Disclaimer: I do not own FMA, or BBI, for that matter. I wish I did, though. That's one great game...

A/N: My other stories, besides LWL and Comatose, are on hold. I wanted to update them during Spring Break, but so many things came up, and I wasn't in a writing mood. Also, so many other ideas kept popping in my head. Malchik Gay only has a chapter or so left, so I will try to update that one soon. Forgive me.


My Immortal

Love

"I'm so tired of being here...

Suppressed by all my, childish fears..

And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave..

Your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone..."


"...Envy...?" came the quiet, monotone voice of Pride as he sat on usual spot; which was on Envy's bed. He was in the envious sin's room so many times since he was 'born', that it was more like they shared the room. However, for a few days now, the green-haired sin was unusually quiet; so much so, that it frightened Pride. Did he do something wrong? When Envy didn't reply, Pride spoke again: "...Are you...angered...with me?"

Pride watched as Envy's shoulders relaxed as he gave a sigh. "No, I'm not," Envy mumbled, and turned to face the sin. With a frown on his pale lips, Envy walked over to the sin, pushing the boy onto the bed and crawling on top of him. Hungry violet eyes looked over at every inch of the homunculus under him; re-memorizing how every red, wavy line hugged to the every curve of his tanned body; how his golden hair grew during the transformation, and how it was now spread about the bed, forming an almost halo around Pride's head.

And how Pride's dull, golden eyes held no emotion at all...

With a frown, Envy huffed climbed off the sin, sitting at the edge of the bed. Confused, the golden haired frowned, one of the few expressions his face held. He had been sure Envy was going to have his way with him, as he usually did, so why was he suddenly unwanted?

He remained silent, though he stared up at the elder sin. He knew better than to disrupt him when he was moody; he had learned that the hard way in the past. But something was off with Envy for a while know, and he couldn't quite figure it out; then again, Envy was one tough cookie when it came to trying to figure out what was on his mind. Hesitantly, he opened his mouth to say something when he was cut off by Envy.

"He...Looks so much like you...," Envy thought out loud, reminiscing of the one that he missed dearly. The only one he ever loved. Envy was a monster, after all. The thought of love had never crossed his mind until he crossed paths with his younger half-brother. It had started out as amusement, but somehow ended up as an obsession.

Envy didn't't flinch when Pride suddenly crawled into his lap, and Envy automatically wrapped his arms around the smaller sin's waist, already used to him craving attention. "...Who is...like who?"

"..." Envy remained silent, resting his head on Pride's left shoulder as he stared at the wooden floor below the bed.

"...Envy?"

"You are like...someone from the past, that's all..."

"..." Now Pride was silent, and Envy couldn't't help but wonder what the smaller homunculus was thinking. "...Ed...ward...right..?" He asked, but regretted it as he felt Envy unwrap his arms from around his waist. Guiltily, Pride watched the eldest sin get up from the bed and go back to the window.

"...Who told you?" He asked, so quietly that Pride almost didn't't catch it.

"...?"

Envy growled when Pride gave him a blank stare, and ran back over to him, shaking his shoulders. "I said who told you?!"

"N-No on-!" Pride stuttered between the shakes, afraid that Envy was going to beat him again. What did he do wrong? He closed his eyes tightly until the sin stopped shaking him with a shove.

"It was that damned Lust, wasn't't it?! She just can't seem to keep anything a secret!" Envy snapped, beginning to pace back and forth in the fairly large room. Pride watched him silently, holding back a giggle as Envy tried to pull his hair out. He stopped his laughing when Envy shot him a glare.

Edward was still a sore subject for the eldest homunculus. He had made sure that the others didn't mention anything about the Fullmetal Alchemist, even if the golden sin asked. Father made sure they stuck with that, as well. Although it had now been over two years since the death of his half-brother, he felt the same pain of losing him everyday.

After listening to the sin mumble swears Pride had never heard before, he spoke up, "...Envy? What is...love?" His tone was soft, as was his facial expression as Envy slowed his pacing to a stand. It was silent for a long time, but the golden sin didn't't mind. He waited patiently, as he always did.

"Why?"

