ive been alive for 13 years.. never have i gotten hurt enough to go to the hospital... i always wanted to know how... then i relized.. it was them... many times i should have died.. but didn't... i heal quicker then most... because of them. i never knew they where there but they where.
i saw my brother Logan, he was playing a video game in his room. i climed up on his overdramaticly sized bed. "whatcha playing, bubby?" i ask. "teen Titans" Logan said. "HUH! can i play?" i ask. "no your too young, but you can watch" he says. "not fair.. your 6 and im two years younger that's not fair... imma go now." i said before jumping off the bed.. i could cetch my self right though... my head almost slammed into the bed.. but something cought me.. but nothing was there its like i was flying... like i was passesed. my brother didn't see though.. i left his room and went to mine. then i heard a voice it sounded like she was so cool. i started talking to her... she was part of me! he name is ray the demon $layer.
afetr meeting her other spoke to me there was a puppet bamed Ace, a shadow, a cup girl named strawberry tea, a clown named frowny, a robot named robot ray, a zobie ray, a girl named winter warfstach, a girl named wild card, the sayer, max, Puppet, the innocent and old timer. they are all so cool.. apparently i have split personalities.
im trying to fo the monkey bars.. but then i slip... i scrape my knee. my friends run towards me. they erge me to tell the teacher.. so i did. i Walk with my friends Samantha and Gwendolyn to the nurses office. as we get there the nurse grabs the material she needs and rappes my knee when shes done we go back out side.
wen recess is over we go back to class. the bandages where itchy so I undid them. the gient scrape was gone. i was amazed. today was weird it was my 9th birthday and i got hurt! but it healed by ace so.. whatever..
it was the second week of sixth grade and im in the gym. i make a new friend by trying to help her tie her hair.. it fails misserably... her name is Rebecca, Rebecca Sally. shes super nice... when she wants to be... she tought me what lgbtq was... and what depression was.. we are good friends... when i messed up on her hair i apologized and fixed it.. but there where kids behind us snickering. something happened when they did that. they made fun of me mocking me.. fear a rose inside fo me... winter took control... "i don't care what you think, i tried my best!!!" winter said in fear and anger. rebacca sat there stunned...
its 7th grade so far i have Rebecca, gwen, sam (Nubnub),sammy, Logan h, tori, Maddie, ellianah, nijere, hannah, maddison, javi, kyle, kat (kitkat), and mikey as my friends.
my hearts been broken numerous tiems by logan and nubnub, and all those times frowny showed me carnival tricks to stop me from crying...
on April 15 of 7th grade i read septiplier fanfictions till 4:30 am... on 16th had an animal thing threw the ending of 1st period through aep until 10 minutes of second period. that whole time i had my head infront of Maddie while she had her srm on my back and was playing with my hair.. i had my eyes closed trying to go to sleep.. but people kept asking if we where dateing strawberry tea held me back from pointing my middle finger at them.
i almost killed some one with an ax today that was from the erge of robot ray... but shadow stopped me.
every day i hear a voice yelling thngs.. bad things... "YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT YOUR STUPID YOUR DEPRESSION IS HOLDING YOU BACK YOU CANT DRAW YOUR MOMS NEVER COMING BACK YOU SAW HER THANKSGIVING ITS FEBRUARY NOW YOU HAVE BAD GRADES GO AND KILL YOUR SELF YOULL NEVER BE AS SMART AS YOUR FRIENDS YOU DON'T DO ANY WORK YOU CRY IN CLASS AND ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS YOUR SELF JUST GO INTO THE KITCHEN AND GRAB A KNIFE NAD STAB YOUR SELF YOU HAVE NO TALLENT ALL IT IS IS FALIURE YOUR IGNORANCE IS SO BIG YOU CANT FIND YOUR HAPPYNESS YOUR LOOSING GRIP IF YOUR FRIENDS AND YOU CANT EVEN FINISH READING A BOOK YOU LOST YOUR STREAK OF GOOD GRADE AND ARE JUST SITTING THERE CRYING YOU ARE A TOTAL FAILURE JUST LOCK YOURSELF IN YOUR ROOM PUT YOUR HANDS AROUND YOUR THROUGHT AND SQUEEZE AND KEEP DOING THAT EVEN IF YOU CANT BREATH JUST GO DIE CUZ YOU HAVE NO PURPOSE IN THIS WORLD YOU LONLEY PIECE OF CRAP" the voice says.. the voice is a new ego.. the sociopath..
the sayer found out that strawberry tea and ace are dateing.. wich is weird since there basically me... but whatever it not the first... rtds and shadow are dating wich makes since because rtds is a demon Slayer and demon long story.
whenever i go to the gsa (gay straight alliance) club at school max always gags because hes not gay.. hes not trans but has a body type of a 7 year old girl. but every one else loves the club.. theres a saying "whats said in the club stays in the club" wich is good because most people in the club (everyone EXCEPT the "normal" ones that are strate and or stay there original gender) but all the others except me for having split personalities and alter egos.
the inacent is the only thing that keeps me from getting i trouble.. but she gets tricked by shadow alot... shadow is actually her shadow. (long story) but because if that it makes me gullible..
its my 14th birthday im getting all these memories from the egos pasts. one is when rtds and shadow meet...
q to ray the demon slayers memory*
(i saw it... it came running towards me... pinned me against the wall. the shadow... one of my newest demons to study. the shadow was... a shadow... but human bodie shape... as i was pinned against the wall the shadow held my face... its... smile... invaded my mind.. all i could see was the smile. the shadow pulled my face close to its but still pinning me to the wall. its lips touched mine... at that moment it felt like we new each other for years. ive never felt that way before.. i never really trusted any one... but i felt something in this one.
she put her face into the creaves of my neck and wispered everything about herself... i was falling in Love seconds after... her hands around my hips... i was no longer pinned... my hands went from grabbing the top of her red suspenders slowly slideing to the bottom my hands now resting on her hips. we swayed and shifted side to side... until.. we both got serious... i pulled her hips to mine... most people say she doesn't have eyes only a develish smile... but i saw her eyes Beautiful, looked like a forrest surrounded by and ocean.. her eyes where special... loveing... as i stared she statted traceing the tringle around my eye with her fanger..
shes the only thing that stops him from taking full control... i made dumb decisions as a child... heck i only just turned 20... my family was cristion... i wasnt... i didn't believe in god.. i believed in Satin. i got a tatoo on both arms of the illuminuaty simbal and a triangle around my right eye. on my for head i have an anti crist symbol. and one on each palm. my eye was cut out and i got a fake one... i got hated by most once i told them i was gay... i don't like the mastakes ive made... satin... he... pursuaded me into... doing things... things... things i didn't want to do... i hunt demons yet i am one... and i love one)
q to frowny and wild cards child hood together*
"im wild card" "and im frowny" "and together where frowny card")
those are the only memories i got...
ok this was only the beginning slot im gunna call it... i guess... ehhhhhhhhhh...
