*~ Crybaby Boyfriend ~*
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A/N: It's late and I'm still listening "Crybaby Boyfriend". Shit that great song. No,I love it. It's so cute!
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When I met him,we were just silly kids. I wasn't sure of what love is. Neither him. Everyone thinks that love is just the feeling of liking someone and be with her,but our love wasn't so cliché. He was a crybaby. But he was my crybaby. He used to cry about everything: Happy or sad,funny or stupid.
I can't blame him,his life were all deceptions. And he said that when we spent time togheter,he felt something that comforted him. We used to call that as "love". But "love" isn't the best word to say what we felt. I can't say that "love" was the name of what made us keep togheter.
You know,I could call him as "brother" and he as "big sister". Whenever he had doubts,I was the one he trusted to ask. If I say I never like him,I will be lying. He knew how call my attencion,he knew how make me happy with most simple things. I can say he was the most lovely boy I ever met. Still these days,I couldn't find anyone as dedicated as he was.
He was a crybaby,but he was the one who cries for the other people's happiness. He could cry in watch a movie,but he knew I would smile and laugh. He said something he learned with me was "how to smile". I don't know were he is,but I can see his face smiling in tears.
I shouldn't hurt him. I shouldn't make he suffer. But it was time to him walk with his own legs. It was time to he learn to point a finger for life and laugh. Our love wasn't a lie,it was a lesson. I knew someday that would happen. He also knew. But even knowing makes it hurts.
"When we part,I pretend be strong",you said. But I know you wanted to cry. I know you didn't want me to go away. I know you didn't want to spent the day alone. I know. But I can't do anything for it.
You're not guilty,I patted your head and said "Smile". Sounds like I don't have heart. That time,it was love. Seems like I don't know how much is painful when people have to be separeted. I know. Don't forget that,I know. I can't say it was the best to do,I could be better.
Everyday,when I said I wanted to see you,I used to take a deep breath and take courage,but it was useless. I looked at your faced and I wanted to cry. I used to force a smile and greet you. You also forced a smile,just to not cry. It was clear to we both,the goodbye time was getting closer.
I was spilling and falling from your hands;your fingertips. My word loves were getting distant from you. You keep wondering but it finally arrived. I thought a magic for crybaby. I said,make the same face as mine. He smiled,but why was I crying?
Love make us stronger,love make us learn about life. In the end,we shouldn't say things like "Sorry" or "Goodbye". In the end,we only should say "Thank you for everything".
I was stupid and said "Goodbye". I should be like you,I should say "Thanks". I only realized it now. Where are you right now? Wish you could hear my words. More,wish you could see me now. I said I was strong,but I'm such a liar. I'm crying. Can you forgive me this time? I won't cry anymore,I swear.
Thank you for everything,Len.
