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A/N: Hey guys… I hope everyone likes it. It may contain a LOT of mistakes, I'm sorry but I don't have a beta or anything so, I'm really sorry…

I wrote this of a dream I had with Selena, in the dream it was her and me so… I 'translated' let's say for Alex and Justin, I can't help but I'm a Jalex fan.

I'm not gay, ok? I just wrote in Alex POV because the dream was like that so I just kept going.

I didn't know if I made this a one or a two shot so it's up to you guys… in my head the following day it's a litte er… 'hot' so if you want me to continue just let me know.

I hope everyone likes it and I'm sorry if I used some words that you think it's too graphic, I tried not to but I was carried with the moment.

Just so we're clear it's rated M for a reason and it's a little smutt and a little fluffy, so enjoy please.

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FEELING SICK

I entered his room as quietly as possible. It was two in the morning now. He looked so peaceful, just thinking about waking him up from his peaceful slumber broke my heart.

I have a confession to make. I love this young man lying on this bad. Who is he? His name is Justin Russo. Our love is forbidden. . I know it's not right; but what can you do when you fall in love? We've been dating for a few months now, and decided to keep it a secret and fight for our love. What makes our love so wrong you ask? My name is Alex, Alex Russo, Justin's little sister.

Justin is just perfect. He's the best boyfriend, he's cute, he's kind, and he truly cared about me. He made me feel like the most special women in the world. Even though he says this relationship is nothing, and thinks he doesn't deserves me, I'm going to tell you, not only is our relationship everything, there isn't a person in the world that is more deserving of my love than Justin. Only he can make me happy in every possible way. And I can't help but smile every time I think of him.

Unfortunately Justin was feeling well. Last week was like hell. He got some weird flu that made him extremely sick. He couldn't eat or drink, and was constantly locked up in his room sleeping with a very high fever. The past couple days were the worst. He completely passed out for a few hours. I thought he wasn't going to make. Just the thought of losing him made me want to kill myself as well. What can you do when you're watching the love of your life this close to death?

Thank God he was finally starting to get better. I missed him like hell, watching him like this cuts my heart in two. Half of it was inside of me the other half was on that bed with Justin.

I sat on his bed and played with his hair, smiling at his beautiful and manly features. My finger ever so lightly traced his jaw, and stopped at his lips. I gave him a quick gentle peck on his lips. I didn't want to wake him up. But boy did I miss kissing him. I wished we could kiss more passionately now and maybe even make love for the rest of the night.

Memories flooded my mind and I smiled. I was watching TV a little earlier and I heard that talking with someone sleeping can help them getting better. So that's why I'm here, to talk to him.

"Good night babe. I don't want to wake you but I missed you so much and I just had to come here and talk to you, you don't mind, do you?"

No response came and I kept smiling as I continue.

I stroked his hair and pushed some to the back of his head.

"Please, get better soon ok? You got me really worried here you know?" I sighed.

"I really thought you weren't going to make it." A lone tear fell down my face.

"Please, don't leave me… I've realized I can't live without you and that's why I'm here..."

I sighed again; I'm not the girly type so this was hard for me to admit.

"I will tell you this again when you wake up, but I couldn't let this go… I need you to know something…" I smiled and kissed him lightly on his lips.

"I love you Justin. I mean I really really do… It's like my heart doesn't exist anymore, there's only you inside of me. I don't dream anymore. I just see your face all night; and even though I thought I wasn't going to sleep, it was the best damn thing I could hope for…"

"You must be really happy right now, aren't you?" More tears found their way down my face and I blew my nose on the sleeve of my pajamas.

"You bastard… you had to make me fall for you… Damn, now you'll tease me forever but it's ok… you still told me first!" I playfully stuck my tongue out wishing he could see my childish antics that I knew he loved.

"Get better and come back to me, okay?" I say wiping the tears from my eyes.

"Don't make me kill myself just to kick your butt back here!" I kiss him lightly on the lips again and go to the door. I try my best to open his door without making too much noise, I hear a little noise.

"Don't go…" he says in his croaked-sick whisper.

I stare at him with my mouth open.

"You're… you're awake?" joy running through my body I want to squeeze him until his health comes back to him.

"Er… no?" he pretends to be asleep again but the next thing I know I'm by his side hugging him so hard I tell our bodies apart.

"Oh babe… babe… you're awake you're finally awake I thought I was going to loose you… oh you're okay… oh god I love you" I hugged him even tighter with a smile bigger than his room on my face.

"I know…" he said smiling at me and then I realized he had heard everything I said.

"Oh…." My mouth hanged open for a few seconds as realization crossed me.

"You son of a…"

"Hey hey… you love me, remember?" he said in his weak voice.

