Disclaimer: Plot mine. FFVII, not mine, Yaoi Internet SephCloud Pictures... MIINNEE!

Note to you, I haven't finished the game. I'm on Disc 2.


After all this time:

I think I'm feeling guilty... over what I did. People tell me I did the right thing, that I was saving people... no the entire world from destruction. Yet... I just can't let it go. I feel like I've been ripped open and spat on.

Like some sort of broken puppe--toy.

I see Tifa looking at me in concern; I simply smile and nod my head, telling her I'm okay. She doesn't believe me, I know. But I still can't help but lie to people when they ask me; after all I know they're responses by heart. Like Tifa... I can always tell what she's going to say.

For example:

Hey Cloud
Hn...
Are... you alright?
Yeah Tifa... Of course I am.

Then she would practically grindher bottom lipbetween her teeth, her gaze flickering from me to the floor and back again constantly.

I look over to see Yuffie curled up in her seat, Vincent's 'cloak' over her as she shivered uncontrollably. It was a bit of a shock to all of us when Vincent had come over unhooked his cloak and slung it over her. But it shocked no one more than Yuffie, but after a few seconds she simply smiled and clutched it to her, and the refused to let the man walk away from her.

It was a year after we murdered—killed, Sephiroth.

As we head in the direction I stand and walk outside, the others slowly following me. As I lean over the railing, and look down on the place were it all ended, I sigh. I'm not surprised to find my thoughts plaguing me once more. They always plague me. They scream at me relentlessly, howling their fury in my head so loud I get headaches. Mostly it's questions, or shouted exclamations of how I could do it.

But mostly it was this...

'What has become of me after all this time?'
'What am I doing with my life?'
'Why... do I feel so horrible?'

As I look down on the place where my heart died, and my soul shattered, I only sigh as a final thought comes to me.

'It's ironic isn't it, Seph? That after all this time, you still haunt me. After all this time I still wonder about how I could have done it differently. But most of all... After all this time... I wonder... was I the real monster?'


R&R please...

Goddess Bless,

The Dark Huntress Cara