Why?

Here I lie

Ready to die

And as the darkness surrounds me

I begin to wonder why.

Why everyone I care about

Eventually leaves me, without a doubt

They'd use the excuse 'I show no emotions'

And that I shut everyone out.

But no one's ever stuck around long enough

To see the real me

The 'me' I keep locked deep inside

The 'me' no one takes the time to see.

I know that I get angry

And I know that it seems I don't care

But in this reality

I am actually scared.

I'm scared to show emotions

I'm scared to reveal the light

The light that glows in the darkness

Yet refuses to burn bright.

I don't want to fight death anymore

I've avoided it long enough

So leave me here to rot away

Only then, will everything be ok.

For then you wont have to worry

You wont have to fret your head

For I will be in a better place

Because I will be dead.