Praise for My Life as a Teenage Mom
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My Life as a Teenage Mom
Written by Sitting in the Silence
Summary:
I got pregnant when I was 13 years old. You probably think that I'm a slut, but no; someone took advantage of me. From then on, I started hating boys. Well, except for my son. I love him so much.
Chapter 1 - Farewell
5 years ago.
Hmm… Hmmhmm… hmm… I silently hummed this unfamiliar tune as I walked my way towards my classroom. The sun had just began its climb when students of Alice Academy will come crowding the school's lobby – hanging out and chatting, waiting for the school bell to ring. But before it could, I had to make sure that I was out of that crowded place because, well, let's just say that I'm clumsy and I get into trouble and could cause me to be late.
It's a habit, actually. I used to run for my morning classes back then because I was always late, then I would bump myself into someone and suddenly an argument would blow up. I laughed at the memory. When I entered middle school, I started this weird routine of me going into the room even before the go signal. Because of that, I haven't been getting any detentions anymore. Yes, I'm happy because of that simple fact. Well, detention is hell. And, it consumes the time that I have for my friends.
I kept walking through the hallway, keeping my pace slow as I played with my shadow now and then, playfully pretending that I'm a giant taking huge and loud steps. Then I would stare outside the window, trying to take a glimpse of the sun but it wouldn't let me, it'd just cruelly hurt my eyes.
"Mikan!" I stopped when I heard my name. I looked around to see my sempai standing inches away from me.
"Ohayo Zero-sempai." I greeted as I waved at him. He then ran to me and crouched when he managed to come near me. He panted lightly as he straightened himself and raked his silver hair.
"Ohayo." He greeted with a smile. His gray eyes stared at me calmly. Then he let out a sigh.
My smile slowly vanished as well. Zero Daiki has been my friend ever since I stepped foot into this Academy, and the thought of him leaving made me sad. Yes, Zero-sempai's leaving for Paris tomorrow. His grandmother, whose the only family he has, had decided to take him there so that they could spend some quality time together and also for him to have a bright future in Art.
Zero-sempai loves to draw and I can tell you this, he is a good artist. During my first week here in the Academy, he sketched me wearing a beautiful dress and a hat, a warm smile was etched on my face as I greeted the summer breeze. I treasured that picture and it was framed up on my study table at home. I smiled as I remembered the memories we had. He'd always been so good to me, if it weren't for him, I would've probably gone mad.
I tried to hide the sadness that was welling up on me and decided to smile for him, "Paris isn't that bad sempai. Cheer up!" I said as I playfully punched his shoulder.
He was surprised at my sudden comment, he probably thought that I've forgotten the fact that he'd be leaving.
"Well, I guess so." He scoffed, "Paris is every artist's dream."
Silence.
After his statement, I didn't know what else to say, and so did he. We kept quiet as I playfully moved my foot in different, awkward, ways and I stared at it as I did so.
"Mikan," He started again, "There's going to be a Farewell Party for me later after school," he then let out a light chuckle, "It's Tsubasa's doings. So I thought: why not, right? And I'm inviting you to come, before Tsubasa – or the others – does."
I let out a giggle then I nodded, "Mm. I'll go. We'll have a blast!" I said as I held my fist up high then the bell suddenly rang. I almost jumped when I first heard it, it was so alarming. Then Zero-sempai stared at me as he chuckled. "Cute," I heard him say.
"Eh?" was all I could manage to ask out.
He shook his head, "Nothing." He then rubbed my head, causing my ponytailed hair to be messy. "See ya later, kiddo." At that, he walked away, with hands in his pockets.
I just smiled at his retreating figure. I pulled the ponytail and did my hair again. Oh well, I needed to get going before I get into crazy situations.
There's still a lot of time before the teacher will arrive at the classroom, thus giving more time for students to continue chatting or finish a neglected homework. As for me and my friends, we chat.
"Mikan, you should stop coming here early. Join us in the lobby." Anna pleaded as her cousin Nonoko nodded.
I laughed at them, "It's so noisy there, besides I'm doing this for the better."
"Idiot." I heard my best friend, Hotaru Imai, mutter. "You shouldn't walk around the Academy alone." The concern on her voice was skillfully concealed by her stoic expression.
