Chapter 1 - Pip: MAJOR SPOILERS for Volume 6 & 7 of manga. So you've been warned. This is Pip's veiw on Seras and his uhh unique situation after the fight with Joleen/Zorrin. Standard disclaimers - I don't own Hellsing, Kohta Hirano does.
I ended up getting it – I knew I would. That girl resisted me since the day we met. But, in the end I got my kiss. Was it worth dying for? Hell, yes. I loved that girl. And I'm not dead – well not really. It's crazy but I'm not. My body is dead. Hell, I never even believed in life after death. Yet, here I am – alive, more or less. Not in heaven or hell either. No I'm part of her. Funny, since the first time I saw her, I wanted to get inside of her – but not like this. Oh well, guess I'll take what I can get. Being in the police girl does have its advantages.
It was crazy – that night. The war with the monsters, the Nazi vampires started. I was losing men left and right. I had already been hit once myself. But, I was not going to give up. I knew that she'd come. And come she did. Seras took down a whole section of the Nazi army before that bitch nearly killed her. I couldn't let that happen. The Police Girl was under my command. It was my duty to protect her. She was ours, our "gunner girl." Not just to me but to all of the Geese. She was one of us. Her being a vampire – that didn't matter to any of us. Shit, we've seen men who were 100 times the monster she was – and they were supposed to be human.
I saw that damn monster trying to kill her. I never wanted to protect anything as her. I don't know what came over me. Just couldn't think about anything but saving her. I attacked the damn monster with the gun and took Seras into my arms. Joleen had taken off her arm and eyes. I hated that bitch. Damn if Seras wasn't heavier then what she looked. She has a great body but carrying her over my shoulder….nearly knocked the wind out of me. She's such a good girl. Seras kept on begging me to put her down, so I could get away. But, that's not me. Just couldn't do it. That was the end for me. That bitch from Millennium, she attacked ME the next time.
Poor Seras, she was crying without even having eyes. I don't know how she did that. I kept telling her how silly she was. I tried to cheer her up. We didn't have much time alone before my body gave up. I knew this was my last chance…so I kissed her. I wasn't going to die without getting that. I'd been trying too long. Hey, I'm not a romantic guy but that kiss was something else. If things had been different – I could've lived the rest of my life with that girl. Shit, even with her being a vampire, I could've stayed with her forever. When we were kiss I got the idea. How we could defeat those monsters, even though I didn't have much time. I had no idea what would happen. I just knew Seras needed my blood if she was going to survive. So I told her to – drink my blood so we both could defeat Joleen. If my blood was inside of her, it'd be like a part of me helped, right? I had no idea what would happen next.
I think I may have been just barely alive when she bit me. And damn – that bite, felt better then anything I had ever experienced – even sex. Can't describe it – the sensation was amazing. It felt like all of my desire, pain, pleasure, hunger, thirst, all mixed up together. It was…incredible. I could feel my soul leaving my body and going into hers. No one would believe this but my soul was outside of my body for a minute or two – just before it went inside of hers. I looked down at the police girl devouring my blood. The whole scene was fucking amazing. Wished I'd had more time to enjoy the pure sensations.
I think I blacked out for a second or two when my soul went inside the police girl. I don't remember what it felt like going in. I just remember being there and looking through her eyes. Her "soul" was there too. I don't care what they say about vampires not having them. Seras has a soul. It is what makes her so different then other vampires. I can feel her soul next to me right now. When we fight, Seras is fully aware –she is there with me. In some really twisted way, when we fight our souls wrap around one another's and we are one. As corny as this may sound it's almost as if our souls are…shagging. I know, weird, huh? But, it's true – our souls truly become one during battle. Since I've more experience in killing then her, I lead when she fights. I have no problem killing and destroying evil. But, she is here with me enjoying the thrill of victory - because now we are one soul.
It was both of us who killed Joleen. Sure maybe I led and the police girl let me, but her mind experience everything my soul did. She got the revenge that she wanted. I got my vengeance. It felt so good wiping the ground with Joleen's face. That bitch took my life from me – it felt fucking fantastic removing her from this world. She thought I was a nothing, insignificant. But, I really showed her what a nothing could do to her. Me and Seras – we destroyed her. If it wasn't for her, we could've had so much fun together. I don't know when it would've happened but I know for sure that it would have. One night when we were all alone or after a battle…I know I could've gotten her to say yes. Seras and me, we were just an accident waiting to happen. It sounds kind of silly to talk about it now, feeling regrets about not getting laid. But, it really pissed me off that Millennium took that away from us. Damn, we could have had the hottest night ever. I wanted that girl more then anything. Sure I loved her too. But, shagging her would've been…amazing. I just know it.
Sex. I wonder what it'll be like when Seras finally does it. What will I feel? And am I going to around for all of it? I'm a guy who just likes girls. Nothing against guys who like guys. It's just not me. So what if Seras gets it on with a guy? That would just be weird. And what if it is with her Master? Damn I hope not. That vampire totally gives me the creeps. She can do so much better then him. He would never treat her right. I'll have to steer her away from him. Now, if I can talk her into another woman…that would be nice. I always sensed a little something between her and the Boss. Nothing ever happened but I think it could. Mmmm…the two of them together with me inside. Wouldn't that be like a threesome? I'll have to work on making that happen.
So when all that is said and done, I'm happy with the way things turned out. I get to kick some arse, kill the bad guys, night after night. And I get a great body to do it in. I get to look through Seras' eyes when she takes a bath or gets undressed. It's not all work. A fella has got to play, right? But, I can't deny the best part of this deal is I get to be with her – forever. I know it sounds so corny. But, deep down I love her. And if there's anyone's body I'd pick to be in, it would be her's.
