Colourless Pain
First Half
"Kise-kun, are you still not finished?"
"Kurokocchi, stop moving."
"K-Kise-kun, I can't hold it anymore…"
"Only a little longer, I… almoooost…"
"I'm sorry, Kise-kun, I… can't…" was the last thing he said before he dropped the apple he was holding skywards with his right hand.
"Awww, Kurokocchi, I was so close to finish the drawing." I said disappointed.
"I'm sorry, but I told you to, I have weak arms, you should've asked Kagami-kun instead." he replied.
"But, you know you are my only muse, Kurokocchi. I didn't expect you to be that weak thou-ouch." before I could end my sentence Kurokocchi flicked me on my forehead.
"I warned you." he said monotonously. I only started pouting silently, he didn't need to flick me. But as soon as he noticed my behaviour, he sighed and kissed me on the spot where he had flicked me before. I couldn't help but start giggling, and he started laughing as well. And that's why I love him.
My name's Ryouta Kise and I'm a third year in Seikai High School and lucky me, my lovely boyfriend Kurokocchi is in the same class as me.
As long as I can think back I loved drawing and painting, that's one of the reasons I entered the art club in High School and spend almost every free minute painting, and Kurokocchi is my one and only muse, my inspiration; that's why I love painting him, although he himself doesn't like to sit still for too long, so sometimes it doesn't work.
"Anyway, how much time do I still need to keep doing this?" he asked after a while.
"Well now that you moved it doesn't matter anymore, you won't be able to pose exactly like you did before, so I guess I'm finished. Kind of." I said finally.
"Kise-kun, you know I love your paintings, but you do know as well that I don't like being the subject of your pictures."
"But I want the whole world to know how beautiful you are, Kurokocchi. I want everyone to see who you are and to know how lucky I am for having you!" I said smiling while looking at him. He blushed.
"K-Kise-kun, why are you so…" he stopped talking.
"Yeeeees?" I stared at him on tiptoe.
"Nothing." he giggled and flicked my forehead once again.
"Kurokocchiiiii…"
"Let's go home, Kise-kun." he said as he took my hand and we started walking home.
The next day passed by like any other day. After we had morning classes, we went upstairs to the rooftop garden to eat our lunch. At first it was prohibited for students to go up there, but after some discussions from the student council with the director, the prohibition was lifted and everyone was allowed to go up there. All thanks to our student council president Akashicchi. Now Kurokocchi, me and our friends always ate up there.
"Takao! Give me back my calculator. The calculator is, in fact, today's lucky item." Midorimacchi said angrily.
"You're all so bothersome, Muro-chin, why are we eating here again?" Murasakibaracchi didn't look like he wanted to be here.
"Oi, Aomine! Did you just steal meat from my lunch box?!"
"You're too slow, Kagami!" Aominecchi and Kagamicchi were having a lover's quarrel as always.
"Ahhh, just a day like any other day!" I said as I started laughing. Then I sat down next to them and started eating as well.
"Ohh, Tetsu! Your lunch looks good, gimme a bite."
"Sorry, won't do, Aomine-kun." Kurokocchi refused to let anyone steal from his lunch. But we were already used to how things went by with the nine of us, it was nothing special and so we continued our lunch break. And classes were finished for the day it was time for club activities.
"Kurokocchi, do you have time to come to the art club room now? I finished a painting the other way and I wanted to show it to you! You haven't seen it yet, I kept it a secret from you! Hehe." I said with a grin. It was supposed to be a present for him.
"I'm sorry Kise-kun, today I have to attend an important meeting of my literature club and I don't know how long it'll take. So…"
"Aawww, but I wanted to show you the painting today!"
"Next time, okay? It's not like it'll run away, right?" he smiled at me.
"I… I can send you picture of it too!"
"No, that won't do. I love your paintings, I want to see it with my own two eyes, okay?" he said as he gave me a kiss.
"O-okay. Then… then at least I'll wait until you're done and-"
"You don't have to, I appreciate the thought, but you'll better go home, okay? See you tomorrow, Kise-kun."
"Okay, bye bye Kurokocchi." I said and kissed him one last time before I turned back and started walking away. I still decided to go to the art club room, just to check if everything was fine.
The painting I wanted to show him was one I made for our anniversary. It was a painting of us, it took me quite some time, but I was proud I finished it and I couldn't wait to show him and to see his reactions. But that had to wait now. After locking the doors I went straight home. When I arrived home I fell asleep after a short time, the past days had been very stressful and I didn't get much sleep.
When I woke up the next morning and looked at the clock, I noticed that I was almost late for school. I didn't know how I managed to oversleep while going to bed a few hours earlier than normally, but I somehow did. I grabbed the things I needed for school and rushed out of my house. When I was already running to catch the bus I noticed that I had forgotten my phone at home, but I couldn't go back now. I said to myself that I'd survive one day without my phone and continued running.
"I'm not late!" I screamed as I opened the door to our classroom and everyone turned to the door and stared at me. I wasn't late, but I was the last one to arrive and now had everyone's attention.
"Yo, Kise. Made it on time!" Aominecchi said. I was completely out of breath when I fell down on my chair.
"You okay?" he asked me from his desk behind of mine.
"Y-yeah.. I… only…" I was so out of breath that I couldn't speak properly, I was panting.
"You're out of breath?"
"N-no… well… yeah… b-but…"
"But what?"
"N-nothing…" I gave up, trying to explain it to him would've been be too exhausting. And then I noticed, Kurokocchi wasn't sitting in front of me. Where was he?
"Aominecchi, where is Kurokocchi?" I asked him.
"Huh? What are you? Stupid? Already forgotten the text he sent us earlier?"
"Wh-what tex… I… I forgot my phone at home, so I don't know."
"Oh, I see. You're really dumb, aren't you Kise?!"
"Where is Kurokocchi?!"
"Well according to his text he got caught up in a little accident or something, nothing big he said. But he's in the hospital now and can't come to school today, so we-" but before he could finish what he wanted to say I jumped up from my chair and dashed out of the classroom. I almost bumped into a teacher but I didn't care about that at the moment, my mind was still in shock about what Aominecchi said.
An accident?! When?! How?! Dozens of questions were floating around in my head and all I could think of was Kurokocchi and hoping he was okay. I was running straight to the hospital, I didn't care about missing class or anything else, I just wanted to see him, and nothing else mattered at that moment.
When I arrived at the hospital, I asked for help, told them who I was and if I could go and see Kurokocchi. After some minutes of waiting, a doctor appeared and told me to accompany him. I was nervous and happy at the same time; being able to see him meant that his condition couldn't be that bad.
We were standing in front of the room's door in which Kurokocchi was lying in. The doctor knocked at the door and opened it slightly.
"Kuroko-san, may I come in? You have a guest." he said.
"Alright." I heard Kurokocchi's voice from inside of the room. He was okay, I was relieved. The doctor opened the door and we both entered the room. I closed the door behind of me before continuing into the room and then I saw him. Kurokocchi was sitting on a bed. I was happy to see him again and looked him in the eyes, and it seemed as if he was looking into mine. I was about to say something, but Kurokocchi was faster. And I'll never forget those words he uttered that instant.
"Who is it?"
