~Poison~

It's funny how one moment, one little thing… one stupid mistake ~ can change everything.

He turned and kissed her. I watched, almost in slow motion, as his lips moved on hers and her eyes widened. It seemed to take eternity before she processed it ~ before I processed it.

Her wine glass shattered to the floor.

My jaw dropped, I could feel it. She pushed him away, and saw me. He saw me too… and laughed.

There was a whispering beside me, and a slam of book.

"Dra… Draco?" I finally managed to say, my voice shaking. I felt the urge to run, to get away from this mess, to leave it all behind…

I whirled around and sprinted down the stone steps to the dormitories. My vision blurred and my heart beating quickly I reached my dorm and ran in, throwing the first thing I could get my hands on.

Anger crashed through me in waves. I threw everything down in my way and fire blazed through my veins. Like poison.

Running to my bedside table I grabbed my diary.

All the memories, the good times, and the worst, all my feelings for Draco and everything was ripped and scrunched up, thrown onto the floor like rubbish.

My hands shaking I began to pull all of the things out of my draw, finally just pushing the whole table over. I breathed heavily for a moment, looking at the huge mess I had created that now surrounded me.

Finally, my mind catching up to me, my eyes filled with tears and I lay down on my bed and sobbed. I couldn't stop. My heart ached and my body trembled uncontrollably. I couldn't stop replaying it in my mind. The way he had leaned in, the way he laughed…

It was a long time before the sobs actually began to disappear, and even longer before I only sniffled.

Daphne is here now.

She sits on my bed, apologizing and eyes glistening with tears almost ready to overflow. She asks me not to hate her. That she's sorry. I tell her to go away, but I'm not mad at her.

It's not her fault… It's his.

Even the thought of him sends me back into sobs, and Daphne puts her hand on my shoulder, her way of trying to comfort me.

I cringe away from her touch; I was raised to let my emotions die within me…

Yet here I am, sobbing into my damp pillow, my face wet and I'm sure my eyes are puffy and red.

I finally gather enough self control to sit up, wiping my face with the back of my hands I turn and look at Daphne. She looks back at me, and I can tell she is on the verge of crying as well.

Finally I manage to speak. My voice hardly audible and I cannot seem to stop my voice and myself from shaking.

"I don't… don't… hate… you, Daph" I say, and she wipes her eyes before tears can fall.

She shakes her head "I…I didn't" she says, and I nod. "I know…" I said, my voice cracking "… I saw" and tears spill out again before I can stop them. "I can't…" she says, and I shake my head.

""I saw, I know… It wasn't you… it was…him" I said, cringing and sobbing again.

Daphne cursed under her breath and allowed a few tears to fall, "He just… he doesn't deserve you… that git" she says, and my sobs become louder, and I close my eyes, turning my head away from my best friend.

She once again put a hand on my shoulder, and I shook my head dismissively. Why should she have to sit here all night and listen to me cry about a lost cause? A hopeless case…

I hear her footsteps dimly fade away, and lying my head down on my pillows once more, I let my pain out through tears, trying to wash away the hurt, aching and resentment that consumed my body~