Disclaimer: I do not own Buffy: the Vampire Slayer for my name is not Joss Whedon. But I will say that I do like that funny little monster that comes on after the credits that goes "grr…arrgh" it makes me laugh. I neither own the song You're Not Alone by Saosin, Saosin owns that.
Note: I also do not own that funny little monster
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She sits at her window sill, staring up at the night sky, thinking of everything and nothing at all. With all the things she did in the past to push her away, she failed miserably. The first time she laid her eyes on the beautiful blonde she grew a heartbeat. Not knowing what this was or where it came from she pushed it away.
It's been five years since the fall of Sunnydale; it's been five years since she hadn't seen her.
Faith moves away from the window to her radio, turned it on to one the of the rock stations that LA is famous for, and then moves to her bed. The song that was playing when she turned it on had moved on to a new one, one she didn't know. It had a good rhythm and grabbed her attention when it came on.
It's just like him
To wander off in the Evergreen Park
Slowly searching for any sign
Of the ones he used to love…
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left…)
And this time I think you'll know…
"Kinda reminds me of Angel," she said laying flat on her back staring up to the ceiling. Angel, now there's a name Faith could live without ever saying again in her life. Even though Angel helped her on the right path, he was the one to throw her off it in the first place. 'No, that's not true, I did that very well by myself' she thought, listening to the song.
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one…
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know…
At this point there are tears, when she promised she would never cry for the older girl again. She guesses that just another promise she'll have to break. She then gets up to turn off the radio and sits down at her desk to write a letter to the one she loves who could never love her in return.
Dear B,
Hey I know it's been a while (a very long while) since we've talked much less seen each other and I know the last time you were here you practically threatened my life if I said this, but I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I don't expect you to ever accept me or my useless apology, but I wanted you to know. I also wanted you to know that when you were here, Angel may have pushed me to redemption but you were the one to help me. Because you were the one to suggest prison in the first place. I wanted you to know that everything I did, I did because of you, girlfriend. Don't get me wrong I'm not blaming you for anything I'm just stating fact. The good (little there was) I definitely did because of you. The bad, once again I did because of you not because you pushed me to it, but because I wanted you to feel some sort of passion for me. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I love you and I just wanted you to know.
Faith L.
Faith then sealed the letter, addressed it, stamped it, and sends it on its way to Buffy's mailbox. It'll probably take awhile considering Buffy lives across the pond. "But I hope she just gets it," she said to herself. She then gets up and goes back to her bed and hopes maybe she'll somehow manage to actually sleep for once.