"What could possibly go wrong here in the morning?" I asked as I smiled at my bestie in the whole world.
She just shrugged at this and made her way to her desk when a blonde came running through the door towards our way.
"Did you know?" Ruka gushed out, "Zero-sempai will be holding a Farewell party later, after school."
"Really?" Anna and Nonoko said in unison.
"Well, it's not that surprising, he is leaving after all." Yuu, our class president, commented.
I looked away when I heard him say the word leaving. It troubled me whenever I think of someone very close to me, leaving. Then I saw Hotaru walking her way back to us, "You knew something about this?"
I nodded at her, "I was invited by him earlier. Why?"
She didn't answer and it made me nervous. My best friend was never fond of my relationship with Zero-sempai; she didn't want us to be . . . friends. She told me straightforward that she didn't like the guy and I laughed at that. I told her that he's nice and friendly but she just shrugged at me. Now why is that? I don't know. All she told me is that she doesn't like him. But I still continued being friends with him, and Hotaru knew that she's in no place to drag me into being an anti-social. So, she just let us be. But once in a while, you'll see her unique way of guarding us whenever Zero and I were together. It's giggle-worthy and I found it very sweet, it's seldom to see Hotaru so obviously concern about things. I mean, she already has that poker face when we we're just kids, she was very mature back then. While I cried a lot she, on the other hand, would tell me to stop because I looked ugly. And yes, that made me stop.
"Are we invited too?" Anna asked, causing me to break free into my own trance.
"I'm sure you guys are. Let's just wait until we see them at break time." I said as I gave them a warm smile and they all happily grinned at this whilst Hotaru smirked in disbelief.
Well, Zero-sempai used to randomly treat me and my friends whenever he's free. And yes, even Hotaru came along during those days, because Zero-sempai knew her weakness: crabs. And no, I didn't tell him that. He had his ways and I'm giving him credit for that.
Soon, Jinno-sensei came in wearing the sour mien he wore everyday. He then checked the attendance and started writing a bunch of numbers and letters on the board. Being in middle school is fun, really. But the lessons are hard too, especially Math. I grimaced, I hate Math.
I idly swirled my pen around my thumb. I love pen spinning; it relaxes my thoughts and all. I pretended that I was paying attention on his lessons and before I knew it, the bell rang.
Jin-jin then gave us a bunch of Math homework and told us to finish it all by tomorrow. Is he serious? I chuckled inwardly to myself, of course he is. Next, our class adviser came, Narumi-sensei. I love him, because . . .
"Free time." He announced as the class cheered with joy. I cheered along with them, trust me, I was the loudest. Then I felt the heavy weight on my eyelids so I decided to use the free time to sleep.
"Mikan." A voice said as I felt someone shake me. "Wake up. It's break time."
I straightened myself as I stretched my arms and I let out a yawn. I stood up immediately, "Let's eat!" I exclaimed and this made me and my friends laugh.
When we got into the school's cafeteria, Zero-sempai, Tsubasa-sempai and the others were there. They waved at us, signaling us to come and sit at the huge table they have reserved. My friends and I happily obliged as we ran to them, except for Hotaru and the boys who kept walking.
Then as predicted, all my friends got invited to the farewell party and they we're clearly happy – at least Anna and Nonoko was. I bet Hotaru did it for the food – I glanced at her and smiled – and of course, me. Ruka and Yuu looked happy as well.
After that, school passed like a blur. I wasn't feeling it earlier but the excitement was building up as time passed by. I was excited with just imagining the fun that could happen later at the party. The foods, oh holy goody. But then again, why was the party being held? Right, because a friend of mine was leaving.
We all grabbed our bags and ran down stairs – giggling and laughing like morons – when the final bell rang. The rendezvous was in front of the academy's enormous gates. We hurriedly pushed ourselves there and when we finally got there, we all walked to our supposed destination.
It turned out that Zero-sempai reserved a whole restaurant just for us. We were approximately 50 people, I think. His classmates and friends got here first – except for Tsubasa, Misaki and Zero himself, who waited and walked with us.
