Jasper POV preface
I had no idea what compelled me to stay with her. I guess I didn't want to leave her as I was feeling the same way as she was, I knew how much she was hurting and I am positive most of the decision came out of selfishness to not be alone through it all and with her I wasn't alone.
Now here I stand watching this beautiful creature before me stand on the edge of a cliff, ready and willing to jump. I stand there watching from the edge of the forest. I felt so useless to the situation and I know I am. She turns to me and smiles, her eyes looking into to mine, she closes her eyes-she looks so peaceful as if she's sleeping, though I know she's not-and let herself fall backwards off the cliffs adge.
The last thing an angel remembers is falling.
"Jasper?" Alice calls standing in front of me. I didn't answer as I was still trying to process what she is telling him. The words repeating themselves, like a song you just can't seem to stop from going around in your head-a very annoying song-and as much as you want to forget it, you can't stop singing it.
'I'm in love with Edward and he loves me too'
This should hurt than it is. Though I had seen it coming-well felt-every time the looked at each other, I felt their emotions. But it still should hurt. A lot. But it doesn't
Esme came into the room-I hadn't noticed their return from the hunt-and stood in the doorway "We leave in ten" She said with a forced smile on her face but I could feel her sadness as she said the words. she didn't want to leave Forks but Edward felt that we needed to leave for Bella's safety.
We all agreed and were leaving for Alaska in-Well ten minutes apparently-Maybe I should just stay here. At least there's someone here that understands how I feel.
"I'm staying here and don't worry I'll stay clear of Bella. She'll just think I left with ya'll" I said looking up at everyone "I need to hunt. I will visit soon" I said and walked out of the house.
I was walking at human pace and then I quickened my steps to a jog and the I was running as fast as I could until I heard it. Well her. She was singing to herself a song that seemed familiar somehow but not.
I ran in the direction of her voice and stopped when I entered a clearing(NOT Edward and Bella's) The clearing floor was covered with flowers and in the middle lay Bella on a blanket wearing a pair of jeans and a short sleeved tee shirt, she also had another blanket folded neatly next to her and a duffel bag.
(The meadow thingy is on my web site under 'Fallen Angel' in albums .com-)
She was looking up to the cloudy sky while she continued singing to herself. I didn't realize I was getting closer to her until I stood a foot away from her looking down at her. I could now see she had her eyes closed. I sat next to her. She stopped singing and smiled.
"Hey Jasper" She said with her eyes still closed. How did she know it was me? I waved my hand across her face and she didn't show any sign that she could see it. I leaned closer to her. They were defiantly closed.
"Boo" she yelled sitting up but hitting her forehead on mine, she lay back down on the grass rubbing her forehead and I jumped back surprised.
"Only you would be able to scare a vampire and hurt yourself" I said laughing. She sat up and hit my arm.
"It's not my fault you have a hard head" She teased and I growled "Ohhhh. I'm so scared" she teased biting on her bottom lip. She looked so cute when she did that. Wait did I just think Bella looked cute? Yes, I did and the funny thing is I don't wanna take it back. Bella was always beautiful she just didn't see it. She never had.
It had taken a lot effort for me to control the lust coming off the male population-and even some females-of Forks high on her first day of school. I felt a strong wave of lust just thinking about that day and then Bella's lips were on mine. Passionate at first then softer.
I froze for a second and then started to respond wrapping my arms around my waist pulling her close to me as her arms went around my neck and her hands gripped my hair. I pushed her down on the grass so I was hovering above her.
Her lips felt soft and warm against mine as they moved together. I ran my tongue across her bottom lip asking for entrance and she opened her mouth. Our tongues danced together. Finally she had to pull away to breathe. I moved my lips to her neck leaving a trail of kisses.
"Jasper" Bella moaned as I sucked a sensitive stop below her ear. My name sounded so good coming from her lips. I kissed her again on the lips and she slipped her hands from my hair and slowly unbuttoned my shirt then run her hands across my bare chest. I shivered at her touch.
She pushed me up not breaking the kiss and slipped my shirt from my shoulders and then rolled us over so she was straddling me. She brushed her hands over the scars I had on my stomach and chest. I let my head fall and closed my eyes tightly. I hate my scars and the things I had done to get them. The were disgusting and a reminder of things I with I could forget.
I felt warm hands on the both side of my face pulling it back up. I opened my eyes to see Bella's chocolate brown one staring down at me.
"You should be proud of you body Jasper 'cause you sure are beautiful or is it hansom? Both, I think, yeah defiantly both" She said in one breath and smiled at me. I smiled back and crushed my lips to hers. She kissed me back and slid her hand into my hair again and I had mine on her bare waist due to her top having risen above her belly button. Her skin was incredibly warm under my hands.
"Bella we should stop" I whispered as she kissed my neck. She nodded in agreement but didn't stop. Not that I really wanted her to stop but soon I wouldn't be able to stop. I groaned when she started slightly grinding her hips into mine "Bella..." I moaned as she kissed my lips. I sat her up and pulled her top over her shoulders.
"Jasper" Bella whispered in my ear and I knew there was no going back from this. From us.
I lay next to Bella with my arms around her waist and her back against my chest as she runs her hand absent mindedly up and down my arm. We're still in the meadow wrapped up in a blanket and Bella has my shirt on while I had on a pair of boxers.
Bella suddenly jumps up and pulls me with her "What are you doing?" I question her
"We have to go or we'll be late" Bella answered handing me my jeans and pulling hers on. She pulls out her phone and types something in before putting it back and grabbing my hand "Can you run us there? It will be faster" She asked I nodded and picked her up bridal style "You need to go to the cliff in La Push" She said
"I can't. The treaty" I protested. She shook her head.
"It's okay they already know" She reassured me. I nodded and took of running.
I stopped at the edge of the forest about four meters from the cliffs edge. I placed Bella down and she turned to me and placed her lips on mine "No matter what I do you have to stay here okay?" She asked after breaking the kiss.
"Why?" I asked confused
"There is a lot I need to explain but I have to do this" She told me "Now please promise no matter what I do you want move from this spot. Do you promise?" She asked pleading
"I promise" I told her and kissed her forehead.
"I love you and I'm not sure if that's good or bad but I do and no matter what I do everything will be fine in the end" She told me
"I love you too and I'm positive it's a good thing" I said. she kissed me again and it was full of love.
"I have to go of the cliff and you can't stop me. I'll be fine. I promise" I looked into her eyes and I knew it was true. For what ever reason she needed to jump and I knew I couldn't do anything to stop her so I just stood there frozen "The last thing an angel remembers is falling"She whispered in my ear then she stepped away from me and towards the ciff.
She stopped on the edge and took a deep breath. I felt so empty as she stands at the cliffs edge so willing to jump for reasons unknown to me. She turns to me and smiles, her eyes looking into to mine, she closes her eyes and lets herself fall backwards off the cliffs edge and my mind goes into over drive. What had I just agreed to? I didn't want to break my promise but I also couldn't stand here like an idiot.
The only thing going through my mind as I run to the cliffs and jump over are her words 'The last thing an angel remembers is falling'
Review and criticise is welcome 'cause I noticed how weird it was reading through it. so please tell my what you think.
