It wasn't a secret that magic was forbidden under the reign of Uther Pendragon in Camelot. It was quite the opposite. Everyone knew and if you were "unlucky" enough to be born with magic, you also knew that you were in a delicate situation. The lies, the hiding. Nothing was normal if you were a sorcerer or a sorceress. Just like me.

I was running through the woods, when I heard a scream. A voice that was just far too familiar to me. "Gwaine..." Quickly I turned around to make my way towards him. He was kneeling in front of Morgana. "Ástríce!" I shouted my hand focused on Morgana but nothing happened. I couldn't interfere and watched Gwaine die right there in front of me.

"Milady." My eyes opened and I noticed how hard I was breathing. Gwen was standing in front of me looking worried. "Milady are you feeling unwell? Should I call Gaius?" I tried to calm down but I couldn't get past the image of Gwaine dying. "Did you have another nightmare?" A nightmare. It must have been one. I tried to reassure myself of it, but there was still a part that couldn't let go of the images I had just seen.

"Freya." Gwen's voice was gentler than before. "I'm so sorry to get you worried Gwen. If you could call Gaius I'd appreciate it." "Of course milady." "Gwen?" Just before she was out of my chambers I called her again. "Please make sure my brother doesn't hear of this. I don't want him to be worried about nothing." "Of course." Guinevere then left the room and I waited for her to return with Gaius.

Once they had returned to my chambers it wasn't just Gaius. Merlin was with him as well. Gaius was the only person that I had trusted with my secret. Not even my brother, Leon, knew. Gaius sat down next to me. "What did you see Freya?" I looked at him but my eyes quickly moved to Merlin. Gaius noticed it right away. "Merlin could you leave us for a moment?" He nodded and left together with Gwen. "I…" How would I tell him that I saw Morgana? After all she was Uther's ward. Even if Gaius believed that I had magic. Would he believe that I had the ability to see the future as well? "I saw Gwaine." I decided to keep Morgana's part in my dream to myself for now.

"What happened to him?" "He was suffering. I couldn't make anything else out besides him. He was dying. Someone was torturing him for information." "You're talking about the man that helped Arthur and Merlin in the tavern, right? What would he know?" Thinking of it Gwaine looked a lot like a Knight of Camelot in my dream. "I'm afraid I don't know the answer to that Gaius." "Lady Morgana has been complaining about nightmares as well recently. Do you think there could be any connection between the two of you?" "Are you asking me if Lady Morgana has magic? I think if she did I would feel it. I have felt a magic presence only once before in Camelot but never around Morgana." Then my door opened once more and Leon was rushing towards my bed. "Freya are you alright? The guards told me that Gaius had entered your chambers a while ago." "Sir Leon I'm afraid your sister is suffering from nightmares." "Nightmares?" Leon looked at me. "I'm fine, really. It just troubles me to sleep when I have them." I reassured him that everything was fine. It was all I could do after all. I knew how much he believed in Uther and Arthur.

He had always been loyal to them, ambitious to win every fight, to show them how grateful he was for letting us live in Camelot after our parents had died. "And you are sure that you're fine?" "Don't you have your training to attend?" I looked at him with a smile. "There is no reason to be worried Leon. I promise." I said putting my hand on his squeezing it lightly. "Gaius I rely on you to take care of my little sister." "Of course sir." Leon kissed my forehead and left for his training, together with Arthur and the other knights.

A few days later together with Gwen I went into town. "And you're sure your brother doesn't have a problem with you going into town like this? He's always been very protective of you." Gwen asked after we had made it to the flower stand. "He doesn't have to know, does he?" I smiled at her and hooked my arm into hers. "It just feels so nice to go into town again. Especially with a good friend like you Gwen." I had known Gwen all my life ever since her mother was a servant in our household. "I'm so happy we met again after Leon and I came to Camelot, I missed you dearly." I said and Gwen smiled at me.

Just as we walked past the tavern the door opened and a man was running out of it right into us, causing me to fall to the ground. Merlin was right behind him almost running into Gwen. "I'm so sorry Freya." Merlin helped me up while the other man was still lying on the ground supporting himself on his arms. I quickly dusted of my dress while Merlin helped the man that turned out to be Gwaine.

I could feel my heart skipping a beat. "I'm so sorry Milady." Gwaine muttered as Merlin was helping him up. "You two sure were in a rush." Gwen said looking at Merlin and Gwaine. "Well people here don't like it if you can't pay." Gwaine said with a grin on his face. "Again my apologies ladies." Gwaine said and was on his way to leave with Merlin right behind him.

"Gwaine!" The words left my mouth before I could stop myself. What if I could help him? What if I could prevent his death? He turned around once more, walking closer towards me. "May I have a word with you in private, if possible?" "Of course." "Guinevere would you please go on without me?" "Are you sure?" I nodded and then she and Merlin made their way back to the castle while I was alone with Gwaine.

"What did you want to talk about Princess?" He grinned at me. "I'm not... Are you planning to leave Camelot?" I asked and of course he got the wrong impression right away. "Would you miss me if I would Freya?" "Don't make a fool of yourself. I'm just curious." "I'm not one to stay at one place for too long. So I will leave Camelot sooner rather than later." He answered honestly. I felt tense by just the thought of him leaving. "Will you…" But before I could say anything else I saw Leon coming towards us. "Oh no." Gwaine turned around as well to see what I was looking at. "Freya." Leon said surprised and walked towards us. "Gwaine isn't it? You're the man that saved Arthur." Leon smiled at him and all the tension left my body. Leon always had the ability to read people easily and even though Gwaine held to himself a lot he couldn't be a bad person if Leon let his guard down that easily.

