Disclaimer: author does not own anything that is recognizable. I'm borrowing!
Rating: eh, tame.
Spoilers: not likely
Pairing: You'll see…
Summary: Maybe it's you, maybe it's me; maybe it's fate, maybe it's just destiny.
Notes: Four parts of drabbles, from an author who is pretty tied up in several long series fics. Inspiration all comes from listening to various songs. P.O.V.'s switch from part topart.Starting in hers, then to his, to another person's, then to narrator's.
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Part One: You
I'm leaving today, but .. You don't know that yet. You can't know that just yet. Because if you do? It'll just make it that much harder to walk away. You won't understand why I'm doing this, but I have to. For you, not for me. I'm thinking you won't agree with my decision, but you'll see, it's for the best.
No matter what you think now, it's for the best.
I keep telling myself that, as I lay beside you. You're sleeping now, so peacefully .. So content and unawares. I turn on my side, watching the soft rise and fall of your chest as you sleep, your lips are parted oh so slightly. I wish I could stay, you don't know how much I wish I could. But I can't. and it's for the best.
It's only for the best.
I repeat this over and over in my head, it's become my mantra you see. The strength I need to go through with this. Because I know you won't understand why I'm doing this .. And I know that if I take too long, you'll find some way to stop me. I can't let you do that. Hesitantly, I reach out a finger, easing the creases that have appeared on your forehead; tracing the curves of your cheekbone.
Goodbye is one of the hardest things to say .. And now I understand why. But it's for the best.
It's for the best because it has to happen. You deserve better in your life .. Not someone who's got emotional baggage to tote. You deserve someone who will make you happy, someone who isn't me. You deserve someone who can love you, love you without restraints. Am I saying that I can't? not really, but we both know it's for the best.
It's only for the best.
I close my eyes, swallowing down the bundle of emotions rising in my throat; for perhaps the last time .. I lean my body closer to yours, my lips hovering just over yours. I'm taking one last kiss, one last memory to keep with me. One last reminder before I turn around and walk away. My bags are waiting by the front door, the cab will be here any minute now .. And then I'll be gone. And when you wake up and I'm not there? Just remember ..
It's only for the best.