Tattooed shoulders shrugged lightly. "Just...wondering. Father speaks of it...sometimes, but...I still don't get it..." It was only a small lie; Father wasn't one to bring up love without mentioning how much he loved each of them as his own children. However, that wasn't the love he wanted to know about. The one that showed up frequently in his brief memories.

"...Love only causes pain, Pride," Envy mumbled with a sigh as he crossed the room to sit next to the boy. "It is nothing that you need to worry over."

"But...I want to...know." He gave a small pout from where he laid, even though he knew it was almost useless. As cute as he was, it didn't seem to win over Envy for anything.

The green-haired teen's face softened before he looked away from the shorter sin. He was silent for a while, thinking his response through. Though, he no longer cared about why Pride wanted to know in the first place. "Love is..." he paused, and a small smile appeared on his pale lips as he stared at his feet; wiggling his toes a little. "Love is when you care so much about someone, that it hurts to leave them or see them hurt. When you are up all night thinking about that person, and you can't wait to see them again. Love is someone that makes you happy, and in turn you want nothing more than to make them happy. That you would go out of your orders to protect them, even if it could cost you your life. Someone you know you can't live without..." He trailed off as he felt Pride move around on the bed.

Looking over his shoulder, he notice that Pride had turned away from him, laying on his side. He stared at the boy for a few moments before standing up and walking over to the door, figuring that Pride was ready for his nap, and was no longer going to ask questions. However, as soon his hand hovered over the doorknob, the small sin spoke up:

"You...loved Edward,..didn't you?" It was a question, but both the homunculi knew it was a fact. Countless times, Pride had accidentally stumbled upon Envy while he was having one of his...'episodes', as Sloth would call it.


"..Sloth?"

The motherly homunculus turned to give him a questioning look. "Yes, Dear?"

"...Why does...Envy's eyes bleed...water?"

Sloth smiled sadly, finding Pride's cluelessness adorable and amusing. It was no reason why their new sibling was so liked by the other homunculi. "Pride, you mean crying, right?"

"...Cry..ing?"

"Yes...When you are very sad, like Envy is, and can no longer keep it inside, you cry."

"Why is Envy sad?"

Sloth's face softened, and stared at the boy in silence. He looked so much like Edward, - like the son she had when she was human - yet he had the innocence of a young child, something the Elric never had.

She gestured the teen over to where she sat, and he sat on her lap like a child eager for a story. Gently, he rested his head on her shoulder, trying to find a heartbeat that wasn't there. "He misses someone dearly," she explained, smoothing Pride's hair with her hand gently. "That person went away, and is never coming back...Envy has never gone through heartbreak before, - other than when Hohenheim abandoned him, but that was a long time ago. - so he doesn't know how to deal with a death of a loved one.

So, after inflicting pain on himself proved unsuccessful, and that it would only upset his loved one, Envy decided it would be best to just grief over it. We, on the other hand, call it an 'episode'. He tends to lock himself up during it. It's best if you leave him alone while he's having one; he gets very angry when he is disturbed, and I wouldn't want him hurting you."


Envy's long awaited response brought Pride out of the flashback. "...Yeah. I did," the older sin mumbled, and bit his lower lip as a memory flashed through his mind.

"Did...he love you?"

Violet eyes saddened, and the sin frowned. "'dunno," he muttered, trying to say as little as possible without getting choked up. The last thing he needed was crying in front of the innocent sin; he couldn't show how weak he had become, Pride looked up to him, after all. "...He never told me...Not that I blame him...I never told him how I felt." He cast a glance behind him, narrowing his eyes as he pictured Edward in the bed instead of Pride. "Anyway," he continued, opening the door. "It's time for your nap, I'm sure, so I'll lea-"

"He loved you, too..." Pride said quietly, refusing to look over at the elder sin.

"...?!" Already shocked that the tattooed sin didn't have trouble with his words, Pride's words left Envy speechless - breathless. When he regained his composure, he tried again: "What..? How do you know?"

Pride shrugged lightly, and began playing with his hair, though, his back was still to Envy. "...Memories..."

