Revised version
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of its characters
Kagome POV:
My tired chocolate eyes gazed upon the never ending sky of stars. The feudal era was so beautiful, so… natural, nothing was artificial. It was a quiet night, like all the others, it had no constant noise of cars speeding by, or trains passing underneath the solid ground. The world was silent, except for Mother Nature of course.
I heard shuffling, a creek, a twig crack and then silence. I lifted my head up from my comfy pillow towards the tree that Inuyasha usually occupied, but it was vacant, nothing…, empty. I felt a pull on my heart, no, much deeper than that, I felt a pull on my soul, headed towards Inuyasha forest. I quietly got out of my sleeping bag, making sure that Shippo didn't wake up and commenced to walk towards the direction of the pull. My feet moved on their own accord, I didn't direct them in any way or form. It was as if they had a mind of their own.
I shivered as the cool night air hit my uncovered skin. I tried hugging myself in effort to rid my body of the cold, but…, the coldness wouldn't leave. The feeling of emptiness and dread started making its ugly head into my system. The cold dark night bothered me, it gave me a feeling of loss, but of what I didn't know, that was until I saw them.
My tired eyed opened wider then they had ever done before. Next to the beloved sacred god tree, where Kikyo had pinned Inuyasha, and where I had freed him from stood the person who held my heart. And he was breaking it ever second he was there, embracing her. My heart cracked as I gazed upon their gentile lovers embrace until I could no longer look because all the pieces had shattered.
My feet ran, I ran, my soul ran to a place where I could silently cry. My clothes ripped and tore. The twigs and branches of the forest ripped at my skin cutting and hurting me even more. But it was nothing compared to my heart break, no physical pain could compare to what I felt inside, the emptiness, the hallow space where my heart was before it was shattered into nothing put undistinguished pieces of cracked ugly glass.
I kept running, minutes passed, hours… I didn't even know anymore I just kept running. I had to find a place in which I could cry, cry and not be criticized for my weakness, my weakness of loving him.
I had run all nightfall. I had grown tired by the time the sun had begun to rise. I was exhausted mentally and physically. I couldn't take it anymore I wanted out, out of this never ending pain. The pain, the excruciating pain…, it wouldn't stop. I felt as if I was suffocating, dying inside. I felt a black hole inside of me just like Miroku's cursed hand trying to suck me inside my own darkness, hurt, hate and soul. Well the piece of soul that still belonged to me, the piece that was still mine.
The world started spinning, "Inuyasha," I called out, no answer, "Inuyasha," I called out again still no answer. I drooped to the floor, resting for the first time.
My thought lingered back to Inuyasha, he wasn't here. He hadn't followed me like all the other times. He hadn't come to look for me, he hadn't cared. Maybe he had never care, maybe he just followed after me all those times due to a certain degree of responsibility over my well being. Because of course, back then, when he and Kikyo weren't on friendliest terms, I was the only one who could help him find the jewel shards. But know he had her, he didn't me need me, not even as his shard detector anymore.
He didn't care about what happened to me he didn't give a dam. No one cared, no one, why should I continue my sorrowful existence in a world that didn't want me.
My chain of thoughts stopped, had I actually considered killing myself, what.., what had I become. All of Inuyasha's hateful words resurfaced, and hit me like a ton of bricks, useless, weak, wench, pathetic. I was just a burden to all my friends and Inuyasha …. He didn't care. He wouldn't mind me being dead. If I were to jump off a cliff it would be better for everyone, me dying is the best I could do for everyone, the best I could do…. the most I could do.
I was determined; I knew what I had to do. I knew what I had to do for everyone. I looked straight ahead of me; I could hear rushing water, which could only mean one thing. It meant that there was a river and a river would eventually lead to a cliff. And just like the water tumbled down the cliff I would flow down with it as well.
I followed the river, anticipation stirring within me; as I got closer to the cataract I could hear the gushing sound of water falling down the cliff. I smiled, just a little more just a few feet more and I would make the world a better place without me. I stood at the edge of the cliff, the beautiful blue liquid surrounded by the green forest and the never ending sky would be my only witness of what I was about to do.
I took a deep breath and said my final words," Goodbye Inuyasha aishiteru," and then with my final breath I jumped.
Oddly the fear and anticipation of the fall seemed ridicules, I hadn't felt anything, who knew that death could be... so painless. But then I realized I wasn't dead. I felt a soft warm body holding me so tightly that it was as if I was being crushed. I gazed up into golden eyes, surprised I gave a startled screech.
"What do you think you are doing Miko?"
