The nice lady was looking at me with something that I couldn't recognize playing in her eyes. "So Adam, 'Can't Let you go' it's a bonus song in your debut album, and we wanted to know: Why it's a bonus and how did you choose it?"

Now I know what was in her eyes.. it was that whole accomplice thing that some fans have... Kris thinks it's amazing, I think that sometimes is kind of scary, I mean, right now it looks like she's reading my mind, and this tought is kind of unconfortable...

I had to answer her and I already knew what I was going to say. "Well... I chose it because it has a nice rock vibe, it's such an amazing song, but it ended up being a bonus because it didn't really fit with the rest of the tracks on the album; it's a haunting song with all kind of influences from other genres and kind of exceeds the boundaries of the type of music that was on the rest of the record." She is looking at me like she knows I'm lying... there's no way that she can know that, right? See what I meant by scary? My publicist is pointing to her watch and that means that the time ended, and I had never been happier to see her.

I'm finaly in my car... I honestly wish I could tell the truth (no pun intended). It all started on the idols tour, no... It started when Kris and I became room mates...

I don't think it's that much of big news that I think Kris is cute, well, totally my tipe... God I told rolling stone about it! What might be big news is that Kris isn't 100% straight. Is more like 50%... okay now it's 30/20% but when I met him he was 50%.

He told me he was bi right after I told him I was gay... I still laugh when I remember our talk...

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"So Kris... I gotta tell you something" I was nervous; after all he was the cute arkansas Christian boy. "I'm gay... I understand if you decide to change rooms or something like that"

He stoped unpacking, looked at me and said "well... I'm bi so it would be kind of hypocritical if i did that." My eyes seemed to want to pop out of my head, he looked at me and started laughing "Dude, you should see your face right now" and started looking for something inside his bag "I gotta take a picture of that... Something tells me that you don't get that surprise very often"

"Sure as hell I don't... But I never met a married bissexual. Sorry if that took me off guard"
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That was the beginnig of our friendship... I don't know why, but I always felt like it would eventually turn into something else, but I kept that for myself. He was married, and Katy was a nice girl, I couldn't hurt her.

Then we both got into the top 13, and moved to the mansion, me and Kris kept sharing a room, and I kept feeling that something big was about to happen. Then the pics leaked out, I couldn't believe, and once again there he was, he and Allison. I don't know what I would've done without them...

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"It's not the end of the world Adam. Tuesday you're gonna sing and everybody will be so impressed by your voice that the pics will be forgotten!" Allison's red hair seemed to be glowing. "She's right Adam... What are you going to sing?" I hadn't thought about it, I was to busy thinking about how america would react to the pics. "I don't know yet... I was thinking about Thriller..."

I looked at Kris and he had an 'I'm thinking really hard' face on. Then he had a grin. "What about 'Black or White'? It would be amazing; people would get that you're not talking about color but sexuality" Alli started jumping "That's a great Idea Kris! Do it Adam, It would be a 'fuck you' to people that are paying attention to your sexuality instead of your singing!"

I had really enjoyed the Idea. "Okay then! I'm gonna sing Black or White!"

Although the performance wasn't that good (my voice was all over the place) it felt good to tell people that it didn't matter if you were gay or straight, American Idol is a singing competition.

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"Adam? Adam!" A knock on my car window dragged me out of my toughts. It was the lady that had interviewed me. I open the car window. "Are you okay?" I smile at her "Yeah, I just got lost in my toughts" she looked at me in a way that made me feel like she knew what I had been thinking about. Once again: Scary "Oh... Okay, I just you may need some help. Well, good night!" And she was gone. My cellphone started ringing. It's Kris.

"Hi Kris!"

"Hey Adam. Have you gotten out of your interview?"

"Yeah, I did. Why?"

"Well, I get home and find out we have no food. We have ice cream, but not food."

"Yeah... when I got back I kinda ate a restaurant... I didn't want to go to a grocery store, and as I got back early my mom didn't had time to buy us food" And I knew what he was going to say now

"So... you didn't bought food but bought Ice cream... sometimes I think you would trade me for a sundae..."

He loves talking about my 'ice cream issue' as he calls it

"I would never do that baby... You should know!"

"Okay... but bring food when you come back! I'm hungry!"

"Sure thing. Bye. Loveya"

"Loveya too. Don't forget the food" I could hear him chuckling when I hung up

It's amazing how we work out. As I wait for the food I get lost in my thoughts once again.