The Way I Loved You

A/N I know this has been done a thousand times, but I want to try it out and it WILL be different. This is set five years after TDA, and Courtney is a long-term girlfriend to a lawyer. My first song-fic, hope you like it.

I looked at the picture I was holding. It was me and Josh before our first date.

He is sensible, and so incredible

And all my single friends are jealous

I could see the fake smile forced onto my face. My mom had set up the date after I had broken up with Duncan, thinking I'd be happier with the sandy-haired boy.

He says everything I need to hear and it's like

I couldn't ask for anything better

It was the perfect date, a dinner at the fanciest restaurant in town. He had treated me well, and I had a great time.

He opens up his door and I get in his car

And he says, you look beautiful tonight

And I feel perfectly fine

I pick another picture, but of me and Duncan. He was an awful boyfriend. But…

But I've been screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
You're so in love that you act insane

… He had always loved me, and I loved him.

And that's the way I loved you

I was so confused; I didn't know what to do. My parents were pressuring me to break up with him, telling me he was holding me back.

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

But we were in love. Yes we fought, but that wasn't important.

He respects my space and never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing, and I'm comfortable

Josh was a great boyfriend and all, my parents loved him, but he was… boring. Not the rollercoaster I had shared with Duncan.

But I've been screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you


I never loved Josh. Ever had, never will. I always faked I had.

He can't see the smile I'm fakin'
And my heart's not breakin'
'Cause I'm not feelin' anything at all

Duncan was so confusing. We fought, but it was always over what we should watch on TV, or where we had lunch.

And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated
Got away by some mistake and now

I'll be screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
It's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you

I had broken his heart, and mine too, but I had no choice. That was the biggest mistake of my life. 'Maybe I could get him back…' I thought as my phone started to ring.

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much

"Hello?"I said.

"Courtney? I have some news…" I heard Bridgette choke out.

"WHAT?" I demanded.

"Duncan has…

And that's the way I loved you
I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

Bridgette mumbled a few words, but I couldn't hear.

"What?"

"He's committed suicide." She finally said.

I hung up. I was too late. I'd broken his heart and had waited too long to win him back. Now I could never be with him. Tears stung my eyes. "That's the I loved him…"

A/N Didn't expect that, huh? I told ya it'd be different. Now, I'm sorry I haven't updated New Girl in Town or A World Apart, but I'm stuck. If you have an idea, PM me. DO NOT REVIEW IT! Now, click the little green button riiiiight there. Go on, don't be scared. See ya!