This is a "What If". This is how I feel Liz feels right now. She realizes that she is settling for Franco and that she deserves to love someone who understands her and truly loves her too. I feel that Jason does, but he is hiding it. Liz is going to face her demons with some help from her best friend and former lover. This will be in two parts. One part will have a happy ending and the other part will be a sad one. I don't own the characters. They belong to ABC and GH.

Liz thought that she had everything that she wanted. That was until Jason came back from the dead. She believed that the man she helped get better was Jason, but instead was his twin brother, Andrew. She also thought that she loved Franco. Liz didn't want to be alone. Even though she has her three wonderful sons, she wants to have someone in her life that puts her first. She thought she had that with Franco.

Everyday seemed to be wonderful until the truth started coming out. From one day to the next, Liz was not sure what she was going to find out about her fiancée. He tried to tell her truth about Jason and Drew but was never quite there with it. Liz understood what caused him to lie, because she had been there herself. She just wasn't sure if she could truly trust him anymore.

When Franco found out that Liz was starting to pull back, he got scared. He knew that his inner demons were just waiting on the fringes to unleash his terror on Liz if she did leave him. He just prayed that he had enough guidance and respect for him and Liz, not to go there. He knew once, he let a little out, that he would not be able to hold it back.

Liz had a talk with the one person she could trust with her feelings. Emily was gone, and Robin was in California. She decided to talk to Griffin. She knew he was no longer a priest, but he was a good sounding board. She just wanted to know if she was doing what was right for her and her family. She worried about Jake, but she knew that she had to be true to her heart.

Liz went to see Griffin. "Griffin, can I ask you a favor? I need some guidance, as a friend. I know you no longer are a priest. I just need to know if what I plan to do is the right thing?"

Liz and Griffin went to Kelly's and had some hot chocolate. She looked at him and wondered if she should tell him about Jason and Franco. Griffin knew that she was struggling and wanted to help her.

"I am thinking about asking Franco to move out of my home. I am not sure if I am as ready to be his fiancée as I thought I might be. I asked him, and I was so sure of myself and then Jason comes back from the dead again. I don't know what to do?"

Griffin looks at her and then Ava walks in the door. When Ava saw that her boyfriend was speaking to the cute nurse, she felt a twinge of jealousy. Griffin knew what she was thinking and when Liz turned to look at the door she saw why. "Go see her. I will be fine. I just need to go think."

Liz called her Grams and asked if she could take care of her sons for a few days. She needed to go somewhere and think. She knew that she needed to ask Franco to move out first. Her Grams said she would love to have her great grandsons over for a few days.

Liz went home and told her sons that she needed to think for a few days and that she was bringing them over to Grams. The boys packed their belongings and Liz took them over to her Grams' house. She thanked her grandmother and kissed her sons' goodbye.

She then went home. Franco was there wondering where everyone went. "I asked my grandmother to watch my sons. I need to talk to you and then I need to straighten, out my head. I thought I was in love with you, Franco. I love you, but not in the way you need me too. You have done so much for my sons and me. You have made me feel loved again, but I think that somewhere along the line, we both started going in opposite directions. I am not even sure when it happened. I just know that we can't be together as a couple."

Franco looked at Liz like he had been physically hit. In fact, when Jason hit him, it didn't feel as bad. "I will go upstairs and pack my things. You know where to find me, in case you change your mind. Thank you for being honest with me. I know it took a lot out of you to tell me. I will always love you."

Liz grabbed a couple of things and headed for her SUV. It was winter and cold. She wasn't thinking straight, and her day was about to get worse. She went to find something to drink and headed up towards, "Nowhere". This is the place that she went too, when she needed to think. She wasn't sure what she was going to do there, but she needed some closure.

She got to the bridge and took the bottle of whiskey with her. She didn't know what she was going to do, but she knew that she just needed to be alone. She was hurting so bad from seeing Jason come back and want Sam. She could see the differences between the two brothers now. Drew was a lot lighter that Jason. Jason was still the brooder and his eyes smoldered. She remembered all their good times and their bad times. It was usually bad timing on their parts and Sonny's business that kept them apart. Well, if she was being honest, then it also had to do with her always putting everyone ahead of herself. She knew that she loved Jason, but everyone told her that she owed Lucky. Jason was hurt because of this and the two started to go their own ways.

