When I saw what he did,

I wanted to save you.

I stuffed and I pushed.

I wanted to bring you back to life.

I wanted you to be safe.

But since that day, the pain wouldn't go away.

You lashed out at those who meant no harm.

And I was ashamed.

I hid myself away so that no one could see

That I thought it was me

Who gave you the pain that keeps you this way.

I wish to frown but I am not allowed.

I wish to hear sound so I cannot drown

In the sorrows from that very day.

And the mistakes I think I've already made.