AN: I'm going to be honest here. The past few days, or weeks have been pretty rough on my psyche. And, last night was probably one of the worst nights I have personally had in a long long time. I am normally a very happy go lucky person, but even those people fall at times. I needed something today, something I still don't know what it is. And, this was the only thing I can think of.

This is two versions of a story that shows two people madly in love with each other but never taking the chance. Penelope gets a song and so does Derek.

This is something I have never done before so let's experiment together.

-Polhop


Penelope Garcia- "Clarity" by Zedd feat. Foxes

Penelope Garcia glanced around her office checking to make sure everything was turned off. It'd been a long day and the only thing she wanted to do was go home and crash. Unfortunately, that wasn't in the cards for her, once again.

She sighed as she felt the heaviness within her body. Each day now seemed to be taking more of a toll on her.

At this stage in her life, she had wanted so much more. She loved her job, and the people she worked with, but if she were being honest with herself, this wasn't where she wanted to be.

No. This wasn't it… She wanted a more. She had dreams. Dreams like having her own family, her own children… a husband.

Looking at her monitor, her eyes moved to the framed photo, as they did every time she looked that way. Putting her bag at her feet, she took the few steps to the frame.

There was once a time in her life she had thought she could move on. Find someone that would help her achieve those dreams. But those days were long gone.

Picking up the frame, she let her finger caress the photograph. Closing her eyes, she fought back the pain she was feeling. Why couldn't she move on, lord knows she had tried countless times? But, every time always ended the same. Her heart belonged to only one man, and that man had love for her, but not the love she needed.

Opening her eyes, she looked down at the photograph. Derek staring back at her.

You are the piece of me I wish I didn't need, she thought as she felt her heart squeeze. In the beginning, it was only a friendship. A fun, flirty friendship, but with time it grew to more. At least on her side.

She'd let people's ideas of her and Derek being the perfect couple cloud her judgement on reality. Her coworkers and friends would point out to her his behavior. His possessiveness, his touches, the love in his eyes.

She'd catch him staring at her when he thought no one was looking… but, she was always looking.

Soon, however, she realized that love was not the same love she had for him. She tried to box up her feelings for Derek. She'd put distance between them, try and date other people but it never worked. So instead she gave up trying. She'd rather live knowing she'd never be truly happy than be in a relationship when she could never give her whole heart.

Why are you my remedy? she thought as she looked upon the photo. Derek was the only person in the world that could fix anything that she was feeling. Some days she'd walk into the office, and within seconds he'd be at her office door, locking them in until she told him why she was upset. Most people wouldn't even have caught onto her slight change in behavior, but Derek. No, he knew her better than she knew herself.

Why are you my clarity?

Even on the darkest of cases, he'd always bring a sense of clarity to her. That was until his clarity started to drown her. I drown in you.

When you love someone so much it hurts to breath, you know deep down that it is time for some sort of change. If you pull, then I'll push too deep and I'll fall back into you. Penelope wiped a stray tear away that had escaped.

Chasing relentlessly, I still fight and I don't know why. That was a lie. Penelope knew the exact reason why she still fought. And, it was the same reason, she wouldn't leave the BAU, or try to start to date. She would rather be near him and not have him, than be without him.

In life, sometimes you are given the chance to meet your soulmate. But unfortunately, sometimes, life messes up. Sometimes, life gives your other half to the wrong person. And even if that other person will never love you the way you need them to, you can't walk away from your other half.

As she let her finger tips lightly touch the photograph she felt them start to tremble. You are the piece of me, I wish I didn't need.

She heard his footsteps before she heard his voice. "Baby Girl, you ready to go? The teams already heading to the bar."

The anguish she felt washed over her, but she only allowed it for a brief second. Taking a cleansing breath, she turned to him with a smile on her face. "You bet cha, hot stuff."

She quickly placed the frame back in its proper place, making sure to block what she was doing with her body.

Turning to face him once again she did her best to hide her emotions. She searched his face. Why are you my remedy? Shaking her head, she grasped for Derek's outreached hand and took a hold of it. She'd rather have unrequited love than not have him at all. She looked to his smiling face, as he looked down at her. A wash of love overtook her before turning to sorrow. I love you, Derek Morgan, and even if you never love me too, you will always be my clarity.


AN: Like I said, this is something I needed and am trying. Derek's song is next. Let me know what you think of this experiment.