The End :)

Starts off with a line from Ste and then from Brendan.

I don't know why I didn't move on sooner. It's been six years without him and now I'm finally ready to get my life back.

I don't know why I thought I could live without him. It's been six long years, but now I'm finally free to get him back.

Leaving this place is hard, it holds so many memories, but I can't live in his shadow anymore. I need a fresh start, a new beginning.

Leaving this prison is easy, I know where I'm going, I'm coming straight back to him. This will be a fresh start, a new beginning.

I've thought of him every day for the last six years. I've lived in hope that he would want to see me or that he'd return one day.

I've thought of nothing but him for the last six years. I've denied myself his love for long enough, it's time to get it all back.

He promised to love me, he promised that everything would be different and for a while it was. I've never stopped loving him.

I promised him so much and I failed him every time, but I won't fail him now and I'll make sure I never fail him again.

I thought that he would miss me enough to let me visit him; I thought he'd go insane without me. I guess I was wrong.

I should have let him visit me; I've missed him so much that at times it nearly drove me mad. I thought it was for the best, I was wrong.

I know things didn't work out for us, but I'd do it all again. I know at times things were tough, but I wouldn't change a thing.

I can't wait to see his face, to kiss those kissable lips of his. I hope my heart can take it, I hope he'll still have me.

Maybe I should have written to him one last time. I would have liked to have said goodbye, but then what would he care.

Maybe I should have written to him, let him know that I'm coming home. But that would only ruin things and I want to surprise him.

I wonder if I'll ever really get over him, I wonder if I'll ever love another. I know that no one will ever make me feel the way he did.

What if he doesn't want me, what if he has met someone else? I guess that is a chance I've got to take. I'm never gonna give up on him.

I don't know what the future has in store for me, but I know it's a future without him and I think I'm ready to accept that now.

I don't know what the future has in store for me, but I hope it's a future with him. I'll never settle for anyone else anyway.

I can't help but think about what might have been. He's been my world for the longest time; I suppose I'm scared to let him go.

I can't wait to love him again, he's been my everything for so long and when he lets me in again, I swear I'm never letting him go.

I don't know how to live without him, even though it's been so long since I've actually seen him. He's been here still though, in my mind and heart.

My heart only beats for him; he's been with me every day in this hell whole. I can make this work again; he will always have my heart no matter what.

I take one last look around the flat, memories flashing before my eyes. I can see him like he's really here and my heart aches for him once more.

I take one last look around my cell, memories flashing before my eyes. Waking in the middle of the night and screaming his name.

I hear a beep outside, the taxi's early. It doesn't matter though there is nothing keeping me here anymore. I take a deep breath and leave the flat.

It's time to go; one of the guards was good enough to call me a taxi and bung me some money. I step outside and take a deep breath. Freedom tastes so good.

I approach the taxi and get in. I don't look back, if I look back now I don't think I'll ever go. I've been holding on to him for so long that I've forgotten how to be alone.

My taxi is waiting and I almost run to it. I can't wait to be with him again, it's been far too long. I'll never leave his side this time, I've hated being alone.

There's one more place I want to see before I go...the club, maybe I can say goodbye after all. I get outside of the taxi and mouth the words "Goodbye Bren."

I tell the driver to hurry, that I'll give him a big tip if he gets home quickly. He does and before I know it I'm standing outside the dingy council flat…my home.

I feel the tears fall because we almost had everything. I know my life would have been so good with him, but like he said, in another life.

I feel the tears fall as I knock on the door, I'm so happy I feel like I could burst. He's not in, but I let myself in, I'm sure he won't mind me waiting.

I'll always love him that I'm certain of, but I have to live my life. I have to at least try. This time there is no going back.

I take a look around, it feels different. I notice that all his stuff has gone. I start to panic as I search every part of the flat.

I wish things were different, but I've been waiting on my own too long. I know it's really over now. I know we have no chances left.

He's gone, there is nothing left here to remind me. He waited on his own too long didn't he? We have no chances left.

I can't believe that this is the end.

I'll never let this be the end.

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