"Lucky you I do, you… Argh! If I wasn't so happy I would have killed you"

He gives me an innocent smile, the one that makes my heart stops and my color go away. God he's just so handsome, and he's mine.

I lay down beside him and he hugs my back gently stroking my hair with one hand and the other one rests on my waist. I start to gently run my finger on his hand. This kind of affection it's normal for us we're usually cuddling at night and god I missed this.

"Just so you know… I love you too… and thank you for loving me…" his croaked voice makes me smile.

"Yeah, I can't believe it my self but I do… I truly love you, not that you deserve it!" I say as a joke but as soon as I hear him sigh I regret it.

"Babe I was kidding please don't feel like that… please!"

"I can't Alex… you know it's true, I'm just ruining your life…"

"Shut up! Please, I just said I love you… you're my world Justin. Don't say stuff like that it kills me. I feel I'm not worth your love either… actually I feel I'm not even worth living…"

"Don't you dare! Don't you dare even joking about this Alex!"

"Then don't be an idiot and say stupid stuff like that! We love each other and we will be together so just get over it…"

I can hear him sighing and mumbling what I think it is an "okay".

"You know… there are just so many answers I could give you right now but I don't want to freak you out so I'll just shut up." He smiles and cuddles a little close, that's when I feel all his body and a shot of pleasure runs through me.

I pant heavily in frustration, I forget what we were talking about and what I was about to ask. I know it's not his fault but we haven't made love for a good two weeks now and my body misses him as much as my heart does. Things just get worse when I feel his manhood so close to me. I can feel I'm already starting to get wet at my center and his slow breathing on my ear is just making me more and more hot.

I try to move myself but all it does is it arouses me further. My little shorts that are now as wet as me, uncover a little part of my pussy and suddenly the smell of my juices comes off and I feel so ashamed. Justin is sick for gods sake, how can my body beg for him! It's just not fair for us…

"Alex… is this what I think it is?" he asks me.

"I'm sorry babe… it's not my fault… it's just that I miss you so much and I think my body does too…" I start crying out of embarrassment.

"Shh… it's ok… it's kinda flattering actually…" he smiles and hugs me tighter.

"It's not like you're the only one…"

That's when I feel his member now slightly rubbing my center, making it so wet that I'm afraid I'm going to ruin his sheets. When we come closer I try to hold a moan but he escapes my lips and that just makes his smile.

"Oh Justin… I need you so much…"

I try to push myself to him so I can feel him again but he has other plans.

His hands lightly crosses over my body, playing with my breast, that makes my nipples as hard as his cock, then he goes down and I gasp when his finger strokes me very lightly through my shorts.

I'm so over the edge that I almost scream his name when I feel his tip, now free of his pajamas rubbing my cunt.

"Please…" my voice is something between a moan and a whisper.

He doesn't care that I'm begging, he keeps rubbing his tip at my entrance and than on my clit, back to my entrance and keeps going. I'm so wet that I don't know what I can do; his cock is just as wet just by rubbing me. I'm dying and I need to feel him, my walls need to close tight around him but he doesn't listen to my body.

He pushes my short to the side so my pussy is now fully uncovered and he puts his tip on my entrance and starts to push himself in very, very slowly.

When his tip is finally inside of me I can already almost feel my orgasm coming. He keeps pushing himself forward and when I feel all his length is inside of me I moan in a way I never have before. I feel as if my life only started now.

We stay like that for a few minutes, not moving, just relishing the sensations of our bodies being connected. Of course my body is aching for him to move but I don't have any control anymore, I'm his now, mind, soul, and body.

He starts to pull back and is leaving me, when I feel the only part of him inside of me is his tip I moan in desperation, and as I'm about to complain he pushes again entering me again very slowly and making me moan again.

He keeps stroking me painfully slow for a few more minutes, just enough to give me my first orgasm. I feel a mix of feelings inside. My body is deeply frustrated, and wants him to come hard and fast, but wants this achingly slow and painful way as well. I'm irritated because he knows I like it hard but I have no strength to complain. And now when I come in this painful rhythm I'm surprised and even hornier than before.

I can feel him smiling, he loves to see me come and I never did in this rhythm so he must be feeling the best lover in the planet. Men…

When my legs seem to get back some life I start to move on my own to feel all the length of his cock inside of me but he stops me and comes out letting me unfulfilled and frustrated.

"Babe… please…" I beg him.

"Shhh…" he says, and with his finger he starts to rub my cunt making me wet again.

He strokes me with his hand and tries to drive me insane by rubs his cock on my wet pussy again. I gasp when his fingers enters me. I need him inside but he seems not to care.

