Set somewhere in season 2. Addek because I love them. Angsty because I'm not good at fluff, and because all my favorite Addek stories are angst. I was almost crying at the end, seriously. Yeah, I know im pathetic.
Oh and I wrote this during reading.
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Disclaimer- I own nothing. Song is "Three Cheers for Five Years" By Mayday Parade, because I swear every song by them was written for Addison and Derek.
"For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same"
Maybe she made a mistake by coming out here. Maybe she should just accept the fact that they're never going to be Derek and Addison again. No, she can't do that, she made a mistake, one fucking mistake and now she needs him more than ever.
She sits at the tiny table in the tiny trailer and watches her husband sleep. She decided it would be best to leave now so she could avoid another fight. Last night was bad and she could really spare the repeat.
Every night seemed to get longer, and longer, which may have to do with the fact that lately she's been spending them awake, in bed, crying.
Whether she wanted to accept it or not, she knew there was nothing she could say, nothing she could do to even try to fix what was broken.
Before she had the chance to make it out the door she heard her husband behind her.
"Addison, I um, called a marriage counselor."
She froze; she couldn't believe the words that were coming out of his mouth.
"If that doesn't work I don't... Addison we can't keep doing this, the fighting, it's unhealthy."
"Damnit Derek how many fucking times do I have to say I'm sorry!" she added through a mixture of screaming and crying.
"Sorry is not going to cut it, Addison."
She bit down on her lower lip, "I'm free Thursday." She said flatly and walked out of the trailer.
She wonders how many times she'll have to go through that. She wishes for the day he comes home and pulls her into a tight hug and whispers that everything is going to be okay.
Maybe, just maybe, it will.
"And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now
Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to"
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