A/N: This is my 1st attempt at fan fiction be kind.

Disclaimer: I do not own twilight. I'm just taking the characters out for a spin.

BPOV

It's been months 6 months to be exact. I still felt numb, I just wanted to feel again but every time I let myself feel the whole in my heart would swell and ripple around the edges. Jacob tried to heal the hole and for a while it seemed to be mending but he could only put back the pieces that I had left. There would always be a piece missing the piece that Ed…That he took with him the vital piece of the puzzle.

Things are bad again and I don't think I can go on anymore. I wonder if Alice will see or if she would even care. But either way I have decided I will not live in this world without him. I know I made a promise and im breaking it but he broke his first. "It will be as if I never existed"

He can take my CD, pictures, plain tickets but I remember him every time I sit alone in biology feeling the imprint of his hands were he had griped to desk on that first day, every time I hear music I hear My…..The Lullaby and of coarse I have the physical evidence on my body the crescent shaped scare on my wrist gave proof to the fact that Vampires existed and the memory of how I got that scare will never be forgotten, the burn of the venom the awful fire. I winched at the memory.

All that was left was the way in which to end it. Now would be as good as time as any Charlie wouldn't be home until Sunday night he was on an extended fishing trip with Harry. So I had 3 days alone. So there was no one to stop me, so before I made my final decision. I took the phone off the hook turned off my cell and headed for the bathroom.

I turned the water on in the tub not even caring to make it comfortably warm. Warmth is for the living and I am just corpse buried above ground. When the tub was half full I removed my clothes and reached for Charlie's razor. With tearless eyes I lowered myself into the cold water not allowing the cold of the water to bring back the memories.

I placed the razor on of the crescent shaped mark on my wrist. If he wanted it to be as if he never existed then I would erase the physical evidence myself. I allowed myself to say his name one last time. "Goodbye Edward I love you" and I slashed hard on my wrist.

Immediately I smelt the blood rusted salt smell but I felt no pain. I guess I really was numb "It will be as if I never existed" I whispered

I looked down at my wrist at the large red gash I had created and gasped. I saw the red but mixed in with the red a thick clear liquid that seemed to be leaking from the wound. It seemed that the liquid was coming out of the now cut open bite mark and was now mixing in with the surrounding bloody flesh.

At first all I felt was a tingling in my wrist then warmth. I was in an ice cold bath naked where was the heat coming from? Then the warmth turned into a heat. And I submerged my arm to try and sooth the burn in my wrist, but the burn just continued to build and I realized I felt this before. In the ballet studio with James. It was vampire venom and I was once again burning. Before I was completely consumed by the fire I thought of the irony that I was trying to end my life and will now be cursed to live forever without him. Then the fire consumed me. And I was lost to the flames.

APOV

It had been has been six months since we left forks, left Bella, and it has been five months since Edward left, we hear from him now and again like he promised, last I seen he was in south America.

I know I promised him I wouldn't, that we left Bella to protect her, but I had to make sure. Edward was on another continent and who knows when we will ever see him again. So every now and then I would sneak a peak into Bella's life. Every time I hoped and every time that hope was shattered by what I saw. The best way to describe it was well like watching reruns. Bella wakes up screaming, Bella dresses for school, Bella at school, Bella goes home does her home work and chores, Bella reluctantly goes to bed, and the cycle repeats. She was just going through the motions of life not really living it. Until one day she disappeared altogether and I thought I had lost her.

In all of my existence as a Vampire I had never had a headache until that day. For hours I strained to force a vision, I had to know that she was alright. She was my best friend I loved her like a sister, I was minutes away from heading to the airport when her future suddenly reappeared as if the blinds had been lifted. But her future was now clouded and uncertain.

And now here we are in Denali Visiting Tanya's family when suddenly I am hit with multiple visions. Bella hanging from the rafters, Bella with a bullet hole in her head, Bella with a knife in her chest her hand still on the handle. All these images are options she is toying with, deciding on. I try to see further but as I look far I see only Black this will happen soon and I don't have much time to stop her.

"NO" I scream

I scramble for my cell phone but before I can even pull it from my bag I am hit with a vision. Bella she is taking the phone off the wall and had turned off her cell phone she wants no interruptions for what she is planning,

"Bella please don't" I scream at the vision before me willing her to hear me, but she just slowly walks up the stairs towards the bathroom. The choice is made and I cannot help but watch as my sister walks to her death at her own hand. If I could cry I would have shed buckets by now. I feel Jasper at my side and can feel him sending me calming waves but nothing can stem the grief I feel at the scene unfolding before me.

She was naked in the cold tub now with a razor in her hand pressed to her wrist. She closed her eyes and spoke. "Goodbye Edward I love you" and the she slashed her wrist deep. She doesn't even scream as the blade slices flesh, just stares at the wound with a blank expression. twisting her wrist around as if watching the blood flow. " It will be as if I never existed" She whispers to herself.

By this point I was dry sobbing into Jaspers Shirt his frantic questions falling on deaf ears as I witnessed this tragedy all to soon Bella Began to fade and my vision with her.

As hard as i could i looked for Bella and found nothing for a solid day i searched hoping against hope that somehow she would be alright then out of nowhere I see a forest and someone darting through it at a speed only achievable by one of my kind I can't make out who it is I am seeing only that they are running ...and fast. All of a sudden they stop. as if sensing my presence. The unknown Vampire slowly looks over her shoulder towards my Point of View and what I see sends a jolt of fear and also hope through me. There with Her long Brown hair sparkly ivory skin and deep ruby red eyes is a my best friend and sister...Bella is now, or very soon will be a newborn Vampire.