I used to have everything. My life was perfect I had everything I have ever wanted. The perfect boyfriend, an amazing job and the most amazing best friends anyone could ever ask for, but once I turned my back on it all my whole life started fall apart and eventually all diapered for awhile, and all I can thank for that, is Shannon.
One year ago
"Michael!" I yelled from downstairs "common we're going to be late!" tonight was going to be huge, everyone was going to be there and I didn't want to miss it. Mike came down stairs putting on his jacket "Common Alex it's not that great, I've been to thousands of these it's pretty boring actually." I looked at him in shock "How can you say that! Being inducted into the hall of fame is a big thing! Everyone is going to be there and the first diva ever is going to be..." Michael chuckled pulling me towards him and softly kissed me "calm down boy I was just kidding. I know tonight's a big deal and I also know this is your first time to one of these but you'll be fine trust me and you'll have fun because you will be with me" he said smiling heading into the bathroom to quick style his hair for the sixteenth time that night. I followed him in there sighing "I know but tonight's going to be bigger I mean Trish Stratus will be the first diva ever to be inducted into the hall of fame and even people from TNA will be there" Mike chuckled patting my cheek softly as he left the bathroom "good let them come, the more the better" he said putting on his cocky attitude that he was known for. He grabbed his keys "But we better get going we still have to pick up Nattie and AJ" I looked at him confused "I thought we were just picking up AJ why isn't Nattie going with Tyson?" I asked. Mike shrugged "I don't know I don't ask questions when it comes to the relationship of Tyson Kidd and Natalya I just do as I'm told now common" I smiled and laughed as I followed him into the car, thinking that tonight was going to be a long night of Tyson and Nattie fighting, if only they could keep it together.
When we got to AJ's both her and Nattie were sitting outside, Nattie had her phone out and was texting, she also looked very annoyed. Mike looked behind and laughed "Hey Nat why the long face?" AJ kicked the back of his seat "Don't get her started!" Nattie glared at her then at Mike and looked out the window. I looked at her "What's wrong?" I asked her. She looked at me and glowered "TYSON KIDD IS WHATS WRONG HES ACTING LIKE A LITTLE KID! HE THINKS HE CAN JUST WALK ALL OVER DAVID AND NOTHING IS SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN AND IM NOT SUPPOSE TO GET ANGRY OVER THAT! WELL THAT'S JUST TO DAMN BAD!" "Nattie for once shut up! Nobody cares about how much of a prick Tyson is! You two have been fighting for the last three months! Get over him and move on!" AJ screamed back at her. Nattie glared out the window "He better not be there!" "Well saying that he's part of WWE he will be there sorry to say" Mike responded. Nattie then glared at him then back out the window again, I laughed and then looked at Mike, and he smiled at me sliding the hand he wasn't using for driving into mine. We had been dating for about a year now and the touch of his skin still made my heart skip.
When we got there Tyson was waiting outside for Nattie, she glared at him giving him some sign language and stormed inside. Tyson gave us a very tired look then followed Nattie in, followed closely by a very annoyed AJ. Mike laughed as he took my hand "Tonight is going to be very entertaining I can tell already" he said as we headed into the building. Once inside I could tell that everyone was already there, and it was very crowded, I gulped looking around at everyone starting to feel very nervous. Mike squeezed my hand and whispered my ear "You're going to be fine trust me" he said smiling; I looked back at him and smiled. "MIKE!" someone yelled I looked over to see Mickie James heading towards us, Mike smiled bigger "Hey you!" He said letting go of me to go hug her closely "How have you been? How's TNA treating you?" she smiled letting go of him "I've been good! TNA's been great! I have a lot more free time to focus on my music but I mean I do miss WWE but it just got so hectic you know?" Mike nodded "yea I know" Mickie smiled at him for a few seconds looking him up and down "So, how about you? How have you been? I haven't seen you since the wedding." "I'm great actually I finally moved out here and well" he grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to him "this is my boyfriend Alex" he said. Mickie's face was full of both shock and surprise "hey!" she said "it's nice to meet you!" I smiled and nodded "YO MICKIE!" John Cena called out before I could say anything, she looked over at him as he motioned her to join him and his wife, and she smiled and then turned to Mike again "Well it was nice seeing you again! You really need to learn how to keep in touch" she told him hugging him once more, she waved at me as she walked towards John. I looked at Mike and he smiled at me "Common we better get our seats before the show starts" I nodded "actually I was thinking about going to the bathroom quick before it started" He nodded and smiled "sure no problem I'll just save you a seat then" he smiled softly kissing me as he made his way to sit down. I smiled and made my way to the bathroom.