When he stops stroking me I cry in desperation. He takes his cock and pushes his tip on me again just to take it off. My pussy now that is more wet than ever just let him enter with my juices flowing. He then starts to spread my juices all over my pussy and my ass, driving me almost over the edge again.

I'm so wet I can't even think straight anymore that's when he does something that makes me gasp in surprise and pleasure. He enters me from my back, it's just the tip but it hurts so much! But it gives me pleasure twice as high.

I can feel he is enjoying because he stopped breathing he only does that when he's about to come.

He than keeps pushing forward and I moan like a crazy woman, I want him on my ass and I want my big brother to make me come by fucking me there, I feel so dirty and at the same time so horny, I never knew I could feel this way.

When he is finally half inside of me he starts to pull back.

"Justin you'll kill me you tease…"

He enters my ass again very slowly making me moan with pleasure.

"You know babe… I want to make you come from behind… but not now… not today… when I do I'll make it the way you deserve"

He pulls back and I cry out in desperation, he almost drives me over the edge and stops this feeling of almost heaven its killing me! I want him to fuck me hard, I know he always dreamed of taking me from behind and I always said no, but right now I want to scream yes! I never knew it could be so good I always felt it was so dirty but right now I want it hard and I want it now.

I felt his hard cock shaking, begging for release but all he did was rub me again, he was starting to make me feel angry.

"Justin can you pl…." I couldn't finish my sentence.

He pushed himself so hard and deep in my pussy that I almost passed out. I came hard and I couldn't breathe with the sensation. It was… Wonderful!… it was so intense, so overwhelming that it's impossible to explain.

He stroked me hard a few more minutes; I could feel my walls tightening around his cock and my juices making his way easier.

When he finally came, he came so hard that I felt his sperm fills me in deep, he kept cumming and filling me and with that feeling of fulfillment I came a third time that night.

"That was…. Awesome…" he said, sweat coming off our bodies.

"hmm yeah" I couldn't form words right, this was the best sex ever! And though my brother is always good, this time he was PERFECT.

"Tired?" he asked in his mocking tone.

"Geez… you think?" I replied my voice filled with sarcasm.

We cuddled more. Justin was always like that after we made love; he held me if possible even tighter and only slept after me. Girls usually say that men are pig 'cause after the sex they fall sleep and that's it. But not my Justin, he always plays with my hair or run his fingers over my face, or something that makes me feel protected and loved.

"I'm sorry babe… I promise we won't have sex again…"

He hid his face in my hair from the slap he knew was coming, I slapped him hard on his arm then.

"Shut up you geek!" I turned my head and kissed him.

"Ok… so… are you going to tell me what you were going to say before?"

"What do you mean?"

"You know… when you said you had a lot of answers…"

"Oh…" he said blushing immediately.

"That's what you were going to tell me? Oh?"

"No! of course not…"

"So…?"

"So… what?"

"Are you trying to piss me off or what? Because you know… you're supposed to be the smart one…"

He sighed and I could feel he was blushing even more.

"Enlighten me of your statement early…"

"Well… I said that we were going to be together whether you want it or not! And I mean it!"

"You see… even though I shouldn't be with you and you deserve much more, I want you forever, as my friend, my lover, my sister, my girlfriend and one day my wife. I know we're too young and someday soon you'll realize this its stupid being with me but I can't stop wanting to spend the rest of my life with you… to one day come home from work and first thing to do is make love to you in the kitchen before having dinner. I can't help but fall for you a little more and more everyday…" he sighed in relief. Damn he was good with words.

I felt tears just burst out of my eyes and I tried my best to hide them but I just couldn't.

"Yes!"

"Yes, wha…Oh…" I heard him whisper as realization crossed him, he smiled and said

"Don't worry babe, this is just the orgasms talking…" he grinned.

"You sure do know how to ruin a moment!" I said slapping him again.

"You were serious?"

"No… I was playing hide and seek, can't you see? OF COURSE I WAS you idiot!"

"I still think you're crazy you know…"

"Don't worry I still think you're an idiot but everybody thinks you're smart… people are just so blind!"

He laughs and kisses me passionately.

"I love you Justin and someday we will get married."

"I sure hope so…" he hugs me and rests his face over mine, I can't explain but this closeness, this feeling is so much better than any other, this intimacy with the person you love makes everything better, I couldn't help but feel even more protected by him. Now I'm a 100% certain that I love my older brother and that he is the one for me. God help us. I giggled to my self and wrapped myself with his arms with I smile on my face.

He never left me, he wasn't so hard anymore but I could still feel him pulsing inside of me, and with that feeling of pleasure, fulfillment and happiness we slept. Just to wake up a little later with him making love to me again, but that's another story.