Worthless

"I really am worthless, aren't I?" -Unknown. Character study.

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Imperfect?

Is that all I am?

All I'll ever be?

According to them.

But according to me?

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I have eight sisters.

Beautiful Alyssa.
Wonderful Stacy.
Smart Lucy.
Kind Margaret.
Lovely Allison.
Talented Tracy.
Funny Elizabeth.

That's what my alcoholic mom tells me. My dad is at work all the time.

What does my mom say about me, the youngest?

Worthless Lexi.

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Worthless.

Worthless.

Worthless!

WORTHLESS!

The word pounds in my head day and night.

I am...worthless.

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"You're such a failure."

"Go back to the petting zoo bunny."

"Gosh, what is wrong with you?"

"Loser!"

I try not to show them how much those words hurt me.

"Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me."

False.

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"Lexi," Margaret asks me one day. "Are you okay."

"I'm fine."

I'm a liar.

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"That was such a cute routine Lexi, but I don't think you have what it takes."

And just like that, all of my hopes of being a cheerleader, being popular, fitting in...having friends, is crushed.

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I really am worthless, aren't I?

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That meteor gave me powers.

Like I needed one more thing to make me different.

But these powers aren't worthless.

Does that mean I still am?

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Sypher has taken away our powers.

I feel so worthless without them.

Unloved. Unwanted.

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I have my powers back.

But I've realized something.

I never was -will ever be, worthless.

I have a life. Every life is worth something.

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I am not worthless.

Nobody else is either.