"Freya what are you doing here?" he asked and pulled me out of my thoughts. "I went to buy some flowers together with Gwen when Gwaine run into me." Quite literally. "Well it would be my pleasure to accompany you back to the castle." I knew it wasn't a suggestion of him, more a polite way of telling me that it was time to head back. "I hope you find what you're looking for Gwaine. No matter where you will find it." I smiled at him. "Thank you Freya." He smiled back at me, took my hand in his and kissed the back of it. I could feel the heat rushing into my cheeks. And then Leon turned to leave but once more I turned around to look at Gwaine, hoping that our paths would cross again – sooner rather than later. _

But I didn't see him for a few months, since Uther had banished him from Camelot. After I had heard of it I tried to talk to Arthur. In the hope that he could somehow convince his father to lift the banishment but there was nothing he could do. Not knowing when or if I would see Gwaine again made me sad beyond words. It was then when I had realized that I had fallen for him. One afternoon I went out with Leon for a ride. "Freya, you worry me. I haven't seen you this sad since we had to leave home." I didn't know how to answer him. "Can we pause for a while?" I asked instead. We slowed down the horses and stopped close to a small stream. After I had watered my horse, I sat down on the green grass.

"Please tell me what is troubling you." Leon sat down next to me but I still wouldn't give him the reasons why I was feeling so upset. There was a pleasant silence between the two of us when Leon stood up clutching his hand to his sword. "What is it?" I asked getting off the ground as well, walking towards my horse. "Don't move." Leon whispered and that was when four men came running towards us. Quickly I grabbed the sword that I had hidden under the saddlecloth. I run towards Leon and together we fought the bandits. "This is almost like practice at home." Leon said fighting of one of the bandits. After we had overpowered the first three I heard Leon shout at me. "Watch your back!" But just as I turned around the bandit fell over and a dagger was stuck in his back. Leon and I both looked up and there he was. "Gwaine." Leon walked up to me and held on to my arm. He just gave Leon a quick nod, while he ignored me completely. Then he turned around and left.

After that incident I tried to forget about him. But how could I? Even though he didn't say anything nor looked at me – he saved our lives. I was sitting in my chambers when someone knocked at my door. Merlin poked his head inside with a bright smile on his face. "You seem to be happy. Did Arthur spare you from polishing his armor today?" "No." He laughed "'Course not." "Then why are you so happy?" I asked pushing my plate full of food further away from me. "Gwaine is back." He said with a grin on his face. Uther had died just mere weeks ago, which meant that he wasn't banished anymore. "Why would he be back?" I asked trying to sound at least uninterested. "Arthur is making him a knight. He's going to stay here and he will be a Knight of Camelot." Merlin was excited for his friend, probably more excited than Gwaine himself.

Together with Merlin I went to the throne room to see Gwaine becoming a knight. He was standing together with Leon and the other knights. My heart was torn between sorrow and happiness. I was glad to see him again and I knew he would be a good knight, but what if this was the path to his death? When he saw me next to Merlin a small smile appeared on his face. After the ceremony was over I left the throne room before Gwaine could talk to me, but I wasn't fast enough.

"Freya." He held onto my arm and I turned around to look at him. He hadn't changed much. His hair might have been a few inches shorter the last time I saw him, his eyes still the perfect mix of green and brown with a spark in them whenever he smiled. Like right now. I didn't know what to say to him, too many thoughts were running through my head. "Please join me for dinner tonight so we can talk." His smile didn't fade. The hand that was holding onto my arm had wandered to my hand, which he was holding now. "I know there is much to discuss, but I feel like the halls of the Citadel aren't the right place for this conversation." Softly he squeezed my hand. "I…" I tried to bring out something. Really just anything but I fell silent. Leon walked towards us but Gwaine didn't let go of my hand.

"Freya it's a pleasant surprise isn't rit?" Leon smiled at me but my eyes were fixed on Gwaine. That's when I noticed that he had let go of my hand. Just then I saw Gwen walking not far from us. "I'm very sorry but I already have plans with Gwen." Walking towards her I left Gwaine and Leon behind me. "Are you alright Freya?" Gwen asked as I took her hand and walked around the corner, dragging her behind me. "I don't know… I guess I had given up hope on seeing him again. I've tried so hard to forget him, to forget how he makes me feel." "How does Gwaine make you feel?" Gwen asked looking at me. "I can't explain it, but I have never felt like this before." She smiled at me like she understood what I was talking about. "Promise me something Freya, as a friend." "What is it?" "Meet with him and let him explain. I am certain it will make you happier than running away from him." I knew that she was right, but that didn't change the fact that I was scared of what he had to say.

I looked around the corner just to see that Leon and Gwaine weren't there anymore. "Do you know where Gwaine's chambers are?" She nodded with an even brighter smile and brought me there right away. "Good luck." Gwen gave me a short hug for encouragement and then left. I took a deep breath and knocked at the door. Just a few moments later the door opened and Gwaine was standing in front of me. "Hello princess." A smile formed itself upon my face. He offered me to come into his room but I declined his offer. "I would love to have dinner with you Gwaine." I answered his question from before. He started to grin at me which turned quickly into a smile. "Then why don't we meet here at sundown?" "I'll see you then." Once more I smiled at him and then went back to my chambers. Dreading and looking forward to this dinner at the same time.