Maybe I just wasn't cut out to be a mother

Hearing those shrills

Those mournful cries - most definitely not human

You are my son

But seeing this

Hearing this

Am I justified in calling you such?

I can't shred this guilt inside of me

Knowing that I created you

A terrible being

A…

A monster

But then why do I still love you?

Why must these feelings torment me so?

I watch you be taken away

And scream

Endless thoughts filling my head

Rage

Relief

Anger

Serenity

Hate

Love

Wondering if I was ever fit

To be a mother

Your mother