Once I was done I made my way back, but I heard Nattie talking to some girl who worked with Mickie over on TNA and used to be on WWE also. She was of course complaining about Tyson, the girl laughed "Wow anyways where Mike I haven't seen him since the wedding, how's he doing?" Nattie laughed back "Oh Mike is just fine he's here with his boyfriend" "Boyfriend?" the girl replied sounding very confused. "Yea boyfriend, he's seeing Alex Riley" "Wow that's a shocker not the whole him dating a guy but him moving on so fast how long have they been dating?" "For a little of a year" "wow that's weird he was such a wreck when Ashley left him at the altar." I stood there in shock, Alter? Mike almost got married to this girl named Ashley, and what was I his rebound! "Well he was for awhile but then Alex came around" Nattie replied. I stood there in shock and anger not really paying more attention to the conversation. How could he do this to me! I thought to myself, He's supposed to love me and here he is just using me! I growled again now angrier than ever. Instead of going to find Mike I decided to sit towards the back, I didn't feel talking to him, or even looking at him.
The whole show was great, Trish looked amazing and her speech was even more amazing. But, the whole time I couldn't get my mind off the fact that Mike had lied to me about our whole relationship and what it was really about. The whole time I sat there it just made me even angrier, and by the time it was over I was ready to rip someone's head off.
After the show I decided to go find Mike and confront him about his past, I found him talking to a couple people; Mickie was part of the crowd along with Layla, AJ, and Nattie. I growled and walked up to him, when he saw me he turned and smiled "hey you I was looking for you where did you disappear to?" "I wasn't feeling well so I hung out by the doors" "I'm sorry you feeling better now?" I nodded quietly; he smiled wrapping his arm around me then joined back into the conversation. I looked down at the ground for a minute then looked back up then at him then back at the ground and sighed "Who's Ashley?" I asked him, he looked at me confused "who?" I growled more annoyed "YOU HEARD ME WHO THE HELL IS ASHLEY!" I yelled louder getting the whole groups attention, they looked at me startled and confused. Mike looked around at everyone then whispered in my ear "can we please talk about this later?" he pleaded. "No we won't talk about this later we will talk about this now!" Mike looked at me in shock he had never seen this side of me, at least not off the camera. "Why the hell didn't you just tell me why you did keep it a secret all this time?" Mike looked at the people around him, I was gathering more people and I really didn't care "I…I don't know" he stammered, "really? Maybe it was because you were using me as a rebound huh?" He now looked at me in surprise "You think I was using you as a rebound? Alex Ashley left me three months before you even came into my life!" "Yea well apparently Nattie said you were still pretty broken up about it!" Mike then turned to Nattie whose face was full of shock, "YOU TOLD HIM!" Nattie shook her head "No...No I didn't I swear he must have heard me talking with Chelsea..." "Why didn't you just tell me!" He turned his head back towards me "Because I didn't think it was that important" "Well it is! What else did you do? Did you have a relationship with Mickie? Was that the reason Ashley left you because she found out you were screwing a whore behind her back!" "ALEX ENOUGH!" AJ screamed at me, as Mickie backed away and ran off. Mike looked after her as both Chelsea and Trish ran after her, he then turned to me and shook his head, "I can't believe you right now!" he growled, his face was a mixture of sadness and anger, he backed away and ran after her. I stared at him still feeling anger inside of me, I looked around at everyone else that was around me and stormed out the doors. I needed to get out of here, and I needed to get out fast. As soon as I was outside I realized that Mike had the keys to the car. I growled again and started to punch the wall of the building. "You know you're just going to end up hurting your fists more than the wall?" someone called out from behind me, I turned around to see Shannon Moore standing there watching me. "I stopped putting my fists in my pocket "Yea...I know I just kind of embarrassed myself in there" Shannon smirked and nodded "Yea I know I kind of saw that" I smiled a little then looked at the ground "yea..I would just like to get out of here but Mike has the keys to the car and I really don't feel like going home to night." Shannon nodded "that's understandable, you can crash at my place if you want" I looked at him hopeful "really? That would be great! Thanks!" he smiled and nodded "No problem my cars this way follow me" I smiled looking behind me and sighed then followed Shannon to his car.
