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Just my Perspective
"Second day of class"
I knew it was bad, but I am continuing my usual habit of staying awake for no particular reason until about halfway through the night. Once again, I am simply sitting at my desk, using my laptop, either reading vapid news articles that don't pertain to me or perusing Wikipedia and learning about the fall of the USSR for no good reason. Wikipedia is good for stuff like that. Going on there always kills time. I'm going to be seventeen soon too, so I can recover fine from a semi-sleepless night like this.
To my left there is a large window with dark green curtains that I don't dare uncover in the middle of the night (but not because I am scared, of course). To my right there is my bedroom door, which I don't want to venture out of and run the risk of waking my cousin Sora or my aunt and uncle. Directly behind me is my bed, which failed to convince me to stay in it. All around the floor there is a combination of clothing, CD's, my acoustic and electric guitars, and random things I printed and that I probably should organize (but not now). So that leaves me with my precious laptop, which I'm on now.
My precious laptop actually doesn't seem to be all that precious from an outsider's point of view in terms of how well I keep it. Can't blame an outsider though, the thing is littered with stickers and scratches. To be fair though, most of the stickers came from a young relative whom I hardly get to see and whom I didn't want to disappoint. About half the scratches did come from me though. Still, that leaves half caused by others who weren't being careful. Most probably came from Sora; he could be pretty careless with junk too. Not that this laptop is junk.
Anyway… I'm glad I decided to start typing. I saw a guidance counselor earlier today and he said a few things that I genuinely had to think about. He also told me a lot of useless junk, like the typical you're-a-great-guy-so-be-confident stuff that I've been getting earfuls of, but he definitely seemed smart. Dr. Ansem was his name. I'm still not sure if Ansem was his first or last name. Apparently he's from Radiant Garden and came all the way here to Destiny Islands to "learn to help people better". Is it bad that I kind of believed him? Maybe I just want to believe him, but who knows for sure? Why here of all places though? Radiant Garden is at least seven hours away by train, so that obviously means there's no way he just decided to come to this city without any purpose. I'll ask him next time I see him. He answered all of the questions that I asked when things got silent, though some of my more complex questions he seemed to interpret incorrectly. I let him ramble anyway.
One of the particularly intriguing things that he said to me when I mentioned my lack of straightforward thought as of late was that writing could help me. Any kind of writing he said would be a release to pent up feelings and thoughts. I'll admit; it's kind of working right now. I feel good. I also feel tired, but good nonetheless.
I doubt I'll share this writing with anyone, but maybe someday this'll be in a memoir I release after making it big as a rock musician and people eat up everything I do or say. That would be awesome.
So besides this Ansem guy, it was a pretty typical first Tuesday at Destiny Shore. Went to my same eight classes as yesterday and hung out with the same group (or two) of friends. Man I love my friends. Axel was out sick supposedly, but Pence, Kairi, and Xion were all there today, so that was nice. I just noticed I listed them in order of how much we've hung out since I got here too. That's funny. Pence and Kairi are more of a tie though. Kairi has quickly ascended my list of favorite people since I moved here. Sora doesn't really get a spot since we're related so it's biased, but even if we weren't cousins I'd still love hanging out with him all the same. He'd be high on the list.
So as per the rule we established yesterday, we all ate lunch together. The weather is always at least decently nice here in Destiny Islands, but it's still been warmer than usual because we're at the tail end of summer. The vast majority of people were wearing shorts and single layers. Good-old Xion was wearing all black. She had on a plain black long sleeve shirt, black short shorts, assorted accessories and black and white Converse shoes. She looked good, I'm not going lie. I instantly thought she was pretty when I met her. She looks a lot like her older sister who is also a looker, but Kairi was dressed far more brightly. Kairi's tight denim shorts and pink striped tee shirt and flip-flops were such a contrast with Xion. If her shirt were red instead she would've basically matched Sora. His tee shirt seriously had stripes too.
During our lunch it came out that the two of them were to work on a History project together. It was a presentation about local history that wouldn't be very difficult. Still I could tell that for sure Sora felt excited. Kairi I wasn't as sure about. I obviously haven't known her as long as I've known Sora, and she was just good at being appropriately energetic or contained. I'd need an obvious sign.
Like I did yesterday when I wanted to play a game on my phone, I decided to spend the last 15 minutes of lunch outside. I got up and I got totally different looks. Pence and Kairi both gave me a quick wave, not feeling the need to give a well-developed goodbye knowing I'd see them later. Sora looked inquisitive, but didn't actually voice any questions. Xion also waved, and gave me a muted smile. I swear today I felt like I was supposed to ask her if she wanted to come outside and sit with me. She's Axel's friend anyway, so maybe that's why.
So today I again found only two groups outside eating. It's uncomfortable to eat out on the cafeteria patio since there's no protection from the sun. I can't help but feel bad for Mr. Jay, the teacher who monitors the patio. He usually just sits, eats, and reads the newspaper. If I could I'd bring him a patio umbrella. There's a small wall that's about as tall as me, so 5'9" tall or so, to the right as soon as you walk outside. I use a chair nearby to climb onto it. The first time I did it on the first day of school Mr. Jay looked pissed, but now he's indifferent.
