Here's my first chapter:

Converting my actions

Chapter 1

Wade P.O.V.:

It was a new year and Wade wasn't going to make the same mistakes he had made the previous year. No, this year was going to be different. His new year resolution was to try not to make everybody his enemy by ambushing and beating everyone in Smackdown. He was going to try to make some friends with people. He might need their help later.

That was one reason why he was at Smackdown. He didn't care that he wasn't leader of the Nexus anymore. If his team wanted a psycho-nut like Punk, they could have him. He wasn't going to lead a team that didn't want him. He needed a fresh start. He and Nexus had beaten many superstars including the staff so no one would dare take pity on him. Wade knew he couldn't just quit his assaults on the superstars. The fans wouldn't believe that he just suddenly had an epiphany and decided that attacking superstars is wrong. He knew that one day he would get his chance to show his good side, but today was not that day.

That night, he made his debut on Smackdowns' first show of the year. He came out and attacked Big Show during his fatal four way match against Dolph Ziggler, Drew McIntyre, and Cody Rhodes, showing that there was still some of the Raw Wade Barrett still there ready to take over Smackdown. He especially loved the part where he jumped of the top rope and landed on the Big Show with his elbow.

Backstage, everyone just stared as he walked by. He tried not to meet their gazes so as not to show how embarrassed he was. They knew what he had done on Raw. They may not have known about his backstage behavior, but they knew enough about him to know he wasn't a good person when it came to wrestling. Barrett wanted people to see a different side to him, but he knew how difficult it was to go from heel to face. It was easy to turn heel and have everyone hate you, but to suddenly try to be a face took time…and good writers.

He stopped in front of a door with the words "Wade Barrett" on them. When he walked in, there were two men standing by the lockers. They turned around as soon as they heard the door open. "Justin, Heath, what are you chaps doing here?" Justin wanted to jump on him and kiss him, but with Slater there that task was impossible. They hadn't told Slater yet that they were dating or that either of them was gay. He let Wade get closer to them before saying, "We came here to congratulate you on your debut and to tell you that this Monday is when we're…" he pointed between him and Slater "going to tell Punk to take his leadership and shove it". Slater continued, "And he says he's going to call it, "The New Nexus".

They all laughed before Wade spoke out, "Does he know you're here in Tucson". "No", Gabriel answered. "We told him that we were going back to Tampa to spend some time at home. "Well", Wade began, "Since you're here, let hae some fun, eh? We can…" Slater interrupted with, "Yeah! I know a strip club we can go to on Canyon Road. It the bestest place to go in Arizona." Wade cringed at Slater use of the impalpable word "bestest". "Okay", Wade finished. "But first let me talk to Ezekiel first. I'll tell him to come to the club and we all can talk about our plans for our group debut next week".

"Sure" both Justin and Heath said in unison. As Wade pulled out his phone, Heath went to the bathroom. Justin came behind and gave his waist a little squeeze and kissed the skin on back, paying special attention to Wade's spine. This brought a smile on Wade's face. The smile fell from Wade's face as he looked through the list of contacts and saw Johns' name. He started to get a sick feeling in his stomach. He quickly started scrolling down to find Ezekiel's' number. It was under the name, Zeke.

Gabriel noticed that Wade lost his smile so he kissed his arm between words and said, "What's" kiss "wrong" kiss "baby" kiss kiss. Just then, they heard the toilet flush and Justin pulled apart from Wade. Heath came out the bathroom saying, "Dude, it's a mess in there, naw mean?" He saw the strange looks on both Justin and Wades' faces. "What's goin' on guys? You guys look like you got caught with your hand in the cookie jar."

"We forgot you were in the bathroom until we heard the toilet flush." Justin told him. "Oooookay" he said unassured. Wade clicked on Zeke's name in his phone and pressed send. "Hey Zeke…you still in Arizona…well, Justin and Heath are with me and we need to discuss our debut…yeah, my debut was great. So let's meet aaaaaattt", Wade looks at Heath. Heath said, "The Cat Pound on Canyon Road". Wade told Zeke the place and Zeke said okay. After that, Wade hung up the phone. "Okay, I need to change and then we can go". Heath and Justin left the room. Justin wished he could stay behind and watch Wade undress, but decided it was best to leave the room. After Wade was done changing, he grabbed his bag and left the building with Justin and Heath.