The car ride to his place was quite, and once we got to his place, he offered me something to drink but I politely denied then fell asleep on the couch. The next morning I woke up on the couch with a blanket over me, there was a note sitting next to me "Your welcome to stay as long as you want" It read, I smiled a little at the offer and sighed getting up noticing that Shannon was still asleep, not wanting to wake him up I called a cab and went back home. As soon as I arrived home I closed the door quietly so I didn't wake up Mike, I soon found out that wasn't necessary, he was awake sitting on the couch, in the same clothes he had on last night, He hadn't even gone to bed yet. As soon as I entered the living room he looked up with me with his tired eyes and shook his head "Please, please tell me that Kelly lied to me and you went to get a hotel room and did NOT go to Shannon Moore's house and sleep with him." I shook my head "I slept on the couch I didn't sleep with Shannon" he shook his head standing up "BULL CRAP! I KNOW THAT GUY ALEX! HE SLEEPS WITH ANYTHING HE CAN GET HIS GRIMY HANDS ON! AND YOU WERE ONE OF THEM! YOU OF ALL PEOPLE!" "Mike I'm sorry…" He shook his head punching the wall leaving a huge dent "SORRY DOESN'T CUT IT!" he said breathing heavy facing away from me, after awhile he turned around and faced me, "You're not the Alex I fell in love with! After last night I don't know who you are anymore! First you blame me of sleeping with Mickie and then you go off and sleep with Shannon and you were mad me!" "I didn't sleep with him!" "STOP LYING ALEX!" he screamed. "IM NOT LYING LIKE YOU DID TO ME!" he glared at me and shook his head "I NEVER LIED TO YOU! I DIDN'T TELL YOU I GOT LEFT AT THE ALTAR BECAUSE IT WASN'T SOMETHING I WANTED TO SHARE WITH ANYONE!" "So you used me as a rebound!" he was shaking now with anger, "If you were a rebound I wouldn't be here with you right now! Your ass would have been kicked to the curve a long time ago! I risked everything for you Alex! Vince didn't want to keep you around after NXT but I wanted you there! I wanted to be with you every chance I could so I begged him to keep you!" I stared at him stunned. "I didn't even want to do NXT again after Daniel but after I found out about you I decided to give it a chance! Yes my heart was hurting back then but YOU healed it! YOU DID ALEX! And now you just hurt it way more badly than Ashley ever did!" He turned around again still breathing hard. "Mike I…I don't know what to say" He turned around and glared at me, "I want you out of here Alex now! We are over! This is what you wanted to hurt me then congratulations you succeeded! Now get your things and go I want you out of here before I get back." He said as he stormed out the door. I stood there stunned I felt tears coming on. It was over...it was really over. I just had lost the one man that I had loved most in this whole world, and over some stupid mistake. I sighed as I went into the room that I and Mike had shared together not trying to think of all the memories that had happened in this room I grabbed a suitcase and started to pack.
After I was done packing I realized I had nowhere else to go, I could go to Alex, but Nattie was more than likely still there so that was where Mike would most likely be. And, I highly doubted he wanted a repeat of what had happened a couple of hours ago, sighing again I took out my phone and called a cab and headed back over to Shannon's. When I got there he was sitting down eating breakfast when he saw me with my suitcases he gave me a puzzled look. "Is it okay if I stay here until I can find my own place? Me and Mike just broke up" I explained. Shannon nodded smiling once again "Sure, no problem stay as long as you want" he said smirking, "I'll show you where the guest room is" he said getting up and showed me around. Once in the room I began to unpack and reality hit me again, I messed things up badly last night, If I had just gone home instead of go over to Shannon's I would still have Mike and wouldn't have just lost him. I sighed looking out my door, Shannon had left so I closed my rooms door and sat down on my bed and put my legs up to my face and cried. All I wanted was to have Mike back, but that was never going too happened now.
The first month at Shannon's went by pretty smooth; I just stuck around the house, avoiding work as much as possible. They called me a lot at first but I pretty much ignored them, until they finally stopped calling. I know Vince was probably mad since Mike was the one that begged him to keep me around but here I was not showing up like I was supposed to, and not really caring what happened. Mike never called me, not even once. Nattie did a couple of times, so did AJ, but I ignored both of them. I didn't want to think of anything that linked to Mike, and both of them reminded me painfully of that night, and of Mike. Shannon wasn't ever really home he came and went as he pleased but I tried to make it seem homely to him when he did come home. One night I was in my room getting ready to go to sleep when I heard a knock on my door, I turned around to see Shannon standing there, "Hey man why don't you come to my room in a little bit?" he asked I nodded "okay sure" I said as I grabbed a t-shirt and put it on, and followed him to his room. When I got there he turned around "So, you know you have been here for a little over a month right?" I nodded "yea I know I'm sorry if you want me out I can move out its no problem" He chuckled and shook his head "Now that's not what I want at all" I looked at him strangely" "Then what do you want?" he smirked and took my hand and pulled me close to him "You know I've had a crush on you for some time now" "I looked at him in shock "really?" he nodded smiling a little, I smiled back biting my lip as I went in to kiss him. His kisses where harder than Mike's but still had some sweetness in them. But, I couldn't believe I was giving in. Part of me was ready to let go of Mike and his memory, the other part wasn't so much ready yet, and that's the part that ached…the most.
