AN: Listen to Hurt by Nine Inch Nails as you read.
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha. The title is a lyric from the song.
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Beneath the Stains of Time
by Lyllithe
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I'm sorry.
I am so sorry… I'm aware of your feelings, I am. I do see the glances you shoot my way. I'm not blind to these things; I can hear your heartbeat speed up around me. I see the love and longing in your stormy eyes. Your eyes; windows to your soul—they show me all I need to know.
And yet, this time, I wish I didn't see them…
I am so sorry… but I can't bring myself to reciprocate those feelings. I cannot let myself love you, hurt you and taint you. I'm not over her. I'm not over the past. The past is not something I can ever let go of, or forget. Even if my feelings for her disappear, I can't allow myself to love you. People would try to kill you. My enemies already hate you for being with me, staying by my side. Please don't do this to yourself… go away, before you sink deeper… go, before it's too late to turn around.
I will drive you away… before your feelings disappear. Before you choose to leave me, on your own will…
Because everyone does. In the end, everyone goes away.
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AN: Pretty self explanatory, but it's Inuyasha on the subject of Kagome.