He was driving to the strip club in his 2010 Bentley Azure using his GPS to find the place. He didn't know how he got along without it. Justin was in the passenger seat with Heath in the backseat. While driving, Wades' mind kept drifting. It was a Tuesday night. What was John doing? This question kept going through his head. He could call. No, John won't answer. He probably erased his number. Wade knew it was wrong to be thinking about another man while dating someone else, but he couldn't help it. He wanted to just forget about John, but his heart wouldn't let him.

He knew John was trying to forget Wade because he knew John hated him. He had asked John if he hated Wade, but John said no. Wade knew he was lying. He thought about holding John, having John kiss his chest licking a trail to his navel as he went down. He then thought about lifting John up and throwing him on the bed and then tying his hands behind his back as John begged him to fuck him. He would then take out his favorite paddle and hit John on the shins while John begged for more. He would then paddle Johns' ass 'til it was red. Wade didn't notice, but he was growing an erection that only he and Justin noticed. Justin nudged him a little and looks at the hard member his denim pants. Wade looked at him, then at the erection in his pants. He quickly tried to hide it by pushing it farther between his legs. He looked at Gabriel and blushed. Gabriel giggled a little, but not loud enough for Slater to hear. Slater just kept looking out the window.

Wade went back to thinking. He thought about why he was with Gabriel in the first place when Cena was clearly the only man he wanted. He remembered that it was John didn't want to be anywhere near him. He had ruined his chance with Cena by making all the wrong mistakes. Gabriel was there for him. Gabriel was there. He needed someone to love because he couldn't be with the one he loved. Yes, he had showed his love in sick ways, but he still loved Cena and would do anything to show it. Even though he knew Randy and John were dating, he wanted to have John.

He remembered the first time he talked to Randy about John. How Randy had told him to stop picking on John. Wade then told Randy that he knew that Randy wanted John. Wade knew this because he wanted John too, but didn't know how to tell John. Randy lunged at him after he made that comment and told him to that he better stay away from John. Wade also remembered when he was Randy exposed what he had done when he had put that device in Cena's phone. He couldn't stop thinking about Randys' words, "Even if John leaves me, he will never be with you". These words were the main reason why he stayed with Gabriel. He would never have John so it was time to move on, but his heart kept thinking, "John…you want John…John".

Wade then kept thinking those words Randy said. He looked pathetic to both John and Randy after Randy said them. Wade cried in front of them. The "fearless leader of Nexus" cried for God sakes! He was embarrassing himself. He didn't know why he couldn't stop himself from crying. He guessed it was because he believed the words to be true. When he and Randy were about to leave the room, he called Johns' name and begged him to stay. John just stared at him with an angry face and yelled, "Don't say my name and don't ever call me again." John then left the room, leaving Wade crying on the floor.

He only told Justin about it. That was the only other gay person he knew. Ever since that night, he kept thinking of Randys' words, "…he will never be with you, …he will never be with you, …he will never be with you". These words had motivated everything he did after that. "Turn left ahead", his GPS voiced.

Wade pulled into the "Cat Pound" parking lot. He scoffed at the name. "Sounds like a whorehouse instead of a strip club" Wade thought. "Maybe some of them are prostitutes". Justins' voice broke him out of his thoughts. "Zeke's not here yet so let's go inside and wait". They all agreed and went inside. The area around the club was deserted so no bouncer was at the door. As soon as he entered, though he tried to stop thinking and push those thoughts away, Randy's words came back to him, "He. Will. Never. Be. With. You."

Okay, wasn't intense. Wade regrets hurting John, but is it too late. I don't know if the "Cat Pound" is real. I just came up with it. Also I will try to add John's P.O.V. in the next chapter and will try to update soon.