WHEN BELLA IS CLIFFDIVING :O

It was no longer a want, its an obsession a need if you will. Jacobs deserted me . My best friend my rising sun and so had my true love ed- him. I cant say his name the pain is too much. I feel the pain slowly rising . NO . This cant happen now . I need the pain to go . So I do the only thing that clears the pain . Find something reckless and stupid . I remember the first time I saw them jump. Yes jacob called them a cult but they are merely a pack. A pack of werewolves ! They were cliff diving. Recreationally of course. But still cliff diving . And I thought they would get hurt. Yes right. Jacob promised he would take me one day but obviously he dosent have time since victoria has come back. Yeh you heard right she came back. I knew she would but not now. Why now ! I walk up the cliff. Hmm, long way down. I take off my shoes and socks. Fun. Maybe not. But a rush non the less. Ah my hallucination of him appears. Right on time my mind tells me . Why did he have to leave me. Why did EVERYONE have to leave me .

Carlisle; my second father
Esme; my second mother
Alice; my best friend & sister
Jasper; my brother
Emmett; Emmy Bear also my big brother
Rosalie; spiteful but my sisterWas I really just their pet? Yes my mind screams. I don't know why he always said he loved me. I always knew I was never enough for somebody like e-edw-ward . How could they play me like that ! I felt angry. HE BROKE SO MANY PROMISES. That was it.

I took a step forward
'STOP' my un-real love told me
'no' I replied curlty moving forward again
'PLEASE BELLA DONT DO THIS' he screamed
'HA you never loved me why would you care'
I knew I sounded crazy but I couldnt care less
'bella why are you doing this to me' he pleaded
'You wanted me to be human then watch me'
I curled my toes on the ledge
'stop' he sounded defeated
I step off the ledge and then I was falling
lyrics quickly formed in my head
'and in the freefall i'll realise that i'm better off when I hit the bottom'
why they formed i'll never know. It just happened then I realised I was still falling
down
down
do-SPLASH

I felt the cold water engulf me . What a rush. I quickly swam to the top for air. I took a deep breath. ah. I better get swimming back to the shore. I was about to turn around to swim when I saw it.
Edward was there,the hallucination of course staring in horror just like he did the day tylers van almost crushed me . I slowly tuned round. SHIT!
There was a giant wave heading my way and somehow it looked like it would give no mercy. I took a deep breath a second before I was flung under. I tried to swim back up but the force of the waves was making it too hard.i couldn't see my edward anymore but I sure as hell could hear him.
'SWIM BELLA' he demanded
i'm trying I replied mentally
I was beginning to give up I-i couldn't it was too much
'DAMMIT BELLA DONT GIVE UP' he shouted
i'm sorry edward
'KEEP TRYING GO GO'
I love you edward
I screamed mentally before I gave myself over to the waves . They icily gripped my body. Colder than edward.
Oh edward I really am truly truly sorry it was never ment to happy like this !
I thought i saw read hair in the distance
well if the sea dosent kill me she will
Goodbye
Charlie; I'm Sorry Dad
Renee; love You Mom
Phil; The best stepdad
Carlisle; I'm Sorry
Esme; I'll Miss You
Alice; Your The Best
Jasper; I Forgive You
Emmett; Your Hugs were the best
Rosalie; I Understand
Edward: My Mate
I love you all...
that was my last thoughts before everything went black...:(

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