Envy raised a slim eyebrow. Was this the sort of thing Father had warned him about? That Pride might mention things he wouldn't like to know or be reminded of? Or was the prideful sin lying to him to make him feel better? Whatever it was, Pride's words ripped the hole in Envy's stone heart more than it already was.

Pride told him that Edward had loved him, which means that - if he had spoke up - Envy could have had a shot with the eldest Elric. It was his fault Edward wasn't alive; why wasn't it obvious to him when Edward hurt himself over something no one knew? It was the exact same thing Envy had done to himself. 'Dammit!' he cursed himself as he felt another one of his episodes forming. 'I could have saved him..!'

"...Envy...?" Pride spoke again, finally raising up from the bed. He walked over to Envy and stood in front of him, dull eyes searching violet for something.

"Yeah?" The sin asked through gritted teeth. He didn't want to be here anymore; he needed a walk, something to clear his head, - ease his rage - before he decided to take it out on Pride.

"Uh...mm.."

"C'mon, out with it!"


Feeling something wet on her shoulder, she gasped lightly and asked Pride what was wrong.

"I...I don't know..." he mumbled lightly into his bangs, which now covered his face from her view.

"Are you crying for Envy?" She asked, wipping the small tears away from his dull eyes.

He didn't reply, and were both silent after that. Soon, Pride lifted his head off her shoulder, and whipped his eyes. With little effort, he slid off of Sloth's lap and flashed her a small, determined smile. "I want to...make Envy happy."

With a raise of a slim eyebrow, green-eyes marveled at the teen. "You do?"

"Yes, because...Envy makes me...happy."

Sloth smiled softly. "So, you love him, then?"

A frown, "Love?"

"Never-mind, you will learn soon enough..."


"...Do you...Love me? Do you..love Pride?(1)"

Envy frowned, and turned away from the sin to leave the room, but was stopped when Pride clung to his left arm. "Let go!" He hissed, and shook his arm lightly. He didn't want to answer him, not now. Not while he was on the brink of losing it.

"...Please...Answer me...I...need to know..."

Violet eyes narrowed slightly as he watched Pride tightly close his eyes. Truthfully, he did love Pride; but it was the unwanted kind of love, the one that only caused pain. He remained silent, but gently lifted the golden sin's chin up. Slowly, he leaned in and kissed Pride.

Not even bothering to open his eyes, Pride returned the soft and gentle kiss. They were like that for a few minutes - with a moan here and there - until Envy pulled away. "Yes, I do," he muttered. Pride smiled happily, and the elder sin brought him closer for another kiss.

These kisses were so unlike the usual ones he got, - rough, fast, lustful and usual hurt-filled ones - they were soft, as if Envy was afraid that Pride would break.

Absentmindedly, Pride began to cry. He hadn't taken note of the salty water rolling down his cheeks until Envy pulled away from their second kiss and made an effort to wipe them off for him. "What's wrong?"

"I...I don't know(2)...I'm not sad..." He mumbled, looking up at Envy's face, his own filled with confusion. Was there something Sloth said that he wasn't remembering? No, he was positive.

"Are you crying because you're happy?"

"...That can...happen?"

Envy almost laughed, but managed to chuckle lightly at the clueless immortal. "Yes, when you're very, very happy. Are you very happy, Pride?"

"Yes!" Pride exclaimed, and even gave a small giggle.

Envy smiled and gently pulled Pride over to the bed. "That's good. I'm happy, too, but it's time for your nap. I think I will join you, tonight.."

The golden sin crawled into the giant bed while Envy got in on the other side. Silence filled the room, as the two cuddled together. After roughly ten minutes, Pride spoke up quietly, in case Envy was already asleep. "Envy...?"

"...Yes?"

"I...love you, too." Pride felt a light kiss being placed on his forehead before he fell asleep.


(1): Pride means something along the lines of "Do you love me (as in Pride), and not for who I use to be (as in Edward)." Pride was not talking in third person (though, I can imagin him). I hope this helped.

(2): Ne, Pride wasn't really crying. I mean, he was, but he didn't have control. Really, it was Edo - or what little spirit of him is in Pride - crying out of happiness, yet heartbreak. Sad, really. Mostlikely, when Pride crys from something other than pain, it would be Edward. I don't know if that's true, but I like the idea.

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