Time for me to go all depressing on myself. I'm going from Kairi's POV and Sora's, half and half. Yep Yep. This fic is PG-13 for suicide issues/attempts, swearing, I might add a little bit of non- descriptive...uh...relationship issues in later chapters. Enjoy my good friends!^^

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~*Kairi*~

Sometimes when I'm lonely, I pretend Sora's here with me. He tells me about his adventures, about his friends. It's really nice. And other times when I feel sad, he tells me how much he misses me, and how much he loves me. But then I wake up. I stop living in my happy-go-lucky kiddie world. And I grow up. Sora isn't coming back. I'm sure he found some slut to keep him company, some pretty girl willing to give in to his every little whim. I sit in our secret spot, and I stare at the door for hours. As if he'll suddenly appear.

I'm So Immature...

Why would he come back?

He doesn't miss me...

Selphie, Tidus, and Wakka always try to make me feel better, they think they are so great, that they can suddenly make my whole life better by saying some sappy words, and trying to make me play some childish game with them. Well they're right. If I ddin't have them, I probably wouldn't be able to keep myself sane. I'd thank them, if they understood.

Sometimes I can hear Riku, saying something like:

"Sora, bet I can beat you to the other side of the island!"

I miss him too. Riku was my best friend. He was always there for me. He might not have always made the right choices. But it was for what he thought was a good cause, his heart was too weak that's all. He was Sora's best friend. And if that didn't bother Sora, there was no way it'd bother me.

Sora...

I wish He was here...

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~*Sora*~

Everyday it's the same think I wake up, think about Kairi, kill people, while thinking of Kairi, eat, while thinking of Kairi, then I go to sleep, and guess what else. I think of Kairi. She's the first thing I think of one I wake up, and the last thing before I go to sleep.

I'm obsessive...

I need to stop thinking of her.

I'd bet anything Riku's with her now anyways...

Riku, He did everything wrong and still had so much.

He was the true keyblade master.

He spent a lot of time with Kairi.

He's probably with her right now.

Damn him. He's so lucky, and I'm sure he doesn't dwell on everything he wants like I do. I'm sure his thoughts of Kairi aren't the only things that keep him alive, the only things the he has left.

He has so much...

He takes everything for granted.

If he does have Kairi...

He better not be taking her for granted!

No, he wouldn't do that.

How about Tidus?

What if he has Kairi?

Or, or...Wakka?

Or someone else...

No...no, I have to think positive.

She's waiting for me,

she's waiting for me...She's...

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So.....How is it? Do you like it? I'm trying but I have to act all...Deep. Eh, It's so hard.