First chapter :D

I want thank Bluberryninja, my beta reader. She is the best :D A lot of the credit of this story will go to her because she helped me come up with a lot of the ideas. The title name goes to her too :) I was stuck on the title.

I hope you like it me and bluberryninja put a lot of thought into this story and are very excited. :D


"You always have to ruin everything don't you!" James yelled, covered in food. Kendall had accidentally tripped spilling all of the soup on the other three other boys.

He had been distracted all day. They had an exhausting recording session, he had to pick a ton of groceries and he had to cook dinner for the guys since his mom and Katie were out. He also got this feeling that like someone is following him. But when he turns, there is no one there.

Kendall just passes it as paranoia and ignores it but he been really jumpy anyways so it made it even more suspicious. He was going to tell someone but decided to keep quiet; he had a feeling that if he told something bad would happen. He just didn't know what.

"You're so stupid you can't even walk right!" Logan added in, glaring daggers at him. Kendall had broken his 1,000 dollar laptop, that was perched carefully yet stably at the edge of the kitchen table, which his mom had gotten him for his birthday. He took care of that computer as if it was made of glass, now it was broken by no one other than Kendall. He at least expected it to be Carlos.

Kendall eyes flashed with hurt, his mouth opening but no words coming out.

"How could you! You know how much I love my helmet!" Carlos cried, tears streamed down his face. His precious helmet was thrown in the trash.

It's not that Kendall did it on purpose, but the helmet looked a lot like his scratched up old one, which he threw away. He really didn't mean it. Kendall knew how much Carlos loved his helmet. He tried to get it back but it was long gone.

"You always have to be so stubborn and stand up to Gustavo! You're the reason he gives us extra work! Why can't you just keep your mouth shut and let him say what he wants?" They had gotten extra harmonies because Kendall couldn't keep his mouth shut so now they had to get home late, hungry because mama knight had to go visit their sick aunt in Minnesota with Katie.

"I didn't mean it ok!" Kendall yelled, hurt obvious in his eyes, he masked it with anger.

"Well that doesn't mean you have to ruin everything!" Carlos yelled back, tears in his eyes for his now lost helmet.

Kendall looked taken aback by the little Latino's comment. The hurt stabbing him like knives.

"You always act as if your better than us because you're our 'unofficial leader'. But how can you be when you can't do anything right! Messing things up like my computer, I was trying to help you but you can't even walk right. How stupid are you?" Logan yelled, there was important stuff in there that he needed. He could see the hurt in Kendall's eyes but ignored it.

Kendall was shocked. He had never seen Logan like this. Had he really been being this irresponsible lately?

"And you use my last of special Cuda shampoo! Now I have to be ugly, with hideous hair, like you!" Now that was low blow, Kendall knew he wasn't the best looking compared to James, but he didn't think he was ugly. And he didn't think his friends thought that either.

"Don't forget my precious helmet, he's hurt"! No Carlos wasn't really angry, he was mostly devastated by the loss of his helmet.

"Hey! That doesn't mean you have to treat me like trash, ok! I didn't mean it! So I'm sorry. I'm just trying to protect all of you. I don't like that Gustavo yells so much." He had always been very protective of his brothers. He didn't want them to get hurt by anyone; he was just trying to protect them.

"We don't care. Let him say whatever he wants, you are the one hurting us and making us do extra work! I had plans after this, I was going to go on a date with the new girl, now my hair looks terrible and I don't even have time to go buy new shampoo."

"I had all our assignments for school on my laptop! Now they're all gone. That is what I get for trying to help you, because you can't even pass a simple class as science." Science had never really been his best subject; well he wasn't that good in school. He knew he wasn't stupid, or was he? He shook his head, he can't think like that he is just struggling nothing wrong. Everyone struggles once in a while. Unless you're a genius like Logan, but he knew he wasn't.

"Guess that is why your dad left." James knew he just went too far but his anger was controlling his thoughts and speech. "You always have to act all though but really you aren't any better than us. Messing things up making it harder for all of us. What about my dream? Gustavo could fire us any day just because of how you talking like that!" They all knew Gustavo wouldn't do that Big Time Rush is too big and it wouldn't be Big Time Rush without all four of them.

