'I can't believe it.

Yoon Ji Hoo

Jun Pyo was leading her out of his own birthday party, with her gathered in his arms, Jan Di's heart was calling out for her personal fire-fighter, but I could not do nothing, I could not go and help her because Jun Pyo would definitely suspect that I liked her which I did not want him to find out. There would be severe consequences if he knew , like banishment for F4 and ShinHwa high or even worse he could go after what is left of his family and leave me with no family at all and I really didn't need that. I wanted to hold her in my arms so badly, I wanted to lead her away from this madness of Jun Pyo's birthday party, I wanted to kiss the top of her head as I helped her into the car but of course I couldn't that role was taken up by the almighty ShinHwa prince Goo Jun Pyo. She will probably never know that I like her.

I sat in the car with Jun Pyo and my precious Jan Di, she was curled in his lap fast asleep with her cute little snore. Jun Pyo leant down and kissed her head glared at me and then looked away, I clenched my fist, Jun Pyo didn't know how much I really wanted to do that to Jan Di, how many cold showers I got just by thinking of hugging her, he will never know my pain to love one of my best friends girls, especially when she is my first true love apart from SeoHyun and I loved her for that, my fist lay clenched all the way to my house, Jun Pyo spotted my awkwardness, looked down at my fist and smiled, Does he like seeing my uncomfortable? I questioned myself, I kept thinking about that until we arrived outside of my house, her parents were gone and Madam President didn't like Jan Di one bit and I could use that to my advantage.

Jun Pyo opened to door, lifted Jan Di and followed me inside my house, I just couldn't wait until he left, so I could stare at her all that I wanted without the awkwardness if Jun Pyo caught me looking, I opened the door for him, he looked at ease carrying his girlfriend like she weighed 5 kilograms instead of her average 60 kilograms, I lead him into my bedroom. "You can put her down on my bed, Jun Pyo." I told him. His eyes widened and I said that, I could see suspicion in his eyes. "Yoon Ji Hoo, why do you want her to sleep in your bed?' He shouted at me, his face turning red with anger, I knew this would happen so I came up with an excuse earlier. "What do you think I'm going to do, sleep with her? You don't trust me?" I said calmly back at him, at once he could see his mistake, his face told me that he was sorry, he lay her down on my bed said 'bye' to me and left my house, Jan Di and myself were the only ones it was occupied by at this current moment.

I pulled up a chair and sat next to her, today's events had worn her out and I didn't blame her, Jun Pyo's mother can be devious at the best of times, she sent the Korean Navy after us one time because we had ran off on her. I stared at her peaceful face, grabbed her hand carefully and kissed her hoping it didn't wake her up because I didn't want to explain this situation to her, I continued holding her hand until 1:00 in the morning, when I started to get tired and fantasize about her sleeping in my bed, just the thought of it got me excited. I left the room reluctantly taking one last glance at her, captivised by her sleeping beauty I left the room in a daze, falling on the flipout bed in the loungeroom, I went to sleep fast knowing that the sooner that I woke up the sooner that I would be able to see my soul mate again.