[I do not own Glee, it's the property of Ryan Murphy and FOX]

Kurt walked through the front door and ran straight down to the basement to his bedroom before Finn had even taken his shoes off; as soon as he reached his dresser he opened the top drawer and took a slim leather pouch out of it and turning it upside down he caught the sharp blade between his thumb and second finger and then he finally pulled the leather off of the knife and threw it gently onto the dresser table, he just stood there and stared at the knife – he'd had on it him since that awful kiss in the locker room with Karofsky and still nobody knew and Kurt was determined that it would stay that way!

He was jerked from his thoughts when he heard footfalls on the stairs and quickly he stuffed the knife back into its sheath and put it back into the drawer and then turned around slightly and gave Finn a small smile. Finn just stood there looking at him "Mercedes said she would like to talk to you… Could you get on IM in a few minutes?" without waiting for an answer Finn ascended the stairs and went into the lounge and turned on the soccer game leaving Kurt to his black thoughts…

He looked at the clock and decided he may as well face the music so with that he walked up the stairs and going into the kitchen he switched his laptop on and waited for it to load up then grabbing his headphones off the side he plugged them in and waited for MSN to load up…

Fashion_gurl & Defying_Gravity have just signed in

Fashion_gurl says: So, I'm not dreaming? You really are leaving McKinley?

Defying_Gravity says: Mercedes, I'm so sorry but I can't stay there another minute; regardless of what Puck or Finn say I'm not –safe- there anymore!

Fashion_gurl says: But you haven't even given them the chance to show you that they can help you out!

Defying_Gravity says: This isn't up for discussion! As of Monday I'm a Dalton Academy student and that's it! I'm sorry if I've broken your heart again M, but in the long run I'm better off going to Dalton and I know deep down in your heart you agree with me, don't you?

Fashion_gurl has signed out

Defying_Gravity says: DAMMIT!

Courage17 has signed in

Courage17 says: Hey Kurt, what's up? You seem a little ticked off, everything OK?

Defying_Gravity says: Mercedes doesn't understand why I have to leave WMHS and it's driving me a little mad… Anyway how are you?

Courage17 says: Leave McKinley? Where are you going? I'm fine thank you. How did the wedding go?

Defying_Gravity says: As of Monday I'm becoming a Dalton Academy student! The wedding was absolutely perfect – Carole looked amazing and Dad's dancing really wasn't that bad hehe…

Courage17 says: Wow Kurt why didn't you tell me things were so bad? Don't get me wrong I'm so glad you're coming to Dalton but I thought things were getting better back at McKinley?

Defying_Gravity says: Dad and Carole had a meeting with the principal and then they came by just as I was heading into glee club to rehearse and they told me that they wanted to spend their honeymoon money on the tuition fees, and I couldn't exactly protest could I?

Courage17 says: No, I guess you couldn't… Well I'm glad you're coming on board and I promise to let you audition for the Warblers but right now I have to go offline for a bit as we have a practice but I'll see you on Monday! Bye for now Kurt

Defying_Gravity says: Bye Blaine

Courage17 and Defying_Gravity have just signed out.

Kurt switched the laptop off and went to go back to his room only to find Carole standing in the kitchen doorway with her hands on her hips "Where do you think you're going, hm? Dinner's nearly ready… It's your favourite too!" Kurt sighed and looked up at his step- mum "But I'm really not that hungry; besides I've just told all my friends I'm transferring to a school that are their competion in the upcoming Nationals I cannot think about food at the moment. I'm sorry, Carole, but I can't" With that he slinked his way past her and ran downstairs to his bedroom opened up the dresser drawer took the leather sheath out and walked into the bathroom and locked the door…

A/N: Chapter one is down! Yes this fanfiction is all about Kurt feeling suicidal, depressing subject I know but if you would be so kind as to leave me a comment/review I'd be very grateful. Thank you