I re-uploaded. Had to fix a couple things. Chapter 2 will be up shortly.

I don't own Castle but I wish I did.

Secrets and Regrets

Beckett was pissed. He had no right to act this way. All of a sudden even. She had no idea what had gotten into him, flaunting this blonde bimbo in front of her, what was her name? Oh, yeah. Jacinda.

She stormed into her apartment seething with anger. She slammed the door shut, shed her coat, and headed to the fridge to see if there was anything worth eating. Looking in the vast nothingness of her fridge she mumbled under her breath "Screw it." She then walked over to her couched and plopped down on it with more force than necessary.

After sitting for a while she decided to turn on the radio. Tuning to a random station she hadn't ever heard before a song came on that struck a little too close to home. The DJ called it "Secrets and Regrets"

As the song started out with some bass and guitar she thought about the week. As the song then progressed, listening to the singer's words she felt something in her. Not quite sure what it was the continued to listen.

No matter how hard you try to

You can't make the clock rewind to

The moment you lied to yourself

It never really mattered how they felt

Hearing those words, struck a chord in her. She tried to push it all down and not let it affect her, but the following words seemed so powerful.

Your secrets and regrets

Are keeping you from going very far

And you can't let all this get you down

And keep you living in the dark

Cause all you're looking for is love,

You're living in the dark,

You just can't get enough

Your secrets and regrets

Beckett began to think about the last four years, working with Castle. Thing may have gotten off to a rocky start between the two and there was the time when he looked into her mom's case, but they had gotten through all that. What had happened between them to make him act this way? Does he understand that all she needed was time? She thought he did.

You're holding on to all this pain inside you

Can't seem to leave it all behind you

Tomorrow will be today soon

Don't wait until it's too late to move

Was it too late? Had she really screwed up that bad? She decided she needed to do something about it, but was going to listen to the rest of the song first.

Your secrets and regrets

Are keeping you from going very far

And you can't let all this get you down

And keep you living in the dark

Cause all you're looking for is love

You're living in the dark

You just can't get enough

Your secrets and regrets

...

In his apartment Richard Castle was sitting in his office listening to the radio when part of a song caught his attention.

How many times do you need second chances

Not everybody gets another second chance

How many times do you second chances

Not everybody gets another second chance

Second chance

After hearing this he thought about his time with Beckett. She had given him second chance after second chance. Maybe he was over reacting? She did tell him that she was waiting for that wall to break down, but it had been four years! Isn't that enough time to break down a wall or climb it or even build a door? The song then proceeded into the chorus and as Rick listened he couldn't help but feel a little guilty about his behavior the last week.

Your secrets and regrets

Are keeping you from going very far

And you can't let all this get you down

And keep you living in the dark

Cause all you're looking for is love

You're living in the dark

You just can't get enough

Your secrets and regrets

Maybe flaunting Jacinda in front of Beckett was a little low. Did she even know that he knew her secret? Most likely not. It seemed like a heat of the moment kind of thing. Is that how she felt about his confession? He surely hoped not. Even through all this he still loved Kate. He would always love her, whether she was his to love or not. Deciding that he had been a selfish jerk and a child the last few days he decided to go to Kate's place, but after the song. He wanted to hear how it ended.

No more secrets (No regrets)

No more secrets (No regrets)

No living in the dark

No living in the dark

No living in the dark

No living in the dark

...

After hearing the song end Kate decided to go over to Castle's place and confront him on his behavior. She got up grabbed her phone, keys and jacket and walked out the door.