Our jaws hung open as we scrutinized the high class restaurant. It looked so classy and we couldn't help but think about the after picture of this place. Imagining that soon, the tables and chairs would be in a complete mess and the foods would get scattered all over.
And it did happen.
The farewell party was so alive and noisy, due to the countless number of boys. And they were all drinking, oh the smell, eeck. My friends and I would grimace once in a while because of the alcohol's scent. Like, hello, there are kids here. Pfft.
But we're still here because of the awesome foods (Hotaru's reason) and simply because we don't want to make Zero-sempai feel that we left him.
Soon, Hotaru's cellphone received a message from her mother, telling her to come home already since it's already quarter to ten. Her mother even called her and that's Hotaru's cue. Once her mom calls, she can't do anything but oblige. She told me that I should come with her but I declined and said that I would be fine and I want to be here until sempai's party is over. She insisted but I just smiled and told her to just go, then her phone rang again and she frowned at this, soon she walked out of the restaurant.
The other girls left too – except me. Ruka and Yuu stayed as well, lucky guys, they don't have curfews. As for me, well I don't have a cellphone so there's no way my parents can know about my whereabouts. But I sent them a message earlier (using Hotaru's phone) telling them that I'd be with Hotaru until midnight, doing a project. I know it's a lie but it's a white one, I mean, I just don't want them to worry over nothing.
Eleven o'clock and the party ended, people would leave once they had said their goodbyes to Zero-sempai. When everyone was gone, I stayed with Zero-sempai and I told him that I'll walk with him. We both live in the same neighborhood and his house was a few yards away from mine.
He said okay and I smiled at him. I just wanted to have a conversation with my best sempai before we officially part ways.
We were talking about his plans once he reaches Paris. I asked if there were places he would immediately visit and his first answer was the Eiffel Tower. When we reached his house, he invited me in for a cup of hot chocolate but I declined thinking that it's already late. But he insisted and said that my house was just right there and that I could reach it in five seconds if I run like hell. I laughed at this and thought that a hot choco is nice. So, I went inside with a smile on my face.
My sleep was disturbed by a sudden pain in my head and because of the brightness that had touched my face. I fidgeted on the bed and stretched my arms. I yawned as I tried to open my eyes. I also touched my head trying to lessen the annoying pain. As my eyes opened, I began to notice that this wasn't my room and my eyes widened in surprise as soon as I realized that I was right.
My broad amber eyes darted from here to there, wall to wall, furniture to furniture and floor to clothes. Wait, what? My eyes landed on the pile of clothes peacefully resting on the carpeted floor. I let out a gasp, they were my clothes!
I then pulled the blanket that was wrapped around me and peeked in and oh hell, I'm naked. I gasp again and grunted when I felt my head having another strange pain.
Then my eyes diverted to the bedside table where a note, with my name on it, was placed neatly on the top. I cautiously grabbed it and read:
I'm so sorry, Mikan.
When I read those four simple words, tears started to form in my eyes. It all came back to me, I remembered what happened and all I could think about right now is why?
Why sempai?
Why did you do that to me?
Why me?
I trusted you and you took advantage of me.
Why sempai?
What did I do to you for me to be treated that way?
You were my friend.
Same questions ran over and over again in my mind and as they did so, I couldn't help but cry more. The note rested on my lap as I drench it with my unstoppable tears. I tried to cry as quite as I can but as seconds pass by, I just couldn't help myself and I sobbed more and more. My palms covered my face as I let out those noisy wails of mine, soaking it with wet salty tears in the progress.
Why . . . ?
Edited~ August 18, 2013
A/N: A new story by me! YEAH! HAHAH. I must be crazy for doing this, I mean, I still have lots of fanfics to update but I can't help it! Oh well. This is my goodbye fanfic! :( I'll surely miss FFN. Waah. I feel sad. It's just that, school is starting and I'm NOT ALLOWED to use the awesome internet! BUT – BUT I promise I'll try to update a fanfic of mine every weekend. So yeah, please review awesome people. It might be a while before I'll reply to them but I WILL, promise. Just wait.
And while I'm gone, kindly check out my other fanfics too. ;) A chapter a day keeps the bad vibe away. HAHA. :) And review too! THANKS.
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