I sat and admired the view. The school wasn't far from the beach at all. It's easy to see the waves crashing and even to see that dancing line where the water ends and the sand begins. It's a great view. I love just sitting there. Today my reverie was interrupted after five minutes. I was about to get my obvious sign as to how Kairi felt about working with Sora.
"Hi Roxas!" said Kairi in a cheerful voice. Her tone was distinctive to me already despite my not being here in Destiny Islands that long. She came by the Osment household often enough after I moved here and we have the same Chemistry class.
I twisted my head around. "Hey Kairi, what's up?" I saw her eyeing the chair that was against the wall. "That's how I get up."
"Gotcha." She climbed quickly and planted herself next to me. Her eyes lit up. "This is such a great view!"
"Have you ever sat up here?"
"Yeah, but not since freshman year; so it's been two years or so."
I simply kept looking forward contented. I like to spend time with friends talking or silently. Makes no difference to me really.
"So I guess I'll be coming by your place a lot now for the project Sora and I are doing."
I looked at her with a smirk. "Well you already come over often enough anyway."
She let out a laugh. "Well I hope I'm not bugging you guys or anything."
The funny thing was that she was probably sincerely worried about being a burden since she's nice like that. She tries to not step on anyone's toes. I knew the response she was fishing for though. "I'm sure Sora wouldn't mind you coming over more."
Kairi just looked to the ocean and smiled steadily, though I doubt the ocean had her full attention. When I saw her last July for the first time since we were about nine or ten, I noticed three things right away: she was taller, she had a deeper voice, and she had a thing for Sora. All three were equally obvious to me. When Sora took me on his little tour to reintroduce me to the town (which I have to say was both cool and nice of him) she tagged along.
At one point I remember we were in some ice cream place that had weird flavors. Half the flavors I still haven't tried. There's a sea-salt flavor that I'm definitely going to wait on, but I think Axel mentioned he likes it. But while we were there Sora got up to use the restroom and made some bad joke as he got up. It was the kind of joke that warranted a smile or chuckle. Kairi, however, started to giggle.
I think I was feeling particularly brave because I had just moved to an exciting new town, and I thought Kairi was so pretty I'd mess with her a bit, so I remember asking her, "Is it that easy to make you laugh or do you just like Sora that much?"
Rather than give me a proper retort, she seemed to freeze up. The smile from my face dissipated as I realized I accidently hit the nail on the head.
She didn't exactly confess her innermost feelings, but she did tell me that she had a "little crush" on him. Every time we've been alone since then she'll give me more details on her life in general, and at least one of those details included Sora every time. I basically became her confidante that day and I was happy to accept the role. I want them to get together and I'm sure they will eventually.
After we basically made what I like to call safety plans (plans with me in case Sora is busy after they finish their work) for this coming Friday afternoon, the bell signaling the end of lunch resounded. Kairi and I walked back in and became one with the mass of shuffling students who all probably didn't want to go to their next class for one of many possible reasons. Didn't do the first assignment, don't like their teacher, don't like their classmates; I've suffered through them all.
As our group dissolved because we were almost all headed towards different classes, Kairi and Sora and I were closing in on the hallway I had to turn into to reach my English class.
"Oh Roxas, you have English with Mrs. Dunn right?" Kairi's face reminded me of someone who just remembered something important. This caught my attention.
"Yeah, why?"
"My friend Naminé should be in there today. She said she was coming after lunch. Say hi for me!"
"Sure!" I called out as I turned to my right and into the hallway with four doors and lost Sora and Kairi.
There are two rooms on the right, two to the left, and an exit at the end of the hallway. I wondered how many people use that door to just leave in the middle of the day. Axel probably has at least a couple of times. Maybe not that door in particular, but I'm sure he's left. I resisted the weak urge to leave myself and stepped into the second class on the right, room 182.
When I walked in, Mrs. Dunn was at her desk across from the door, probably going over her lesson plan. She shot me a glance and a smile and I returned the favor. The class to my left was three quarters full and I saw basically all the same faces as yesterday, just sort of chatting or dreading class. I walked over to the farthest row, which is my row and thankfully next to the window. I counted in my head the four seats back that I would have to travel. Today was different though. The desk to the right of mine was no longer empty. There was a girl sitting there, apparently looking at a schedule that she probably already knew by heart.
I reached my desk and the sound of my backpack landing made her realize I was there. She looked at me and then she shyly looked away quickly. She was beautiful.
Last modification: 11:58 P.M. 8/29/2006
AN: I'm a fan of the series and obviously Roxas in particular. I wanted to read something like this and there obviously were stories close in style but not the same; so I decided to just write my own. Feel free to review and comment on what you liked and didn't like. I'll respond to all comments. I look forward to hearing from readers!
