Wednesday, February 27 (second documented year)

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... Yes, as I knew it would, it's finally happened. It's rapidly beginning to worsen. I can't take it much longer... Today... Today, I saw something that made me think... And my thoughts took a turn for the worse. I can't tell about it just yet. Maybe at a later date, if I'm still sane... But not now. Too many things are tied into it. If I told one thing, I'd have to tell the rest, and that would risk destroying any feelings that might have existed, though I know deep in my heart that none do...

Thursday, February 28 (second documented year)

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I've kept control for one more day, acted the same as always... But I still feel it, stronger than ever... There are some things beyond a persons control. One day very, very soon, I am going to completely lose all hope. All of this pressure, this... Thing... And then there are all of these emotions... All bottled up inside... They're taking their toll on me. All I can do is hope that something happens before I hurt anyone. I don't care what happens to me, as long as everyone else remains safe... Especially... (The rest of the paragraph is unreadable due to a slightly reddish black stain...)

Saturday, March 2 (second documented year)

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I just got home... It's now about an hour past Midnight. I don't know where I've been for the last day, or what I've done. I just hope that I only blacked out and didn't do anything at all... The first thing I did was check on everyone. They were all fine, which means that, if it wasn't a blackout, I still have at least a bit of subconcious control over myself. But, like I said before, I don't know how long I can maintain any form of control... I could completely lose myself at any moment. The only logical thing for me to do now is to leave, to isolate myself somewhere where I can't do any harm to anyone but myself when I do lose control. I refuse to take any chances with the lives of those who are important to me.

Saturday, March 2 (second documented year)

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If any of them knew I was doing this, they'd try to stop me, and they'd ask why I was trying to leave... So I have to leave soon, before they wake up. I don't even know why I'm bothering to write in here anymore, I can't let anyone, especially them, read it... I can't stand the thought of them reading this... If they read this, they'd all hate me for what I am, and for what I am becoming... Even... Oh, God. No. I have to make sure I don't leave this behind, although there's no point in taking it with me... I want to know that I at least have our friendship, even though I wont be here anymore... It's certainly better than knowing that the one I love hates me...

Saturday, March 2 (second documented year)

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But now, with all that said... Maybe it would be best if I left this behind. Who knows... Maybe it might help a little, in some way I can't see... Either way, I have to decide now.... Alright. I'm bookmarking a previous entry, one that reveals a little about my secret... And another that reveals my feelings... I'll leave this here, which means this will be the last entry, although there wouldn't have been many more anyways... I'm leaving now, so... Goodbye.

Alrighty, listen up... If you have ANYTHING bad to say about this, I will personally hunt you down and skin you alive, kay? This fic... I really, truly don't know what is going on, myself. I don't know who wrote those diary entries, though I do have a few guesses, I don't know where this fic will go, though I once again have a few guesses... *shrugs* I just generally don't have any idea what is going to happen in this fic. It started out with a definite plot, but then the characters changed completely, as well as the plot. In fact, the plot changed every paragraph, and I still don't know for sure where this will end up. Anyways, if you liked it or at least would be interested in finding out what happens next... Good. Gimme a review. If, however, you intend on flaming or, yes, even constructively criticising this... Don't bother, just go stick a fork in an electrical socket. See ya!