Wake up
Title: Wake up
Author: Rebecka Larsson
Classification: Lost; angst; Jack/Kate/Sawyer
Spoilers: Nothing, I believe.
Disclaimer: "Lost" do not belong to me. It all belongs to JJ Abrams, the cretors and producers of Lost. Don't sue.
Written: December, 24 - 2006
Summary: If she could only turn back time, and make some other decision, just not that one. Of course, she loved Sawyer, but as a friend, and nothing more.
A/N: I haven't written a fanfic in quite a while, but now I finally took the time, and I figured a Jack/Kate/Sawyer fic was in order, after the very exiting episode 'I do'. This is maybe a little something of what I hope will happen. Please read, and review.
Why would you risk it, Kate? Why would you risk it? The thoughts kept ringing in her head and she beat herself to try to make it stop. How could she? How could she betray both him and herself? She had done a mistake, and she was ashamed of it. If she could only turn back time, and make some other decision, just not that one.
Of course, she loved Sawyer, but as a friend, and nothing more. She could never see herself with him, not in the past, not now and definitely not in the future. And now she had tricked him into believing she was his, that they were... together. She didn't want to be together with him at all! But why would he think otherwise after giving her entire self to him. He had embraced her in his arms, just when she needed comfort the most, but she had let it go way to far.
And what about Jack? Yeah, Jack⦠What would he think of her if he found out? He would probably define her as a slut and lose all of his respect for her. That was the most horrifying she could think about in this moment. Losing Jack's respect and maybe even his trust. She had kissed him, and that day she had fooled him too, to believe something was going to happen. Though, she could see herself in Jack's arms, and it felt good. Sawyer had been a complete bastard to both Kate and everyone else on this island, but she had forgiven him, because she trusted him too much, and needed someone who understood where she came from.
He knew that she had killed someone, and still he looked at her as anyone else. If Jack knew... well, Jack would never look at her the same way, she was sure. He was a doctor, and he spent his life doing everything he could to save people's life, and to think that she had done the exact opposite. But she loved Jack. He was the most honest and caring man she had ever met, and she trusted him utterly and completely.
She had to make sure that he never found out about what happened between her and Sawyer, and she had to make sure that Sawyer got back to his old habits, and forget about their little fling. No one would ever find out about how much of a traitor Kate actually was.
