This is based off of the song Carrie Underwood Starts With Goodbye.

I have no clue why I'm so good at writing fics that involve Alec, but I am. *Gillian Pout*

I was sittin on my doorstep

i hung up the phone and it fell out of my hands

but i knew i had to do it

and he wouldn't understand

so hard to see my self without him

i felt a piece of my heart break

but when you're standin at a cross road

there's a choice you gotta make

i guess it's gonna have to hurt

i guess I'm gonna have to cry

and let go of some things i'd love

to get to the other side

i guess it's break me down

like fallin' when you try to fly

it's sad but sometimes movin' on with the rest of your life

starts with goodbye

She sat on the doorstep,

feeling her wedding ring drag her hand down like a leaden weight.

She didn't know how she would find the strength to tell him.

To look deep into the blue eyes that had been

her heaven only a short time ago, and say that one word that

would change her life forever.

She looked up sharply as the sound of a car pulling into the

driveway reached her ears.

"Hey, honey." He said, leaning in and pecking her on the cheek.

She searched his eyes for any sign of guilt. Hot anger pulsed through her.

He could at least be a little guilty!

Her anger faded as quickly as it had come, to be replaced with despair.

"Alec." She said his name softly, placing a delicate hand on his shoulder.

Her eyes filled with pain when he flinched away.

"What is it?" He growled, his good mood gone.

"We need to talk."

"Well make it quick, I need to be back at work in twenty minutes."

She took a deep breath, bracng herself for what she was about to do.

"I want a divorce."

The words came out as nearly a whisper, but still rang with conviction.

"W-What?" He asked, blinking.

"I want a divorce." She said, louder this time.

She winced as pain tore through his eyes. She was hurting him.

"W-why?"

"You know why, Alec. Besides, it's what you want."

"Gillian, I-"

"Don't try to fix things Alec, please. Don't hurt me with more empty promises."

That had been cruel, she saw it in the way his gaze trembled.

"It's not what I want." He said weakly.

"Yes it is. Alec, when was the last time you said you loved me? Or held me while I cried myself to sleep? Yes. I still do that, every night.

But why would you notice? You're never home."

"I-I do love you."

"But not in the same way. We'll always love each other, that will never change. But we have to move on."

He took a step closer to her.

"Gillian."

She shook her head.

"Alec. Do you really want to be miserable for the rest of our lives? We'll never be the same as before we lost Sophie."

"But I can't live without you."

"You'll manage. You barely see me anyway." She said, trying to laugh through her tears.

She held the side of his face in one pale hand.

"I'm going to miss you." He whispered.

She leaned in and kissed him passionatly, tears streaming freely down her face.

"Goodbye." She whispered.

Okay, I have a confession to make. I was re-reading this, and I cried!

I know I cry alot when I read sad fics, but never ones about Gillian and Alec!

Anywho, I think it's pretty awesome, if I do say so myself.

I didn't mean to sound conceded or nofing,

it's just not that often that I get to be proud of my cute little self XD.

Please read and review! They make Kelli happy! Luv ya'll to bunches, Kelli3