August 03 2015
Hey big bro.
How are you doing? I hope you're doing well. I pray you're doing well but there's no way I can tell. No way any of us can tell.
Where are you? And what's with those weird farewell messages you've sent to your closest friends? I beg of you, don't do anything stupid, whatever is wrong, it's not worth it.
She isn't worth it.
I know you see it differently. I know she is your world. And I don't even know what she did to hurt you this time, but please believe me when I tell you it's not worth it.
It's been almost three hours now and we still have no idea where you are. I have contacted the police even though mom said she doesn't believe they will go looking for you since you haven't even been missing for a day yet.
But you see, you are a special case when it comes to the police. You need to take meds. And without those meds your life is in danger. So they will go looking for you, I know they will. They have to.
Just where the hell are you?
Everyone is looking for you to be perfectly honest. They're looking everywhere and nowhere at all. The police, dad, your friends. Meanwhile I have to stay home with mom just in case you do show up here. So someone is here. So someone can tell you you're welcome to come in. So someone can just be there for you.
But you aren't going to be coming home, are you?
God, I hope they will find you.
It's nine pm right now. Your friend called us about two-and-a-half hours ago. A little more. Closer to three hours at this point. Not like it matters since minutes feel like days right now.
The police asked me where you might be. I didn't know. I was at a complete loss. I have no idea where the hell you might be. We checked your new apartment. You know, the one you were supposed to move into next Monday? That one. But you weren't there. Of course you weren't, you don't even have the keys for it yet.
The police also checked your old apartment. Figured it wasn't a good idea we went to go interrogate your soon-to-be ex-wife by ourselves. Not like she would have opened the door for us anyways from what it seems like.
They said she wasn't being very cooperative. They were back at our place about twenty minutes after leaving to talk to her.
Doesn't she know or doesn't she want to tell? It's driving me insane.
Mom and I have been trying to call you nonstop. It keeps going straight to voice mail. Whenever we do get it to ring (I still haven't figured out why it sometimes rings and then goes straight to voicemail. Does that mean you're actually declining the calls? But you must be getting so many, considering your friends and everyone else keeps trying to reach you as well) you do not pick up.
Please, please just pick up your goddamn phone so we know that you're alright.
I've been talking to one of your friends on facebook. The one who used to go to school with me. He's with dad and some other guys right now. They're searching a forest. I think they called it the Cannon. I have no fucking clue where that is.
Why is it that after knowing you for 25 years I have no idea where the hell you might be?
I told the police about that fishing pond you sometimes used to go to. I know it exists. At the same time I have no idea where exactly it is. You used to love going there so much, you kept talking about it. So why the hell do I not know where it is?
I know you liked going to the sea. I told them that. If you went up to the sea you're really far away, though. They said they'll be searching the close proximity first and then see where it leads from there.
Why can't it be like in the movies? They can just track your phone and be over with it right? Or track your car somehow? I gave them both your number and your license plate. I at least knew that much.
We haven't heard any news from anyone in a long time and I really am not liking this.
Please just pick up your phone and tell us where you are, okay?
You can be mad at me for calling the cops, I really don't care. I know you're not too big a fan of them. I know you'll be angry once they find you, if they find you.
Be angry at me all you want, just please be alright.
