This story starts off after Breaking Dawn with the start of Leah's life. She must now face being a werewolf, seeing her cousin, Emily and Sam get married, and a lot more drama.
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Chapter 1-- Monster
Leah
I sat in silence, with my blank expression staring right back at myself in the mirror as Sue prepped my hair, make-up, and dress.
I looked like a princess. That's what my mother kept telling me, but I couldn't even take that in consideration, because the feelings that I was feeling right now deep inside, regardless of my outside appearance, affected everything. Every feeling I had.
I'd rather this have been my day, but if I thought of that too much, I'd seem selfish and slowly that thought would become a sin to me.
Because this was my cousin's day. Emily's. This was her day to shine and forever be wedded to the man she was meant to be with. Sam.
But Sam, happened to be my high school sweetheart. And so, one can definitely imagine the amount of emotion I must endure as I watch the smiles and the joyous abundance of celebration that is flowing all around La Push right now.
"It's your cousin's wedding day...do you know that, Leah?" My mother interrupted my thoughts and brought me back to life. I had been so caught up in the gaze of looking at my long, black hair pinned up in pink flowers, and the blush that highlighted my cheekbones.
"Yes…I know it." I replied back. It sounded more depressing than I intended it to be, but whatever. My life was depressing.
"Well, I am sorry to be the one to break it to you, but I think that Emily will be very unhappy to see you…well, acting this way at her wedding." My mother's words drowned my head.
She didn't seem to understand my situation. As the tears stung inside my eyes, I fought with myself to hold them back. It would mess up the makeup. Not that I cared. But Sue had worked hard.
I didn't even answer her. I was afraid of what would come out. Rudeness, perhaps? Or maybe I'd just explode, shredding the beautiful, pink bridesmaid dress and running into the forest to escape as the monster that I was.
Either scenario was dreadful to think about; with this being Emily and Sam's, wedding I couldn't have them pitying me any more than they already have. I have to look tough.
I have to move on.
Without him.
"Leah, it's been a year. When are you just going to…you know…move on? I know it's hard, trust me. But, you have to let things go. I have." My mother's words now started to overflow inside of me.
I couldn't take it anymore. I was drowning.
What was she saying?
No.
Why was she saying it?
I started to tremble.
No. Don't do this. Not today.
My hands shook.
And I exploded.
"YOU HAVE?! OH, YOU HAVE?! So, you've forgotten about dad right? You've moved on and he's just a thing of the past to you, huh? You have Charlie now, RIGHT?!? Is that what you expect me to do? You want me to just forget that I'm this ugly, disgusting, grotesque monster wolf? You want me to forget that my father died because of me and the only guy that I ever loved wasn't even meant for me? You think I should just delete from my mind the fact that my cousin is a beautiful bride and has nothing to worry about because she's with the love of her life and this was supposed to be my day? You want me to just, forget that right?! Well, I…I…I CAN'T!!!"
Every part of my body trembled as I held on to the counter, digging my newly manicured nails into the granite.
Sue looked like she was about to cry and faint at the same time. But she was frozen, her hands were by her side and she stared at me thru the mirror.
Why? Why couldn't I just control myself?
Now, I hurt my mother.
All because of my instincts. My stupid instincts.
The tears stung inside my eyes more than ever now, and I could feel them about to topple over, ruining my makeup. Could I hold them back? Did I have the strength?
My mother closed her eyes, a tear glistening down her face. Then she turned towards the bathroom door and sighed,
"I'm sorry."
She left from the room.
My tears now fell, creating a blurred, runny mess of makeup all over my face.
At least now my face matched the real thing that I was.
An ugly monster.
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Author's Note: It is very much appreciated if you'd take just a tiny second to give me your thoughts in a brief summary. I am looking forward to continuing this story with lots more in store and I hope you all enjoyed reading!
Much thanks,
Jasmine.
