This is a songfic for Savana80's fanfic "bloody hands" she DID give me permission to put this on ff.net so dun sue me or nothing, k? And remember, reviews keep authors alive...we live for these things!!!! The italic writing are the verses to the song by BBMAK







GHOST OF YOU AND ME



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What am I supposed to do with all these blues

Haunting me everywhere

no mater what I do

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It was late. Sebastian knew he should have slept hours ago, but every time he tried, a rush of images and memories of nights with Gatti flooded back into him mind.



"Why won't it stop?" Sebastian would ask himself "Why can't I just forget?"





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Watching the candle flicker out

In the evening glow

I can't let go, when will this night be over

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Nights were always the hardest part.



"It must be near mid-night." He thought to himself. The candle in his window had burnt out long ago. So many memories kept coming back to him. Why couldn't the night be over?





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I didn't mean to fall in love with you

and baby there's a name for what you put me through

It isn't love It's robbery

I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

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Sebastian never meant to love Gatti. He was a friend. Just a friend.



"Then why did I kiss him? Why did I care so much" Sebastian thought.



It kept coming back. The day he had kissed Gatti in the locker room after practice. How Gatti's hair stuck to his face with sweat. How Gatti had waved when he left. How it had taken Sebastian nearly 30 minutes to fully come out of his trance.



That was the most common image. That, and when he had heard of Gatti's death. All of the remaining Dragon Slayers, killed by the King of Fenalia. Van. The bastard that had killed the only one Sebastian had ever loved.





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Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
Well one of them is mine

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Sebastian recalled the day when a memorial was held for the Slayers and their bravery. So many people had shown up, mainly soldiers and generals, and Lord Dilandau or course. Sebastian distinctly remembered one family. A woman holding a small girl in her arms, and there was a young boy with her too. He was probably six or seven years old. Blackish hair, or was it brown, Sebastian couldn't remember, and he had eyes like that of a wolf's, calm but alert. Sebastian sighed and took a sip of his wine. He peered out the window and stared, as he usually did, at the night's dark sky.





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Raising my glass I sing a toast to the midnight sky

I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

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Sometimes Sebastian could feel Gatti's presence, hear his voice, like an echo in his mind. Ever time Sebastian tried to move on, to forget, the voices returned, and with them, the pain.



Sebastian knew he would get back at Van. Avenge the death of the one he loved. Make Van suffer. Someday Van would be dead, somehow Sebastian would see that it happened, even if it meant his own death. Van had robbed him of his love, his life, and he wouldn't get away with it.



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I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

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~~~~~End~~~~~~