get her to open up. I just then noticed how tight her shirt was. I shifted weight subconsciously. Stop being such a hound dog.

"Well, there's really nothing to see but I wanted to invite you to a friend of mine's party. His name is Paul. You game?'

She shrugged. "It's only 5:30 though. Isn't it too early?"

"It's never too early for a party." I winked at her. "Besides, it's in a barn." She groaned.

"I definitely don't live in Florida any more."

"Nope," I agreed "Now lets get out and get some booze." I watched Sam wave me inside quickly. Good thing he was minding the store today.

"I don't think that's a good idea. You're supposed to be showing me around town, not corrupting me." I stared at her as if she were Medusa. She started laughing. "Just kidding. Jeez."

Ha, OK, she had jokes…


The party was in full swing when we got to Paul's at around 6:45pm. Everyone cheered when I carried in all the food, and the three 24-packs of what Charlie calls Vitamin R. I also bought wine coolers for Bella. I was happy she decided to drink because I wanted her to be 'the one'. I was still a virgin. I hated admitting that and call me stupid, but my first time I wanted to be with someone special to me.

I had a crush on Bella before she even came home. Her dad kept plenty pictures around of her as she grew. I also found her on Myspace and befriended her. After that I creeped a little on her Facebook and Twitter. Her twit pics were generally more risqué than the others. Okay, well not really. Seeing her in a few swimsuits wasn't exactly bad.

I just saw her as mine. She would be anyway once I worked my Black family charm on her. I came from a long line of males getting hotties with bodies. I cringed as a mental image of my mother and father popped into my mind. Gross.


"Bella you're sooo beaut-i-full." I slurred my words against her hair.

"Um, Jake. I need to get home it's almost a quarter 'til eleven. Dad said I had to be home by eleven…" No she couldn't go yet.

"You smell so good." I kissed her forehead.

"Jacob, you're drunk."

"You want me." I reassured her while trying to lift up her shirt.

"No, I don't!" She pushed me backwards into the hay. "Bye."

I watched her go. I was dumbfounded and then I was angry. Standing up, I tried to go after her quickly but my head swam. I had drank more than I had planned. I climbed down the ladder from the loft shakily. Where the hell had she gone so quickly? I stumbled outside. Where's my truck? I patted my pocket for the keys. Damn! She took them at some point. I chastised myself. I usually wouldn't let myself get this drunk.

"Hey." Jessica Stanley was a very annoying girl. Her voice grated my nerves. She shimmied up to me suggestively and shifted her hips into my crotch. I had second thoughts. Maybe my first time wasn't supposed to be special, but a learning experience. Her hand slipped into my jeans. Just maybe.

If I had known what I do now. I wouldn't have gotten so out of control. I would have common sense that girls don't just give it up, first day. Well, unless you were Jessica that is. I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life that night.

I was over Jessica, half naked, my pants down around my ankles. Thrusting into her willing body, I placed her legs around my waist. She whimpered at my size. I was sure she hadn't taken anyone as large as I was. Her nails dug into my shoulder, and she cried out in her pleasure pain euphoria. I couldn't control my pace. I just wanted more, deeper. This feeling surpassed jacking off by a thousand percent.

I pried her fingers off me and held them above her head with one hand. With the other I tweaked her nipple as I continued to drill away. I was getting close. She was sounding pretty good to me as I filled her. She was wiggling underneath me, her insides starting to spasm around me. I didn't know if that meant it was good for the slut under me nor did I care. Our skin made a slapping sound that I could just barely hear because of the music. She let out a scream, and she shivered, bucking underneath me. This must be a female orgasm. Her insides tightened around me rhythmically and I came strongly too. I emptied myself inside her. I collapsed onto her large bosom trying to catch my breath. I wish she had been Bella.

That Summer I had an STD. My first time, first STD. I cringed sitting in the clinic. I was uncomfortable with Dr. Cullen examining me but no way was I going to let this get around. If I went to one of our Doctor's EVERYONE would know. I watched him walk closer. He gave me the fucking creeps for some reason. He handed me a prescription for a strong antibiotic and I was instructed to come back in a week. I thanked him and went about my way.

That was the last time I would ever sleep with someone drunk and with out protection. A dumb move. Hell, that would be the last time I drank period. I had gotten the all clear from the Dr. to resume sex but I wasn't really sure about trying anything out with any one else who wasn't a virgin.

Bella and I were becoming great friends. I apologized to her for my drunken behavior and she assured me it was forgot. After that we were nearly inseparable for months. That is until she stopped hanging out with me and started getting under Edward Cullen. I hated him for that. Not that I could blame her.

I was a somewhat husky kid with a baby face. He was tall, brooding and handsome. Not to include rich. All the girls in town loved him, yet he took no interest in any of them. Until Bella. I didn't have that much money and he had millions. That guy could probably buy every one in this town, minus me of course.

All I would get now from Bella were phone calls. Random, brief explanations of why she hasn't called, followed by her daily schedule which included why she wouldn't be calling any time soon. Lunch with Edward. Dinner with Edward. Breakfast with Edward. Movies with Edward. Picnic with Edward. Blah, blah, fucking blah. I didn't want to hear it.

What she really was telling me is there would be sex with Edward after lunch, during dinner, before breakfast, oral at the movies, and sex on a picnic blanket. I cringed. I could imagine that they had too much sex. Not that I really wanted to know but what the hell does he have that I don't? It's definitely not a huge penis. I have that covered, and well.

"Give it up, dude." Embry laughed when he caught me staring at the Cullen's in the newspaper. "She's not leaving him for you."

"She could." I know I sounded like a pouty kid about to throw a tantrum but damn it that's how I really felt.

"Nah, not possible. See, I care enough to tell you the truth. He's what we call the Alpha male and you are what we call a love sick puppy." I laughed. Alpha male. I'll show him. I roughed him up a little extra as we wrestled. I tossed him down on the ground and kicked dirt on his shirt.

"Now who's the Alpha?"

"Hey! I was going out."

I chuckled. "Going out to get some fast food 'cause I know it's not with a girl."

"Yea, yea, laugh it up." He grinned in return and I helped him up. "Party later at the mill. Bring friends. Find a girl this time."

I rolled my eyes. "No thank you. I'll just get with your sister." Ah, my last dig in just to spite him.

"As long as you pick the ugly one." My mouth almost dropped and then I bust out in laughter.

"Not a chance." I called after him.

Later on that night, I was trying to figure out if I should call Bella or leave her to her fucking. I smirked, call Bella. I dialed the phone and after a few seconds it was picked up by a breathless Bella. I didn't see why I would torture myself so often. I heard her say hello a few times before hanging up. So all my assumptions were true. She wouldn't let me get with her but he had a chance. She was money hungry like all the others. I checked my anger. No, not her. She wouldn't be. I took a deep breath and dialed again. This time it took her longer to answer.

"Swan Residence." Still breathless, but more controlled. I heard him in the background telling her to hang up and she giggled. Gag. She shushed him. "Hello?"

"Hey, it's Jake. You know..your friend."

"Oh! Hey. I am sooo sorry but I'm busy right now can you ..uhm..call me in like..I don't know. I'll call you!"

"Yea, go have fun fucking that douche bag." I said under my breath.

"What?" I could tell she hadn't heard me.

"Oh, sure Bella, I would love to wait to call you again." The change of my voice told on my lying words.

"I'm sorry Jake."

And then she hung up. I slammed down the phone and threw it. I definitely hated the day I ever heard of Edward fucking Cullen.

I hope you liked it! New chappies to all stories coming little by little =) - TwilighterObsessed