A/N: This is a short story that popped up in my head while reading some of Deanar's stories about Harm's musical side and listening to music from Jim Croce, I could just imagine Harm singing some of those lyrics while playing his guitar. Hope you like it, let me know.
There will be three chapters, chapter two will be posted tomorrow and chapter three the day after.
A/N2: I didn't forget my other story I just didn't like the chapter I had written and decided to rewrite as an epilogue and then go on to an other story.
I own nothing just having some fun. The lyrics of the songs I used are from the album Time in a bottle by Jim Croce.
From the depth of my soul
Harm was sitting at home nursing a beer while playing some random tunes on his guitar. Today had been a bad day, Mac was on one of her foul moods again and he didn't seem to be able to do anything right by her. Finally he had enough and sneaked home early he hoped the admiral wouldn't notice but he didn't really care at the moment he just felt lousy and the four beers he consumed already on an empty stomach didn't help any.
He was thinking of any song that fitted the mood he was in, one more fitting then the other. But his problems weren't really about what had happened today and on more occasions but the way Mac was treating him for the last couple of weeks.
Guess that it was bound to happen
Was just a matter of time
But now I've come to my decision
And it's a-one of the painful kind
'Cause now it seems that you wanted a martyr
Just a regular guy wouldn't do
But baby I can't hang upon no lover's cross for you
He realized that he indeed was ready for a final decision regarding his relationship or lack thereof with Mac.
Yes, I really got to hand it to you
'Cause girl you really tried
But for ev'ry time that we spent laughin'
There were two times that I cried
And you were tryin' to make me your martyr
And that's the one thing I just couldn't do
'Cause baby, I can't hang upon no lover's cross for you
He was so absorbed in his own world that he didn't notice the tentative knock on his door.
'Cause tables are meant for turnin'
And people are bound to change
And bridges are meant for burnin'
When the people and mem'ries they join aren't the same
So I'll hope that you can find
Another who can take what I could not
He'll have to be a super guy
Or maybe a super god
'Cause I never was much of a martyr before
And I ain't 'bout to start nothin' new
And baby, I can't hang upon no lover's cross for you
While playing and singing the song many things became clear to Harm and he became surer in the decisions he had reached.
'Cause tables are meant for turnin'
And people are bound to change
And bridges are meant for burnin'
When the people and mem'ries they join aren't the same
So I'll hope that you can find
Another who can take what I could not
He'll have to be a super guy
Or maybe a super god
'Cause I never was much of a martyr before
And I ain't 'bout to start nothin' new
And baby, I can't hang upon no lover's cross for you
Having found the perfect song for his problems and its causing him to resolve his issues left Harm slightly drained and the apartment filled with silence after the strings of the guitar slowly drowned out. That is when Harm suddenly felt her presence, he looked toward the door but it was closed, when he walked toward it and opened it he found a shocked Sarah MacKenzie on the other side. Not wanting another argument and being slightly drunk and drained he lashed out at her. This seemed to bring her out of her stupor and without a word she stepped into his apartment and made her way to the sofa leaving a dazed and irritated Harm at the door.
When Harm came out of the daze he was in he closed the door and went back to the sofa and waited for Mac to start talking. At first Mac didn't say anything just observed him and then confessed that she heard his last song. When Harm looked at her with that irritated but slightly surprised looked she added by asking if he was talking about her in that song. Harm wanted to get it over with decided on the truth and told her that it was exactly what he tought about their relationship and he didn't want to fight anymore and to let herself out. With that he left her sitting there and went to his bedroom.
