Title: My Addiction
Summary: The monster introduced me to the perfect temptation. Now, it was my addiction. And I yearned for it. Needed it like I needed oxygen to breath. I am weak. But I no longer care.
Warning: Not much in there. A mention of yaoi, but no lemon or lime. Sorry.
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters Sasuke Uchiha and Naruto Uzumaki. I wish.
I hadn't heard of the monster before I became a genin.
All I knew was revenge
That was before the monster
But the monster introduced me to my temptation.
Now, it was my addiction.
Such a silly word
To have a great dependence on something,
A dependence that was not easy to break
A Need that wasn't easily stopped
That's what the addiction was like
A thirst that could not be quenched
A hunger that could not be satisfied
It was like I was unable to stop myself
I knew it was wrong
I knew that long ago when I had first met the monster
I knew it wasn't healthy
That it wasn't going to work
And yet I yearned for it
Needed it like I needed oxygen to breath
Like I needed a heart to live
A brain to think
My addiction was the only thing that would satisfy my Need to live
And I was nothing without it
I was weak
I am weak
Weaker than I should have been
Weaker than I should be
But I no longer care.
All that is left is the Need
This incredible Need to get more of it
To give it more of me
To never leave the source of my addiction
Uzumaki Naruto
Perfect Naruto
The perfect temptation that would drag me into the clutches of the monster
And now, I was addicted.
My perfect addiction was irresistible.
And I was unable to pull away.
Even if I could leave,
I wouldn't.
I was addicted too strong.
I needed him every day to live
Every night to breath
And If I were going to leave this world,
I would need him to die
There was nothing else as important to me as he was
And I was addicted
For life
There was no escape the inexplicable Need to satisfy the Addiction
The addiction that only he could smother
It was only him
Nothing mattered but him
Not even me
Not anymore
The only chance to pull away from him was when I was still tempted by the monster
But the monster had long ago left
Now there was only him
The source of my addiction
The source of my existence
Nothing else was needed
Only him
My addiction
It held fast to me
Never relinquished its hold
Refused to let me go
I was completely and inexplicably trapped by him
I belonged to my addiction
To Naruto
And I couldn't leave
It was hard to leave
Impossible to leave
But it was easy to stay
So simple
Too easy
Whenever a doubt in my mind surfaced, he would be there
And I'd be addicted all over again
It was terrifying
How much I relied on him
How much I needed him to live
I Needed him like humans Need air to breath
Like the planets Needed the sun to flourish
I was never going to leave him
I couldn't leave him
If I left him
I would die
Cease to be
Cease to exist
There was no reason for me to live if he wasn't with me
There was no reason for anything
And I knew that with all of my life
Thrived from that single belief
From him
That was my addiction
My Need
There was nothing else
Because nothing else mattered
The addiction kept hold of me
All of me
And it refused to let go
I was weak
I am weak
Weaker than I should have been
Weaker than I should be
But I didn't care
Because nothing mattered
I was nothing without it
My addiction was the only thing that would satisfy my Need to live
My Need for him
A Need that wasn't easily stopped
That's what the addiction was like
A thirst that could not be quenched
A hunger that could not be satisfied
It was like I was unable to stop myself
But I didn't want to
I knew it was wrong
But I didn't care
I knew it wasn't healthy
But Naruto lived off of ramen and sweets
Our relationship was healthier than his eating habits
I knew it wasn't going to work
But I prayed for it to
Yearned for it
Needed it like I needed oxygen to breath
Like I needed a heart to live
A brain to think
And that was all
All I needed was him
The source of my addiction
A Need that wasn't easily stopped
To have a great dependence on something
that was not easy to break
Impossible to break
Bound for life
It was a silly word
Addiction
It was what happened after you heard the monster
The monster introduces you to the possibility
It introduced me to my temptation
The perfect temptation
Now, it was only an addiction
It was all I knew
Originally, it was different
At first, all I knew was revenge
That was before I heard of the monster
And
I hadn't heard of the monster before I became a genin
Sometimes, I miss those days
This has got to be the purest fanfic I've written. I still haven't gotten a review from The Monster (the prequel to My Addiction). Really? Come on! You could just click that review button and write GOOD! It doesn't have to be some long review, but please! If this keeps up, I'll never write anything lower than a M rating again!
Jeez…
*big sigh*
I'm done yelling now.
Forgive me.
