Just a little something that popped into my head. Thought i might put it on paper and see what people thought. It's nothing special. Drop me a review if you have time. Oh and i have no Beta so all mistakes are mine. Thanks. Jake.
I feel it everyday its all the same
It brings me down, but i'm the one to blame
I've tried everything to get away
So here i go again
chasing you down again
Why do i do this?
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She felt it everyday. The stab of pain in her heart. Everytime she saw them together. The small touches, the secret smiles, the looks. She had tried everything to get away from it. Away from all of the pain, but nothing really worked. Not totally anyway. The scores of men that she had slept with to try and ease the pain only helped for a few hours, the drinking was slowly killing her and work was where the pain was at it's worst. The best solution she had come up with so far was to run. Run until she collapsed and then drag herself into her bed for a dreamless sleep. That was the only time she didn't hurt. That was the only time that she could escape.
She was running to fast. She knew that, but she couldn't stop, couldn't slow down. She had to do this. She had to escape. Her legs were protesting. Her feet felt as if they were being ripped apart but she didn't care. She just went faster. Nothing was going to stop her.
Finally after a good 40 minutes of running Sara slowed down. She was exhausted. Jogging towards the fence leading to the park she jumped over it with ease and made her way over to the bench. Collapsing onto it she silently breathed a sigh of relief. One of the good things about working the nightshift is that when she went for a run straight after shift at 7am most people were still in bed or on the way to work meaning she had the park to herself.
Or almost to herself. As she looked over to the big football field to the right of her she realised there were two people sat on the bench. Two people looking straight at her. The two people she wanted to avoid most in the world. On the bench sat Gil Grissom and Sofia Curtis. Swearing silently to herself she stood and jumped back over the fence walking back the way she had come from.
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Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
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Everytime she saw him she lost a little more of herself to him. She fell a little more in love with him and she couldn't help it.
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It feels like everyday stays the same
It's dragging me down and I can't pull away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?
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She had a routine now. Every evening she would drag herself out of bed and stand under the shower for 20 minutes mentally preparing herself for the night ahead of her. She would then go and wake the man she had spent the 'day' with. Sometimes going another round with him but usually just telling him to get dressed and getting him to give her a lift to the lab. She would arrive at work the same time as the others. 5 minutes before shift. She would say goodbye to the guy who dropped her off, usually using the wrong name and would greet her friends and coworkers. She would do her work only talking to Nick, Warrick, Greg and Cath. Totally ignoring Grissom and Sofia. She would then drive home, go on a run, drag herself home, ring the latest guy and lose herself in him until that night when she had to start all over again.
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Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try
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He never tried to talk to her. Never tried to be her friend. He was barely civil to her and yet she still found herself being drawn to him. Like a moth to the flame. He was her life and yet he was the destruction of her.
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So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head
I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead
I know what's best for me
But I want you instead
I'll keep on wasting all my time
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Sara laughed bitterly to herself as she jogged home. Turning her ipod up as she went. The song was right. She couldn't get him out of her head. She knew she should quit and leave Vegas. Start over, but she couldn't. She felt dead when she couldn't look at him. She was wasting her time on him and her head knew it. It was just taking longer to get her heart to listen.
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Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try to
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The song is called over and over by three days grace. Drop me a review if you want me to continue. Thanks.
Jake