The snow had started to pick up and she knew that she would have to leave soon, but she just started to feel some peace, which was probably the alcohol in her. She looked up at the sky and wondered how it felt to just float down from the sky.

She had been drinking for a little while and she got up. She looked down at the rocks and water. She felt as if she could just jump and everything would go away. She just didn't want to hurt anymore. She knew that her feelings for Jason were still there, but she knew that he wanted Sam and a life with her. She knew that maybe her best bet was to move away. That is if she could get herself off the bridge. She knew she was drunk, but she didn't know how to leave or if she wanted too. She just wanted to melt into the bridge and float away.

The same time that Liz was there, Jason had taken a ride up there too. He was hurting too, because of the way things were working out in Port Charles. At first, he thought that he was seeing things. Then he knew that he wasn't and that there was someone who was having a harder time than he was.

"Liz, come down off the bridge for a minute. I need to talk to you. Please, you can tell me to leave, but first come over to me and say it."

Liz walked over there. He could tell that she was drunk, but he also realized how much she was hurting. "Come here, we can go somewhere and talk. We can take a ride on my bike or we can go in your SUV. It is up to you, but I am driving."

"You can talk to me in the SUV. I am not going anywhere with you. You are the reason why I am here to begin with and I don't trust my feelings around you."

Jason looked at Liz for the first time since he came back from Russia. He could see that she had been crying and that she was not wearing the ring that Franco had bought her. There was a sadness and it hurt him to know that it was because of him.

"Look, we can just sit in your SUV. I have no problem with that. Just let me help you. We can just talk, okay. I mean you no harm."

Liz started to laugh at that. "You never mean to hurt me, but you always do. I love you and have for so long. When I was with Drew and thought he was you, I thought I finally found someone who could truly love me. I didn't know for a long time that Jake Doe was you or should I say Drew. When I found out the truth, well I was heartbroken. I had found out that Ric had been playing me one more time. Then Nik told me that Jake Doe was Jason Morgan. I guess his grandmother must have been laughing at that mistake. She told Nik who you were. She just had the wrong brother, or maybe she wanted everyone to believe that Jake Doe was really you. I should have told the truth, but I wanted some happiness. That was a huge mistake. There were so many things different about him as Jason, until he found out that he was you. Then he seemed to morph into another Jason Morgan. He was just as cold, as you could be when you were betrayed. Everything was Sam, Carly and Sonny. I guess, I should be grateful that he didn't want to send me to the barrens, but I guess being Jake's mother, he couldn't do that."

Jason saw one of her other bottles of whiskey. He decided if he couldn't beat her, then he should join her. He drank a couple of shots and he could start to feel the warmth of the whiskey. It felt good and it warmed him up a bit.

"Okay. For the record, you do matter to me. I still love you, even though you drive me crazy. We have been playing this game for so long that I don't even know where to start or where to jump off. Sam is someone who gets me in a way, that I need sometimes. I thought that I wanted her back, but I saw her with my brother and realized that she could never truly be happy with me. She needs stability and I can't give that to her. I can't give that to you either. If I could go back in time, I would have asked you to marry me and left Port Charles behind me. I was afraid that you would still want to be with Lucky, so I backed out."

Jason knew that Liz had to be cold. His mind was fuzzy, or he would have just driven them home. He turned on the SUV to get some heat in the vehicle. Liz had backed the SUV into a snowbank. The tailpipe was blocked. The two of them went in the back to kiss.

"Jason, I want you to know that I have always loved you. Please make love to me."

Jason looked at her and helped her get comfortable. They placed a blanket that she had for emergencies like this and the two of the shared one last perfect kiss. "Liz, I will always love you too."

The two of them kissed and then they were gone. A few days later, someone saw their vehicles. They looked in the backseat of the SUV and saw the couple were in the backseat, embracing. The person who found them, started to cry and called 911, even though he knew that it was too late.

Franco had decided that he was going to say goodbye to Liz. He knew where she liked to go to get away. He was sad by his discovery, especially because now her sons would not have their mother anymore. Jake would not have either of his parents.