Here We Go Again
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I sat at home, watching the Minnesota Wild game. I saw him strike at the hockey puck, and score. He got to live out his dream. I didn't. Let me tell you about my life. I'll start from the beginning.
It all started about nine years ago. I still remember that day like it was yesterday. The day I told Kendall I was pregnant.
He was so excited, so I got excited too. Eight months later, I have birth to a little girl named Kelsey June Knight. She was absolutely beautiful. She looked exactly like Kendall. Blonde hair, green eyes, dimples.
That day was a new chapter in our lives.
About three months after Kelsey was born, we ended the band. Kendall and I moved back to Clearwater, Minnesota. Carlos and Logan moved to San Mateo, California. Mama Knight remarried a new man and moved to Louisville, Kentucky with him and Katie. Gustavo and Kelly got married four months after the band ended and moved to Duluth, Minnesota. No one expected them to move to Minnesota of all places, but it did mean that we could keep contact with them easily, since Duluth was only three hours away from Clearwater.
We all kept contact despite being a bit spread out. Life seemed perfect. We still talked to all our friends, Kendall and I were raising our beautiful daughter together, and it seemed like nothing could go wrong.
Six months after we left California, Kendall and I got married. When Kelsey was about a year and a half old, I found out that I was pregnant again. When I told Kendall, he hadn't been all that happy. He explained about how we were already having trouble with money and raising one child, so how could we support another?
I was a little upset at Kendall for saying that, but I knew that it was true. We talked it over and decided that we'd keep the baby. Kendall got a second job, and I began babysitting. We did everything in our power to avoid asking our friends for money. Seven months later, we welcomed a beautiful baby into the world named Kaiden Adam Knight. And I have to admit, taking care of two young children was hard. Money was tight, but we found ways. During this time, Kendall and I started drifting apart. By the time Kaiden was seven months old, we had completely stopped acting like a couple. We argued, we couldn't agree on anything, and we hadn't even so much as kissed in months.
We dedicated the next couple months to improving our marriage. We went to counseling and everything. Eventually, things did start getting better. We were finally a happy family again.
Until when Kelsey was about three and a half and Kaiden was about a year and a half old. I found out that I was pregnant again. I honestly felt like I was cursed at that point.
I told Kendall that I was pregnant again, and he was extremely unhappy. He started screaming at me to get rid of it, that he didn't want it, and that we couldn't support yet another child. I got mad at him and started screaming back, that he couldn't force me to do anything, and that I wouldn't get rid of it. We continued to scream at each other, getting so loud I'm pretty sure people outside the house could hear us. Tears began forming in my eyes as we continued to argue. I really hated this. Then he did something I'll never forget.
He raised his hand and slapped me hard across the face. I fell to the ground on impact. I looked up at him, my eyes full of tears. I put both of my hands on my bruised cheek as I began to sob. Kendall realized what he had done and got down on his knees. He cupped my face and kissed my bruised cheek. Tears were flowing down my face like a waterfall. He told me that he would never do it again, that it would never happen again.
It did.
It happened two more times.
The second time in happened was when I was three months pregnant. Kendall punched me in the face.
The third time it happened I was six months pregnant. Kendall choked me until I blacked out. That time was the worst. I thought I was going to die.
Luckily, our baby wasn't hurt and I gave birth to another baby girl named Allison Isabella Knight. It should have been a happy time. It definitely wasn't.
Three month after Allison was born, Kendall left. We had gotten into another argument, and he left. He went to go play for the Minnesota Wild, and left me with our three kids.
Eight months later, Kendall came back. He apologized to me and said that he would never leave again. He said he loved the kids and me. And like an idiot, I believed him. We made love that night.
Guess what happened?
Yup, I got pregnant with our fourth child.
When I told Kendall he promised to stay by my side. Well, that promise lasted until I was five months pregnant.
Kendall left. Again.
About a month after he left, he sent me a letter, saying that he was going to continue playing for the Wild. I opened the second envelope and found divorce papers in it, that Kendall had already signed. I felt like my heart just shattered into a million pieces. I just broke down and started crying. But I signed the papers.
After that, Kendall and I were officially divorced. I had lost all contact with my friends after I had Kaiden, so I had no one left to talk to. My life pretty much sucked. The only good part of my life was my kids, and my mom (who didn't know about any of this.)
I had my fourth child, a baby boy named Adrian Layne Knight.
So here I am no, a twenty four year old alone with four kids, divorced from the love of his life, who probably doesn't even give a shit about him and his kids anymore, and no friends.
I'm James Diamond. And this is my shitty life.
I know I should be focused on I'll Catch You When You Fall, but I've had this idea for a long ass time, so I had to start it. Please review and tell me what you think. Thanks for reading, bye!
