Severus's Confession
AN:
What possessed me to write this you may ask?
I'm not quite sure... My muse appears to be back with a vengence tonight.
Which is really quite bad... I have a seven forty five class in the morning... and its a quarter til midnight and I'm still writing stuff.
I don't own HP.
Severus Snape came home and sat heavily in his favorite armchair and sighed deeply. Some days he wished he could just be found out as a spy. The things he had to do...
Suddenly he felt a pair of strong dextile hands massaging his tense shoulders. Severus leaned into the hands and groaned as the hands did their work, loosening the knots that had inevidibly ended up in his shoulders, and kneeding them into oblivion.
He gently took the hands that were working at the knots and led them and their owner to the front of the chair. He picked up the lithe figure and placed her on his lap.
"Severus," the woman with short blond hair scolded, playfully hitting his shoulder. "I'm not a child! Nor was I finished getting all of those horrible knots out."
"Jessica," he said looking into her eyes. "I cheated on you again."
Jessica sighed and put her hand gently his cheek, "Love, did you love the woman or women you had sex with?"
Severus made to answer but Jessica was already continuing, "Were they willing to have sex with you? This is your choice as a spy. And you know that I accepted that when I accepted you. I understand you do things you would not normally do if it weren't for that bastard you are forced to call 'Master.'"
"Jess, it must make you angry," Severus said softly still looking at her. "I'd understand if you wouldn't want to be with me anymore."
"Severus Bran Snape. Don't you dare suggest that to me one more time!" Jessica said poking him in the chest. "I love you. I want to be with you even if you do act like a cold heartless bastard to the rest of the world. I love you and your straight forward manner. Otherwise I wouldn't be here having this silly arguement with you... again."
"But I rape, I maim, I kill, I verbally assalt children in front of students simply to keep my cover," Severus said sharply. "I could end up killing you."
"No you couldn't, I wouldn't let that burden be on your heart," Jessica said snuggling up to his chest. Severus deeply inhaled the lilac smell of her hair from the special shampoo he had made her for her last birthday. He knew you could buy that scent on the market but knew that the slight effort it took to make it just to see her smile for such a simple thing.
"I don't want you to die," he whispered into her hair. "And I don't want you to be with me just because you already promised to be with me forever. Its not right. I do horrible disgusting things. I must repulse you."
Jessica looked up into his eyes fiercely and whispered. "What you did tonight was no more your fault than it was of those women. You were raped just as they were, but you did not have the release of death at the end. But I love you and I will not turn my back on you because you have been raped, and will be continued to be raped body and spirit until the dark lord is dead."
"What did I do to deserve you?" Severus asked wonderingly.
"Beats the hell out of me," Jessica said shooting him a playful glance and hopping out of his lap. "Now lets see what I can do about those knots for now..."
He closed his eyes as her hands continued to work out the knots in his shoulders, just as she had done with the ones on his conscious.
AN:
Please review!
AN:
What possessed me to write this you may ask?
I'm not quite sure... My muse appears to be back with a vengence tonight.
Which is really quite bad... I have a seven forty five class in the morning... and its a quarter til midnight and I'm still writing stuff.
I don't own HP.
Severus Snape came home and sat heavily in his favorite armchair and sighed deeply. Some days he wished he could just be found out as a spy. The things he had to do...
Suddenly he felt a pair of strong dextile hands massaging his tense shoulders. Severus leaned into the hands and groaned as the hands did their work, loosening the knots that had inevidibly ended up in his shoulders, and kneeding them into oblivion.
He gently took the hands that were working at the knots and led them and their owner to the front of the chair. He picked up the lithe figure and placed her on his lap.
"Severus," the woman with short blond hair scolded, playfully hitting his shoulder. "I'm not a child! Nor was I finished getting all of those horrible knots out."
"Jessica," he said looking into her eyes. "I cheated on you again."
Jessica sighed and put her hand gently his cheek, "Love, did you love the woman or women you had sex with?"
Severus made to answer but Jessica was already continuing, "Were they willing to have sex with you? This is your choice as a spy. And you know that I accepted that when I accepted you. I understand you do things you would not normally do if it weren't for that bastard you are forced to call 'Master.'"
"Jess, it must make you angry," Severus said softly still looking at her. "I'd understand if you wouldn't want to be with me anymore."
"Severus Bran Snape. Don't you dare suggest that to me one more time!" Jessica said poking him in the chest. "I love you. I want to be with you even if you do act like a cold heartless bastard to the rest of the world. I love you and your straight forward manner. Otherwise I wouldn't be here having this silly arguement with you... again."
"But I rape, I maim, I kill, I verbally assalt children in front of students simply to keep my cover," Severus said sharply. "I could end up killing you."
"No you couldn't, I wouldn't let that burden be on your heart," Jessica said snuggling up to his chest. Severus deeply inhaled the lilac smell of her hair from the special shampoo he had made her for her last birthday. He knew you could buy that scent on the market but knew that the slight effort it took to make it just to see her smile for such a simple thing.
"I don't want you to die," he whispered into her hair. "And I don't want you to be with me just because you already promised to be with me forever. Its not right. I do horrible disgusting things. I must repulse you."
Jessica looked up into his eyes fiercely and whispered. "What you did tonight was no more your fault than it was of those women. You were raped just as they were, but you did not have the release of death at the end. But I love you and I will not turn my back on you because you have been raped, and will be continued to be raped body and spirit until the dark lord is dead."
"What did I do to deserve you?" Severus asked wonderingly.
"Beats the hell out of me," Jessica said shooting him a playful glance and hopping out of his lap. "Now lets see what I can do about those knots for now..."
He closed his eyes as her hands continued to work out the knots in his shoulders, just as she had done with the ones on his conscious.
AN:
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