I'd like to make this a long one if anyone can let me know how you insert chapters-I'm relatively new to this.
It's my first SVU fic and it's based on Paternity (even though I haven't seen it yet) and an E/O ship so you have been warned.
Disclaimer: No matter how much I'd like to say that they are but they are not my characters. Except Marcie O'Brian who is coming later on.
A/N- Most of the chapters will have latin titles, matching the requiem mass. Tried to make them as accurate as possible but if there are mistakes let me know.
In die illa tremenda (on that dreadful day)
Kathy's POV
The darkness seemed to evolve into a painfully bright aurora as Kathy squirmed in her seat. Sensing great discomfort in her abdomen she called to Olivia.
There was no response.
Kathy panicked. It was no secret that she had a distinct dislike for her husband's partner but right now she was the only person she had until help arrived. She scarcely whimpered Olivia's name but the more times there was no response, the more she feared. Olivia didn't look that injured, she had a slight cut on her forehead and blood was oozing from her nose but apart from that her injuries were not apparent. However Kathy knew full well that there was no telling from just her apparent injuries.
Pain brought her back into reality as a sharp contraction tore though her stomach. A knock at the window startled her but relieved her at the safe time. That's all there was to tell before darkness clouded her mind once more.
When Kathy regained consciousness she was lying on a gurney in the ambulance. The events that had just happened swam back into her mind.
"My husband, have you called my husband?" She said desperately. The EMT continued to check her vitals and looked at her calmly.
"Yes, he's going to meet us at the hospital. Is there anyone you know we could call for Detective Benson? Any family?"
Kathy was going to immediately say she had no one. It was true she had no family but her brother but it was wrong to say that she had no one that cared for her here. She swallowed her jealousy and spoke up.
"My husband is her work partner, her colleagues she probably be informed" she said turning to look at the wreck of the car, the EMT stood in her path and blocked the view. "Is she going to be ok?" she stammered. This time, the EMT did not look so hopeful.
"We're not sure; one of my colleagues is working on her now-"
"What do you mean working on her?" Kathy said trying to stay calm. The EMT took a deep breath.
"She's very unresponsive, but we can't be sure of anything until she gets to the hospital"
Another pain doubled Kathy over in pain.
"I think you're going into labour, so we're gonna have to get out of here" The EMT said before they quickly sped off to the hospital.
6 Hours later.
"What the hell happened?" Elliot raced through the doubled doors to be faced with a solemn Don Cragen. "Munch said there was an accident" he panted before Cragen could respond.
"Kathy and your son are doing fine" he said breeching a smile. He couldn't help let his concern for Olivia overwhelm his concern for Kathy and the baby.
"And what about Olivia?" Elliot had calmed by now and had noticed that Cragen was close to tears-a form of Don Cragen Elliot had never seen. He put his hand over Elliot's shoulder and took him to one side.
"It's not good. She's in surgery now" Cragen's words spun in Elliot's head. His partner of eight years was fighting for her life because he forgot about his wife's appointment. As if sensing his realisation, Cragen spoiled the silence.
"It's not your fault Elliot, this would have happened regardless" Elliot pulled away and shock began to sink in. Not knowing whose bedside to be at he paced over to Kathy's window. He peered inside and saw his wife resting peacefully with their newborn in her arms. She looked up and saw him, she signalled for him to come in. He looked back at Cragen.
Cragen didn't mean to come across as angry but it upset him when Elliot went to enter the small room-did he really care at all about Olivia. Before the door shut Cragen called to him. He stopped and paused, turning around to face his superior.
"Are you really going to sit in there while there's every chance Olivia is never going walk out of this place like she has done so many times before?"
Elliot ignored him and shut the door. It wasn't that he didn't care for Olivia, he did and more than he cared to admit. If he saw Olivia now, he knew he would break down and it would be revealed to everyone how he felt about his colleague. Sitting with his wife, he felt an overwhelming sense of guilt. He felt like he was betraying Olivia not being at her bedside.
"How's Olivia?" Kathy asked bringing Elliot out of his trance. His throat felt tight and struggled to find words that would come out of his mouth.
"She's in surgery" he said very quietly.
"But she's going to be ok right?" She said. Elliot, truthfully not knowing what was going to happen to the love of his life, shook his head in despair.
"I really don't know"
Throbbing didn't even scrape the surface of what she was feeling right now. Was she alive? Her vision was too blurred to tell. She tried to remember what happened but pain engulfed her and her whole body felt like it was on fire. It suddenly occurred to her that it felt like something was missing. Her legs were both in tact as were her arms. So what was it? Blaming the sensation on her pain medication she put the thought to the back of her mind. She heard a voice, a male voice and she instinctively felt the name roll off her tongue without control.
"Elliot?" She whispered hoarsely.
The figure suddenly came into focus and it surprised her when she saw the face of a stranger looking down at her.
"Nice to have you back with us, Miss Benson. My name's Dr O'Brian, I was your surgeon"
Realising she couldn't actually remember what had happened she struggled to find the words to ask.
"What happened?" She asked, trembling.
"Well, that answers my first question" Dr O'Brian said gently
"You were involved in an MVC and I don't believe you were in the wrong so don't go worrying yourself about that"
"What about Kathy?"
"Kathy? Kathy Stabler? She and baby are fine" Dr O'Brian said positively. Olivia sighed with relief. She didn't know what she'd do if she knew she was responsible for Kathy and the baby's death. No matter how many times people told her she wasn't to blame.
"You on the other hand, were very lucky to be alive" he said happily but his mood suddenly changed. Olivia noticed this and felt her heart race. Call it intuition but she felt in her gut that she knew what he was going to say.
"It was touch and go, you only have a minor head injury which is a miracle but you also had severe internal bleeding. We rushed you into surgery but it was too late, I'm sorry"
Without even needing to be told in words Olivia knew for certain at that moment what she was missing.
"A foreign body cut through your abdomen and perforated your uterus. You lost so much blood and the damage was so severe we had to perform a hysterectomy. I'm very sorry"
She immediately erupted into sobs. She cried for herself, and for the children she knew she'd never have. For now she truly had nothing. As for Elliot, he had his wife and five children. She felt sick at the thought. All she'd ever done was help people and this was how she was repaid.
"Don Cragen is outside, he wants to see you" Dr O'Brian began.
"No, I don't want to see anyone, no one, you understand" The doctor nodded and left the room.
Even though she knew none of this was his fault. She didn't feel like she would ever be able to face Elliot again.
a/n So, what did you think? This piece wasn't proof read so I apologise if there are still mistakes in there, even though I checked at least four times. If someone could let me know how chapters work you'll get some more.
Oh, and another thing. Just like every other writer, I love to know what you think. Am I wasting my time or not? Just a little review, that's all!
TTFN Folks!
