I am beginning a diary to keep track of events. On second thought, there are very few here in the palace. So perhaps this will be of ideas.
I'm beginning to feel like Mai, really. Staying in the palace is just so utterly boring. There's no one around except boring no-ones invited for this or that. Zuko is gone, much to my disappointment. He wears his emotions plainly on his face- you can see everything he feels in his eyes. It is truly spectacular and hilarious. Uncle has gone with him, and thank goodness for that- he never truly reacted to anything I did, much to my general annoyance. He is not at all like my brother. He takes nothing seriously, and all he truly cares about is tea. My main use for him was playing pai-sho, which I am rather good at. Although he never cared when he lost. So it is a bit of a relief to have him gone. As for my mother, whom I suspect is dead, and is more than likely never to come back anyway, she only made my taunting of Zuko more difficult. She never loved me truly, as I never really cared much for her. I only wonder if she left, or died, because of my father- If I am correct, he did not love her truly, but rather had a bit of an obsession with her.
My true cause of loneliness, however, is my father becoming Fire Lord. He is one who thinks most like me, to be frank. He deals in a cool, calm, but utterly frightening manner- something I aspire to. It gives one a thrill to watch him. Just by looking into the eyes of those he is talking to I can see how nervous they are.
Soon after my father assumed the throne (thank Agni it wasn't Uncle!) I abandoned my tutoring at the palace and was sent to the Fire Nation Academy for Girls. Mother had disappeared by then. My roommates were absolutely terrible- one cold stare and you'd think they'd be out cold. However, I did manage to find Ty Lee and Mai, who seemed the only two in the institution not trying to grovel at my feet. I quickly had them replace my roommates- after all, who would be enough of an idiot to refuse a Fire Princess's request? I know Mai and Ty Lee admire me, of course, but they don't act like idiots. On second thought, they do much of the time.
Mai's utterly depressed attitude and Ty Lee's infinite and often annoying perkiness combined with my icily controlled attitude made for a powerful, though oddly matched, team. I had them stay at my home over the summers, when of course all Fire Nation students don't have to attend school, which made it less boring in the palace, though Zuko was still there. Mai's obvious attraction to him made life very interesting indeed when I manipulated the circumstances. Hilarious, really.
However, now that our education at the Academy is over, Mai has moved to the Earth Kingdom city of Omashu, which we recently conquered, because her father was appointed governor due to my quick intervention. I saved the idiot's title and his favor with my father. Only because of Mai, of course. She probably wouldn't be accepted in the palace if her father was denounced. Unfortunately, she is now much too far out of reach for my liking. Ty Lee has achieved her dream of joining a traveling circus- she is a skilled acrobat, I will admit, but really- someone of her parentage, wasting an Academy education on that? She always was rather silly.
Now, however, I am alone. My two close Academy friends are out of even my reach, and Zuko, my favorite little toy to manipulate, is gone. My father is busy with meetings all day, and though an audience with me is rarely denied, his schedule is difficult to find space in. I will close now- it has been a rather long day of boredom and I am rather ashamed of pouring my pathetic complaints into this little book.
