Twilight fanfic. Chapter 1

Summary: "Alice…" Bella's POV. (New Moon Oriented)

Months have gone by… and no sign of Edward ever returning. As I thought that vile thought, the hole in my chest burned around the uneasy, jagged edges. As I sit reminiscing the little days I had with him, Charlie calls me up the long wooden staircase – echoes. I slowly pick myself up and head down the stairs to him.

" Yeah?"I say in a slightly odd tone. He stared.

"I…uh…your mom called asking how you were…but you were asleep. I didn't want to wake you. But… you..uh.. better call her back… She sounded worried."

I sighed, nodded and returned to my room with the cordless phone, and dialed. She hasn't left me alone since Edward left. His name had burned a secondary hole.

Phil answered. "Hi, Phil. Is my mother there?" I asked.

"Oh, hi, Bells." I don't like it when he calls me that, Charlie is the only one that is permitted. I've thought of telling him. But it'd hurt my Mom if she found out.

"Yes, she is. Just a moment." I sighed again, andsaid okay. In ashortsecond, sheurgentlysaidmy name. " Mom…" I could hearher thinking ofwhat to say. Maybe somethingI'd pickedup from… Him.

"Oh, honey. How have you been?" I sighed and told her I'd been fine, and that Charlie was alright too.

"Bella, I miss you so much." I wanted to say the same. But as selfish as it was, the only person I miss was…is…Edward. – Ouch. I lied and settled for "I miss you too, mom… uhm… I better get going… I have some homework to do." She drew in a quick breath and said "Oh, okay, honey, I love you, talk to you later."

"I love you too mom." -dial tone-

As I said those words, I realized the last person I said them to were Edward. I went and trudged to my computer and wrote a hopeless letter to Alice.

"Alice,

It's been months. I don't feel the same. I feel like a huge hole was punched through my chest. Renee keeps calling. I keep screaming in the night. Charlie tried to send me to Jacksonville. I said I wanted to stay in Forks. I guess I'll write again soon. Bye, Alice. "

I pressed Send.

No matter how much I wished he'd come back… I knew it would never happen. His last words rang in my empty head. " It'll be as if I never existed. " As if. I shivered. I climbed into bed. As I layed there, I prayed that things would get better. The crying and the aching will stop. Eventually, I fell asleep, only to wake up later that night screaming.

When I woke, my eyes were puffy. The light beamed in through my faded lace curtains beautifully. The only thing missing was my eternal happiness. Suddenly, taking me by surprise, the phone rang. It was Jake. I answered.