"I'm sorry ok!" he yelled, "I'm not perfect! You're right! I was just trying to help you all. I guess I'm just a little clumsy now and then. Sometimes I don't pay attention to where I'm going or what I'm doing. I am not as good looking as you James, I know I'm not a genius like you Logan, we all can't be a genius. And I'm not as creative as you Carlos. At least all of you have something going for you. I know Logan will become a doctor some day and you James will be a model. Carlos you just fallow you heart and you could be a super hero and you'll get it, everyone loves you."

He paused to catch his breath. The hurt and anger mixing together within the words he spoke.

"We all know I have nothing going for me, they won't accept me in hockey, I haven't played in a long time. Even if I do it's not something that will go far. I can't be as perfect as all of you want me to be."

He paused once again letting out heavy breaths and looking into each of his friends eyes. Carefully. But all he found was anger.

"I'm Sorry!"

Slam!

The apartment was drowned in silence after Kendall left.

"We went too far." Logan spoke first as he sighed in shame and rubbed the bridge of his nose.

"I know but he was looking for it, he does ruin things all the time!" James argued.

"I know but that wasn't nice and it was a little uncalled for." Carlos nodded his face still red from crying.

"We should apologize when he comes back." Logan suggested moving toward the orange couch.

James sighed and nodded his head in agreement. Guilt clear in his eyes.

Kames and Carlos just followed Logan sitting next to him on the orange couch, watching TV feeling and ashamed of how they treated Kendall.

"Where is he? He was supposed to be home HOURS ago!" distress obvious in Logan's voice.

As if to answer his question the phone started to ring. Logan launched toward it hoping it was Kendall so he could stop worrying and apologize.

"Hello?" he answered frantically.

"Are you family of Kendall Knight?" the female voice was heard from the other line of the phone.

"Yes." Logan said worried.

"I'm sorry to inform you that Kendall has been admitted to the Los Angeles Hospital 3 hours ago."

"What! Why?" Logan yelled

Carlos and James looked at each other with worry and curiosity.

"But that isn't the problem. We can't find him anywhere, he has gone missing."

"MISSING!" Logan started to hyperventilate he couldn't believe his best friend and brother was missing. This was all his fault! James and Carlos looked at him with wide eyes jumping up and running towards him.

"I'm sorry." the phone went dead.

The boys shared a look and ran out the door.

He stormed out of the room slamming the door behind him. He pushed people out of the way, as he tried to get as far away from here. He just wanted to forget, he didn't want to be here. He knew his friends were just angry at him but it still hurt to be told by your best friends, your older brothers that you mess up everything.

He ran up to his car. He knew he shouldn't he driving he doesn't have a driver license yet but he needed to get away from here. About to get in the car, he froze; the feeling of being watched was back. He turned and again found nothing. He ignored it though. His mind was screaming not to get in the car; something bad was going to happen. He shoved the feeling away, he needed to get away for a while. Shivering from the bad feeling he has, he jumped in the car and turned it on driving quickly away from his friends and the insults.

He drove through the darkness, cars passing him every so often. He put the radio on loud trying to forget everything. Heck, he didn't even know where he was driving too. But he didn't want to remember what they said or that weird feeling of someone stalking him. He wanted to disappear, to a new life. He loved singing and dancing with those three idiots, but all of it was getting to him.

One minute he was changing the radio station, the next, a big flash crossed his vision, followed by a loud crunching sound.

Suddenly, he was jerked forward. His head slammed against the steering wheel then bounced against the window, where he heard a crack as his skull made contact with the glass.

It was then that he realized, in his hurry to get out of the Palm Woods he had forgotten to put on his seat belt.

He felt the car tumble over a couple times before stopping upside down, throwing Kendall out the window.

Red flashed in his vision, pain spreading throughout his entire body in a second. He lay in a pile of glass, his head bleeding from the impact of hitting the window. His body hurt so bad that he couldn't move. He was barely aware of what was going on around him. He heard voices around him then someone moving him sending him in another wave of pain. He groaned not being able to, red and white intruding his vision. He could barely move or even open his eyes to see what is happening.

His vision was being clouded by darkness. He fought to keep his eyes open, but sleep sounded so good to his aching body. He finally gave in to his pain falling unconscious.


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